Sunday, December 31, 2006
last night i spent 3 hour in the cafe far than starsee cafe,heavily hacked,just to finished posting to my blogs.i left there after 0:30 am and still a man waited on the way near the dorm talking with his cell phone.the neighbors of my room all turned off light this time,for i turned off light before i left there after 10 pm and intending spent overnight in cafe.before went to cafe i also read awhile an ebook about intelligence work in vietnam and 9.11.the night before yesterday also wasted 2 hours additionally to post being hacked heavily in the cafe i with a member card.dog just need some taste to its blood and corpse.
last night i went to bed after 1 am and till 1 pm i woke up and got up after 2 pm.i dreamed luyongxiang,the former dean of china academy association,visited qiqihar as the vice president of china,to collect survey and criticism on government works.i also dreamed witnessing a consulting company’s operation process.after getting up,i washed my bedthrob and went to computer market to buy a sd card for my baby’s mother’s camera as planned.i haunted the workshop i dealt with for quite sometimes but the clerkwoman seemingly unhappily with me.after returned to my baby’s mother’s home i also found newly pasted vendor token half ripped and can’t identify the date it sell to me,so its 5 years warranty will had problem to satisfied.its speed claimed 60x,when i tried on the pc within the workshop,coping 125 MB files costed 4 or 5 minutes and copy a single file of 940MB costed 8 minutes at home computer.it casted me 115 yuan.i really doubting if i should buy another sd card for myself for download.
my baby’s mother glad to see the new sd card.her kid sister again there watching movie on her notebook wrapped herself in the quilt.i really disgusting her.and my baby slept on bed,likely threatened by the evil kid sister of his mother.in a moment i strongly felt my disappointment to my baby’s mother for her being as lazy and mediocre as her kid sister or her family.she never knew how to make good use of her notebook or computer,except watching movie and find courseware for her teaching demonstration.chinese education doomed to lose,and the teachers doomed to meanless.
my baby’s mother again sneered my delaying there for dinner.and she prepared my baby to shop with her mother and her kid sister.she complained my baby suffering cold now,and asscrible that to my holding my baby outside without enough clothes.but i know its just the evil and cold the nasty her kid sister brought.after they left,i busy with customized settings for blog tool and firefox settings.and till 6 pm i left to dorm and ate dinner at the pub i seldom visited.its boss was a middle aged man from hunan prov. neighbor prov. to my hometown.thats the only meal i had today.then i visited the cafe i enjoyed surfing without serious hacking in the 2 overnight and got know it charged 7 yuan for overnight as usual,even on its reception desk there is a notice saying the cop demanded increase its fee to 10 yuan an overnight in weekends,and 2 yuan for an hour in weekends.then i returned to dorm to rest,to ready for overnight surfing.
bye.i love u,in near and far.i just can’t see the direction u working.holiday near,and i don’t know if u care my loneliness.kiss u with tear.
Saturday, December 30, 2006
last night i went to bed after 0:17 am.i dreamed a lot but after my baby’s mother buzzed in inquiring my password for my salary book from icbc i forgot them totally.the salary book with icbc again lost its magnetism,likely another plot of dog to hide their evil.i got up at 12:29 and headed to see my baby at once.outside of the entrance of the home i met his mother leaving,telling me she had carried my baby visiting the bank once and the password i told her miss working.she returned to home with me and left again after i told her right password.my baby welcomed me.i ate some banana with him and he played some time with tap water and torch.the kid sister slept in the room for my baby.after the grandma arrived i left to shower in the common bathroom.a piece of paper pasted on the door of the bathroom saying the association of bathroom of the city demand bath price increased to 4 yuan per man.but i was charged 2.5 yuan as usual.returned home i soon held my baby to haunt outside to buy him candy as i promised.my baby directed me passed the sports yard where we stayed awhile and talked to 3 little girls who rested on the rim of the ice ground.then we headed to the supermarket nearby,likely a affiliate of islamics and hostile toward us before.on the way my baby asked me to buy him a stick of sugar gourd and enjoyed it at once.he also played awhile on the sliding board within the residential area.i bought him 3 kind of candy costing me near 20 yuan,knowing i will gain 700 yuan from qrrs,my once working place.then we returned.my baby enjoyed the candy and jelly very much at home.soon his mother returned and condemned candy harmful to his teeth.the grandma prepared dinner and her second daughter buzzed in and she left.the kid sister complained a lot about her medcines and let my baby’s mother to read the readme of the bottles.under my urge,they started to dinner.2 dishes,including a soup which i liked.my baby’s mother made a lot of demand to let me leave but i didn’t.she also read the bonus dispatching sheet from her colleague and at a lose finding some of my once workmates earned 5000 yuan this time and sneered at me.when we started to watch tv on 2006 review the kid son of the kid sister returned and watched aside me and challenged.my baby laughed a lot with playing with standing on the lofty mat and stepped down.i really love him.when his mother started to scorn me again,he was milked to sleep.i waited till he slept.
its a nice day.the sun perfectly bright.the sky is blue.the moon appeared before it turns dark,in the mid sky,faultlessly.my baby pointed to her quite sometimes on the way to the supermarket.i love her the moon.
bye.i love u.in peace and still.kiss u with bear.
Friday, December 29, 2006
this morning i ate my breakfast after surfed overnight.i tried to doze on bed but challenge around let me awake.till 11:13 am i got up.after lunch i jogged in the sunshine in the yard for some time till dog let me felt cold.when i turned on my radio rotten rat in neighbor room stroke the wall to let me notice them ,as they kept on doing so to boast their ugliness.later i went to renew my borrowed pc magzines.i read some time there on the magzines not to lend.then i read newspaper in the workers’ palace.a lot of digests committed to brag china’s improved influence onto the world,to satisfy the trapped head of china in the problematic situation within china and to avoid right evaluation.china nowadays really a paper tiger.its dependence onto us and western world far less recognized.and if us stopped to grow,china will suffer serious backslash.
in the dorm after returning i read the mag i borrowed.rat busy with challenging me.they sometimes babble,sometime silenced and stick out their ears to spy.they plotted to fish in my overnight surfing and want to ruin my sleep.that’s all laugh in god’s view.
bye.i likely will enjoyed warez stuff again,now that my firefox equipped with ftp function.i love u.kiss u with bear.
last night i spent 2 more hours in cafe to blog and tried to backup my working environment.i stayed late in the dorm after 0:40 am,just wondering.in the dawn my baby's mother buzzed in and let me go over to care my baby for the kid sister need again to see the doctor.i don't felt sleepy so i headed on.there my baby just welcomed me from the lavatory.after the kid sister left,i gradually felt very sleepy.my baby slept around 10 am and slept for about 40 minutes,at the same time i still can kept awake,holding him in arms to wander.when his mother returned i didn't eat lunch but slept on bed.when his mother left my baby cried for my care and refused the kid sister's care.so i got up and cared him but still sleepy.my baby soon bored and asked to haunted outside of the door.so i brought him to the corridor but he demanded to downstairs several floors then i lost temper and beat his button and he cried.later he slept and the kid sister suggested to lay him on the bed and i did.i slept aside him.i worried him to wake up in the dream frequently.but he finally woke up when i shift my head from the pillar less to bother him.so i got up to care him.soon the grandma arrived and she let me continue to sleep and i did.i woke up later than 4 pm and stayed on bed wondering how to operate in cafe tonight.lately the kid sister cooked.i at that time busy with sorting my firefox with addons on the notebook and my baby approached me and bumped on the keyboard and let his mother can't afford.i ate 3 bowl of rice at dinner.the kid sister likely first time recently cooked 2 hot dishes even including a hot soup,which very satisfied me.after dinner i put on my feather coat,replaced the suits i worn so far.i also put on wool trousers. l left after kissed my baby and let him kissed me.i love him so much.in the dorm i laid myself on bed waiting for time to spent overnight in cafe.the room i lived was likely just seperated with neighbor with thin paper wall,any sound can be clearly heard by those on the other side of the wall.its just a plot.the day i returned to the dorm the administrator insisted my living the room,without any alternative offer.its previously a canteen.and the canteen also a product of change of usage.its original wall should be as thick as others,likely all old style thick concrete wall under the influence of the former soviet.when i lived here the left side neighbor room near the entrance of the dorm was empty,occupied by tools and materials,then the hooligans lived there. they not only hooligans as a common phenomeno all over the organization of qrrs, but had complicate background to exert dirty and spy onto me.the two buildings facing the dorm zone all 8 floors while other buildings parallel to them all shorter,the obvious ill will was to conquer the graduates ,quite some not of local offspring but the prc's citizen,with the local hooligans here rampant.its gate of the dorm zone was also a huge block,all refurnished as a pack with the dorm zone and its other efforts like memory hall to boast locals' contribution to today's qrrs but in fact all product of central planning system of soviet pattern, that's a miniature of northeast china in today china tried to bargain with south and other parts of china and its gov. to save its bankrupt,to show qrrs' dominating.i long time regarded its a dead place fading to obscure.
bye.i love u,like sheer light.kiss u with bear.
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Wednesday, December 27, 2006
dog now desperate for a show of their power.i don't know how problematic my blog publish got involved,but i will stay.
bye.today its quite bright sunshine,even very cold.the moon appeared early and caused my baby pointed to it when we went outside to receive his mother.snow nearby.i hope a cleaner world in vision.
i love u.kiss u with bear.
last noon after i posted in the cafe i bought a member card,i went to renew my borrowed pc magzines.new issues rare and when i found a new one i was told its belong to a department and can't lend out.so i read there.a middle aged and a young man haunted there and dog let me buttock painful in the rest of the day.after reading mags in the dorm after 4 pm,i launched to see my baby.i bought him 2 hanborgers from kfc on the way at a price of 15 yuan with a coupon,but my baby ate less even its the warmest one among what i bought for him.my baby late asked to drink gaoluogao,in a large jar for quite some time since the old woman's arrival.i guessed its hard to comsume to let my baby frustrate,so he just spoon the powder from it and scattered in the cup and the floor.the air was tightened and i lost my temper and scorned my baby and he started to cry.then the kid sister praised my scorning onto my baby aside.i immediatley held my baby on my shoulders and he stopped to cry.after his mother returned we enjoyed the hanborger and left one for the kid son of the kid sister.the kid son later returned after his night class and enjoyed the kfc food.we couples played with our baby in our bedroom and let him laughed really a lot.when his mother stopped my throwing my baby onto the mat of pillar and quilt,he started to bumped around and haunted the room the kid sister and her son lived.when he scattered a stack of burned cds onto the floor,his mother can't sit aside and forcily held my baby returning to bedroom and milked him.my baby soon slept,in animosity.and i left to the dorm.in the dorm i went to bed after 1:30 am.i woke up after 1 pm and got up at 3:44 pm.then i visited my once working place for the monitor buzzed me about 8 am to inform me to hand in fee as a labor association member.there the only female colleagure talked with me about the bonus and increase of salary.she let me see the document of bonus disperse sheet and i caught sight of my share of about 700 yuan.after dinnre i wondered awhile in the dorm doubting what i should do in night cafe.then my baby's mother buzzed in and let me go over to care my baby earlier tomorrow for the kid sister had to see doctor for her pains in stomack in tomorrow morning.i admitted and told her about the bonus as she was told by her colleagues whose relatives worked in qrrs,my once working place,and urged me to inquire about it for some times.then on bed i listening readio.dog neaby challenged heavily and i felt dozy.i reviewed my hometown and her changes since my growth there.a lot of water and stream disappeared now,likely a common phenomeno globally.
this morning i dreamed a lot.i remember in a scene i with my wife carried a long fishing shaft passing a narrow corner gate around a lake and had problem.then her mother catched us.then i saw a army officer let his men with forklifter move pacels of beers onto the roof of his grocer shop.and nearby was a hotel,one of its servant was an abnormally short woman.she was tidy bedsheet.
since 2 or 3 am till now,i was blocked from most of sites i usually surfed without problem.2 addons of firefox with a size no more than 200 kb lasted 1n hour yet can't donwload.dog sure spent the night with open eyes,seeing its fate and freight.i know a night wasted here and that's the reality of nowaday china,rubbish stuffed.
bye.i love u.this everning on bed in the dorm i recalled u.kiss u with bright.
Monday, December 25, 2006
last afternoon i spent 3 hours in a cafe about 4 miles apart from the area of my baby's mother's home.it costed me 6 yuan.when i returned a cop car followed me.i rode my new bike with bare head and bare hands.when i arrived my baby's mother's home they had finished their dinner but there were food left for me.my baby cried a lot when i first busy with sorting the configuration of firefox and later with copy some multimedia for baby onto his mother's notebook.he later glad to interrupt the kid son of the kid sister,preventing him from shut the door.his mother complained i spoilt him and i a time also felt he was troublesome,but i finally spent time caring him.when he settled with milk his mother let me left and did.
bye.i felt in high spirit even the weather remind me of dangers.i love u,like sunshine over the sky.kiss u with bright.
Sunday, December 24, 2006
last night i spent 6 hours in the cafe where i bought a member card,at
a cost of 10 yuan.dog nearby let me unconfortable but i stayed.dog also
stealed my bike outside of the cafe.i finished backup my working
environment within firefox eventually.after i returned to the dorm,its
already after 3:30 am but the rooms neighboring to my room still stayed
in light.they bited me heavily after i went to bed.i backup my password
book on my pda and dog let my pda hanged a time.i went to bed after
4:30 am and fought with dirty willes some time then slept sound.i got
up at 11:21 am and went to see my baby at once.i bought an old bike
from a bike repairer and promised paying him next day.i bought my baby
a cup of cola and an hanbergar with a price of 10.5 yuan with a
coupon.when i left the kfc,a cop car ported outside to remind me i was
under surveilance.my baby gladly received me and demand instantly to
drink the cola.they almost finished their lunch and the kid sister
recooked dish,motton with vegetables as usual for me.after lunch my
baby was milked and slept,and so did his mother.the kid sister locked
herself inside the room.when the grandmom arrived,i left for
surfing.the nearby cafe was stuffed and some guyes waited there.i
haunted very long distance and found a cafe and started to work.dog
bited as usual.and the net connection under surveilance likely
bye.i love u.kiss u with bear.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
returned to the dorm,i read and wondered after 1 am.i got up after 9 am.i likely dreamed of some ulcer on the heel of my right foot.when i arrived my baby's grandmom there busy.my baby welcomed me at once.then he played with various matters on my shoulders.he also ate the candy i bought him last time.we went to receive his mother before 11 am.when i saw 2 little girls entered the grocer we haunted frequently in summer we followed in.i chatted with the girls.after we left,the girls also left and my baby directed me following the girls to the sports yard where flock of students skating.the 2 little girls left to play seesaw.we followed and chatted with them.they said they will have christmas day in their class.a cop car ported outside of the sport yard just near the seesaw.i bought my baby an ice cream as i promised.we entered the yard of the school and lately met his mother.lunch again was vegetables with motton,seldom changed.after lunch my baby was held by his mother to shop outside and i went to a nearby cafe to polish my backup of my working browser,as well as another blog synchoron in memory of my grand father at http://faezrland.wordpress.com .i spent 3 hours there and charged 3 yuan.so cafes near the dorm charging more likely just cop's plot to cost me more on web.the cafe i spent 14.5 yuan yesterday also charged 1.5 yuan an hour but their monitor was 19inch lcd.after surfing i went to shower and haircut.when i almost finished my shower in the public bathroom a cop in nuke bathed himself just aside me,even there r quite some empty berth.i so changed a seat to avoid dirty and threat.when i arrived home the grandmom returned from her office and again visited.my baby now started to babble a lot at dinner table and let us all glad.after dinner we couple spent some time played with our baby while the kid sister slept on the bed and her kid son did homework awhile then watched tv theatre on the three kingdoms in chinese history.my baby's mother started to paste pictures of chinese traditional poems and cartoons and animal's pictures onto the wall.my baby played with standing on the box of my pda with a lot of joyes.he frequently haunted the kid son of the kid sister and interrupted his learning or pretending to learn leaning on the bed along his mother.we later entered our bedroom and our baby played with the stick of his cradle for support the mosquito-curtain.i left after 8:30 pm.a cop car waiting on the ground near the home of my baby's mother.and on the way i ported the cafe i bought a member card.dog here aside me threaten me and let me back painful.many proxies blocked.
bye.that's my happy day today.i love u with even more eagerness.kiss u with blitter.
Friday, December 22, 2006
bye.i don't know how i can afford the expense today,but i worked with fruits.i love u .kiss u with bear.
powered by performancing firefox
Thursday, December 21, 2006
in the morning, i registered myself another blog to synchron at http://www.bloglines.com/blog/benzillar .dog blocked access to bloglines.com and i had to access it via proxy.in the night i registered myself other 2 accounts at wordpress.com at http://benzillar.wordpress.com and http://benzyrnill.wordpress.com .wordpress.com was blocked and the ie settings baned to modify so it let my blogwriter can't find the right confiugrations for the 2 accounts.they tried to vendor me an card for a discount of 1 yuan an hour as member for the convinience to monitor my web serfing more detailedly.
when i arrived my baby slept in the arms of the kid sister,who was watching cop soup.i then operated on my pda for awhile.then his mother returned and we had lunch.the kid sister occupied tv with cop soup while eating.in the afternoon my baby played tapwater for some time.when its almost 3 pm he asked for haunted outside.so i held him enter the sports yard where some students there having their skate class on the ice.then my baby directed me to go the direction toward the railway.we passed the undreground market between the plaza and the railway station.then we went to the railway telecom,where dog threaten us but we had some good time on our own.at dinner the dish was again the motton with vegetables,the same of lunch and last time i visited.the kid sister kept silent and after dinner she went to bed to rest.we couples played with our baby for some time and let him happy.the kid son of the kid sister arrived later and started to shut the door to do his homeworks.my baby insisted to haunt the room sometimes.i tired to let him stay in our bedroom.i then understood when my baby and his mother alone suffered loneliness and challenge of silence by the mother and son of my baby's mother's relatives.1 or 2 times when i suddenly arrived there i watched the room for my baby now occupied by the mother and her kid son locked and my baby's mother held him played in the dark waiting room.i really sorry for my baby and his mother to let they suffered.however,we r expecting brighter future.
bye.i spent a lot of extra time tonight by dog's hacking which let the surfing slowly and pages error-prone.i love u.kiss u with tear.
last night before coming here again to upload my backup of firefox with plugins and blogwriter to my google after 8 pm i buzzed my baby's mother and she allowed me to visit my baby today.my baby also loudly accquainted me in the phone.for my grand father manifest himself in my dream vividly last night his first night in earth and on heaven,i so came here to write it down before i went to see my baby.last night i read 'thinking on the web' till 0:01 am.the ambient let me know i was highly evaluated and bubbled a lot of joy in the background.i slept with conpact dreams.i dreamed first the couple whose wife was a fateteller,a woman smokes and seldom chore in family name mao,and whose husband with first name chunsheng(born in spring) and family name likely of zhu,for our village all of zhus'.they commented on my charactor and i contended that i m competitive.my dad,in his late life be close friend of the mao before she passed after her husband left in advance,watched aside complaisantly.then i dreamed i was,or the guy in dream's focus was,the 3rd prince of east sea king in chinese,or the 3 son of sea god in western.a daughter of dragon,longnv in chinese,loved the guy or me and tried to follow him or me but the protagonist didn't admit.then my dad fired some wood to warm us and let us feeding fishes.later we fried fishes to eat,with some white people.an even longer dream of that evaded me after i trying to memory the dream after i woke up.i got up at 9:37 am.
its a nice morning.the sun was mild and kindling.the road was left with some white dust,likely frost or light snow.the air is crisp and moist.my heart was full of freshing spirit of holy.
bye.i love u.kiss u with bear.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
dog at noon let the monitor in the cafe frequently blacked out and flashed to normal,indicating they want to adopt old skill to ruin my writings half way when i wrote in blogwriter.that surely threaten my blog ,now that gmail which auto saved when u type was frequently blocked and instable.
all afternoon i spent on bed,first listening radio,then dozed awhile.threats near ahead but god let it all a miniature of his spiteful road leading me ahead toward him.
bye.i likely can succeed to finished my work within an hour tonight.i backup firefox with plugins and upload to my google accout,and this time very speedy.thx god.
i love u.after dinner i buzzed my hometown and talked with my kid sister and my youngest elder sister with whom i spent a lot of time when we r children.i also talked with her husband.our father's funeral was markable splendid.that let me relieved.kiss u with freer.
last night i read my blog on my pda after 0 am.i reviewed my elder sister told me my dad refused to eat several days before he left.at the same time i and my baby shitted waterily.this morning i got up 11:36 am.when i arrived the canteen there herds of qrrser there eating.the female administartor again complained offering my 4 dishes and suggested i should hand in 4 yuan to pay.i again ditched the dirty dish of belly manually.after lunch i woundering if i should buzzed my hometown there likely holding ceremony to let my grand father bodily slept in earth.but i finally didn't buzz but come here instead.my father in the heaven knows my silence and my stubborn.
www.33367.com , where i got some ebooks,now was blocked from me after i refered it in my blog.dog busy with hunting and enjoyed it totally,till its death.the world had to get rid of it.
bye.in this sole morning i had nothing dear except u can enhence my family.god let me have u.i love u.kiss u with bear.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
last night after posted in the cafe and returned to the dorm i suddenly felt i should spare no effort to return to my hometown to attend my grand father's funeral ceremony.i buzzed my baby's mother but no one there.so i went over by bike and found the line misworked.then i surfed,trying to find if air travel available now that i had only a day ahead to catch up the ceremony.dog blocked heavily and infected my pc.i finally decided not to return when i power down the pc.when i buzzed my hometown again after returned to the dorm i was told that my grand father was already turned into ashes by fire,as demanded by the local rule.its already after 11 pm when i settled in the dorm,i read awhile my blog on my pda.when its 0:03 am i laid my pda aside and prepared to rest.i went to bed at about 0:37 am.i slept sound and when i looked at the clock its already 7:46 am and i got up at 8:06 am.when i arrived my baby walking in the waiting room while the kid sister watching tv.my baby almost didn't left my arms or shoulders in the day.i sang a lot,esp. 'beiguozhichun' and its my first time recently years i recite fully its lyric with the aid of my pda.my baby slept for about half of an hour in the morning.we ate an ice cream when waiting for his mother leaving her school.at noon i felt cold and dozed awhile while his mother cared him.after his mother left my baby cried for me and refused the kid sister who tried to calmed him down.so i got up caring him.we wandered peacefully some time but when i kissed his ear he cried.i told myself he was crying instead of me for my grand father,his granddad.since senior middle school i startled to cry after captured by bookstore worker for i tried to steal a chinese martial book to enrich my collection of chinese qigong(practise of breathing) and wushu(martial),i seemingly cried seldom,except when i broke my heart for girl fang(square),in my second being mad i cried for my ancestor and my profound blood background.and except my third time being mad i cried for i can't protect my baby son against evil.my baby son this time cried instead of me and reward me,in my view.after i got know his mother due for night class i decided to hold my baby haunted once outside before receiving his mother,for i found my baby now lacks of his favorite candy.we visited shenlong (cult dragon) supermarket where i bought him jelly,milk candy,sausage,sunflower seeds.and on the way he asked me to buy him some dates.he enjoyed them very much,even the saleswomen let me sensed my humble financial situation.i never seeing my baby so placated when i fed him with sunflower seeds.he tapped his feet on the floor while sat on the plastic mat.i love him so much.with my god of my grand father watching me now from the heaven,i love him solely as i devoted to my god.after we went to received his mother at 6 pm he got unconfortable on the way near our building then slept on my shoulders till his mother lately fetched us.his mother again blamed my letting him sleep in the cold and started to milked him.when the kid sister urged to have dinner,i ate first and found the atmosphere dirty,likely her son challenged me.i don't why where went wrong while i chatted with him actively.after dinner i prepared some sample of the food i bought for my baby,intending to lay them in my dorm room for sacrifice to my grand father who has the last night bodily in our home in my hometown,but my baby refused to let me fetch.so i told his mother i needn't any more,for her home is exactly my home.i left with blank hand and blank heart for my grand father.
dog desperate for death challenge now.last night they block my upload for quite some time,and this time they let my downloading my backup of my firefox and blogwriter on my googlepages failed for several times.last night rotten rat rabbled constantly in neighbor room exactly till i went to bed.dog now again block my uploading my backup to my google account.they just want to see sooner their death.
bye.i love u.kiss u with tear.
Monday, December 18, 2006
my grand father,as my kid brother who returned to our hometown from guangdong,south china where he tried to find a living there,told me when i buzzed in after dinner for 3 times,2 times occupied,has passed.i never felt a pain so far.i just felt pity,for both of us.i admired to show him i can with my best to appease him,for so many years since my growth he kept silence to my performance,i want to show him i faith to him and deep love him and worshiped him.many times recently i want to talk to him but always retarded by the inconvinience as my mother claimed that he was on bed for coldness in hubei prov.quite sometimes i want to let myself remembered to buzz him better in afternoon for at that time he likely will get up and my mother also suggested a time in a phone that she can wait for my phone in that period time in a day but i constantly forgot to buzz in afternoon,ie,in sunshine.long time i missed his youth and middle age years as legends in the heaven,in the road straightened for god.
my kid brother told me my grand father left around 2 pm,at that time i fought with dog's blocks my upload my backup of blogwriter.exe and firefox with plugins i needed for a convinient working environment to my google account less i had to bring udisk or some cafe refuse udisks.they let me spent an additional hour here a dirty cafe.at that time my grand father watching my restless struggles with pests and he can know the world he was to is rather easy with handling these kind of rubbish.he can know his son doomed to clean the kind of rubbish from his land,his kingdom in half of an century,with his grandson,with his ever prosporous offspring,with the behalf of his glory.god,u know even in this saint moment dog still biting me.in a heaven u know i needn't move a finger of mine to let them evaporate like fog in bubble,but now on this futile earth i had to conbat with full of my source.on this land of dog stained and evil poluted,i need ur guide and companion,as i dreamed for many times.in a conversation in later summer,i asked u in the phone where i can find u after u left,u didn't reply,or i can't hear what u told;in a talk in a phone i asked if u r in family name of zhu as me,u didn't reply or i can't hear what u told.i at least gain ur help when i lost assurance after thiefs in the dorm let me cold and leaking,u told me it doesn't matter.i recovered the next day.
father,my god,u held dear ur comments onto me so much,let me grown sound and selfrelied.so many years u let me wonder at large,letting me so many years later retrospect ur road and followed ur footsprint for ur source,ur memory in the world,ur testimony upon the visible and sensible as god's singularity.god,less the world doesn't memory,less the men don't reason,u r always in my heart.i m ur son,ur third son,as u r the third son of my grandfather.i picked ur figure and ur face shape ,i admire i m urs.i took ur dream,took ur vow,i took the kingdom of u,i picked the land u seeing and let it blossoms like forever spring and summer in the most serene valley,that's my vow,my deed of u.
god,if there is a way,god,if there r reasons.if there is a sideway to ur front,if there is a channel can talk to u.god,my father,if i can hear u,if i can serv u.god,let me know.let me know where i can touch u,god.god,u holy spirit shrined me everytime,but i still need to talk with my father,with my dear father silent so many years.god,i follow ur way without any hesitation,god,i listen ur command without any obscure.god,i need seeing my father,my god.god,in this position i stood too long,god,i need appeasing my father his proud his proud.god,if there is a way,god,if there r reasons.
god,i don't know how many year i will kept my sorrow for not attending my father's leaving,i don't know pains will how tear my heart for missing him,my grand father.god,i know ur mercy to all these.
bye.i love u,dear zhou,my girl,my long waited my second wife to appease my grand father but failed.i love u.kiss u with heart.
last night i started to read 'thinking on the web' earlier after watching my baby's 2 photos i bought with me.i rested on 0:17 am and hadn't any problem to fall into sleep.i woke up after 7 am but got up lately after 10:29 am.then i went to the tree yard to sunbath.its cool while refreshing.a man with his doggie wandering around me and the man kept striking his foot.after i strode for an of hour some girls returned to their dorm from the door toward the qrrs hospital,likely for they r doctors or doctors in practise there.they went directly to a pub to have lunch.then i know why the canteen sees few customers recently and why the admini;strators a bit hostile to me.maybe my presence hurts somebody,but i had no weakness in the following god.
after lunch my baby's mother buzzed in and told me my kid sister and his wife buzzed her to let me know my grand father being on bed for some time.i again disblieved.but she said the wife of my kid sister told her my dad fell onto the bed even before she left qiqihar.i told her several days ago i buzed my mother and she told me my dad was well,and on bed for several days for its cold.storms may brewing.but with my father,my god,i had nothing to bother.
i enjoyed this cafe so far.its speedy,even dog definitely monitored me now.and os let autocomplete function working as normal,unlike in the 3 cafes near the dorm zone all disabled it to let me type more.
bye.i love u.kiss u with brim.
Sunday, December 17, 2006
more hours there,for the price of its service increased to 1.5 yuan an
hour.so i now in a even farer cafe in whose first time service to me i
found lyric of 'beiguozhichun' via www.altavista.com some days ago.its
price now still 1 yuan an hour,which let me at a relief.maybe dog now
attempting to hinder my time on web,finding how i enjoyed and made
real usage of the web.
today its turned a bit colder,with which i first time felt cold and
even sore in my leg bone.when i returned to the dorm the sunshine over
the wall of the building,not letting me enjoyed it possible.however,i
jogged in the morning just before lunch time.i spent the rest of the
afternoon on bed listening the radio.i have not too much to review,so
i can't name out what in my review.when its dark outside i started to
walked in the room and rotten rat nearby started to bite
heavily,letting me open the door to wash it.dinner was enough,the
female administrator made a complain by claiming i had 4 dishes.but
the customers was few even its on time for dinner,ie.,5 pm.i finished
it without any remnant.
its likely a peaceful day,even changes inevitable will be launched by
dog,in god's view.i hope i can see u sooner.yesterday my baby's mother
told me my second elder sister buzzed there to let me see my grand
father,saying he was ill.i didn't believe,for i think my dad knowing
my struggle,knowing the process i moulding our kingdom as he
envised.and in addition when i buzzed my hometown the same day my
mother didn't told me that,even she unhappy with me.i love my
hometown,the mountains,the lake,the stream,the rock,the soil,the air
and the sunshine.i love the bushes,as well as the rice fields.that
exactly liked the poem i read last night,'Paradise Lost' of John
Milton.i missed the south,but the north here i worked so long is also
the lost paradise of my kingdom,with which i to recover and to
recliam.i believe my father knowing me.
bye.i love u.like picnic in summer sunset.like sunbath on the beach.i
need u to rest,like a long time journey to pass the triumph message,as
a herald.i need ur thick hairs to cover my drought nose,to forget the
chore and bearings.kiss u with light.
last night i wonered in room till 11 pm.then i picked <thinking on the web> and till 1:02 i laid it aside.the ambient let me know my works reevaluated and tired to capture me with contentment.that let my reading in low speed.when i went to urine before going to bed,the tv room was shut and the corridor was all empty.i fell into sleep smoothly.i got up at 10:28 am and reviewed a couples each after a broken marriage with a girl and a boy respectively,trying to offer restaurant service just near the dorm when its not organized into qrrs' dorm zone and there r lots of single flat house among the buildings of qrrs 2 dorms.they r so poor when their restaurant near its close,only left me and another guy haunted there frequently.quite some persons have nothing in the world,but they need something to busy to be fed and play in the running process in the world.i don't know what they now made a living,and i don't know how many people suffered the killing winter now,the media seldom now reports bare poverity,and i don't think the gov. can manage to feed chinese people when the spotlight focused onto the wellbings earning bucks,seemed honest earnings comparing with the american,and the shitting babble around the world of the head.
bye.i love u.kiss u with fear.
btw,in the post titled 'sunny afternoon ' posted Dec. Friday, 15 there is a line 'that's the failure of insanity of tribe cognation via uncontroled immigrate.' where 'cognation' should be 'amalgamation'.and in a recent post i refered Nash as an physical scientist but he in fact an economics scientist.
Saturday, December 16, 2006
last night i roamed in the room for quite some time.after finding neighbors hacking on my mind i let the door open and continued to strode.then quite some guys leaving, passing the tv room facing my room and picked their heads into the tv room around 10 pm.i stayed wondering till 11:30 pm when i started to read 'thinking on the web' and rested on 0:01 am.dog let me almost lost sleep but finally i fell into sleep.i got up at 9:17 am.before i uncovered the curtain i suddenly sensed it might snowed,and after seeing the sunshine from the window i saw slight snow on the ground.what can i complain about?god let me know i only need do what i liked and responded and left rubbishes all aside to be cleaned by the superpower.
when i arrived the grandmom there already.my baby walking on the waiting room.after i uncoated he approached me and soon i cared him playing with tea pot and tea cups of his mother's,as the presents from her once students.he broke 3 tea cups.we ate pine nuts.he received the nuts i broke for him but later spitted it out and i ate them instead.we left the home for his mother after 11 am and i sang loudly qianbaihui's 'cafee cafe' along the road for hundred times while my baby slept on my shoulders outside of the school in sunshine.when the students leaving some of them shouted and let my baby wake up.we entered the school to receive his mother.after lunch the old sisteres left to buy winter clothes for theirselves while i backup logos i designed to my pda.my baby's mother urged me speedy to hold our baby to have vaccined.she left in advance to fetch the log book she left in her office.my baby in the way asked me to buy him an icecream.when we met his mother she got annoyed and demanded my leaving.i left but in half way returned to the hospital for i think that's better.my baby cried shortly,but on the way home he seemed crabbed and cried a lot.after getting home his mother again abused me and demanded my leaving.i retorted to let her be well poised.then i started to back my blog to my pda while my baby sent to sleep after milked with his mother.when i left to shower in public bathroom,my baby woke up and i saw him awhile while his mother milked him.when i returned to the home the old sister started to cook.a girl student tutored by my baby's mother leaving.my baby tightly in his mother's arms.i drank a tin of bear.his mother busy with tutoring the kid son of her aunt and a boy of her colleague.after dinner i waited awhile while the old sisters urged my baby played with me while his mother eating.for them time is ripe to seperate my baby from me and set my baby under their affiliation.when i left my baby didn't see my leaving against the old sisters urging,with his back to the door.
its a nice day after all.i likely had to spend more money on the canteen,and likely had to hold a more tightened budget on the web.maybe that's the dog's plot.last night they close conbatted with me.they let my gmail via http error-prone,and i switched to https of gmail,adopting secure channel of http against surveilance my gmail content.then they cut off gmail connection,let both http and https of gmail inaccessible.then i google proxy list and tired 3 or 4 proxies,some proxy tunnel displaying arriving contents of my gmail then being cut off.they domineering to its brutalest.then when i logout my google services and all went losing response.then i reset the pc and left.dog just need a way,no matter how tiny or trifle,no matter how shabby and barely,to conpensate their losing and failing feelings to proof their inferior.
bye.i love u.in tear and in seal.kiss u with ties.
Friday, December 15, 2006
at noon i got what i wanted for some time but were blocked so long: the lyric of 'beiguozhichun(spring of north country) and zoundery blogwriter.after i got them dog gave up blocks to www.goolge.com and proxies.i even surfed the www.zoundery.com which was blocked for several days even its appeared in the results of various searching engine.what can i comment all about it?
after posted here at noon i meandered awhile in the sunshine then went to renew my magzines borrowed from qrrs.but the libray was locked.i went to the newspaper room to read.the librarains put some of them on for a show and soon i heared rehearsal in the stadium.a worker behind the glass wall pretending sleeping on the table kept dirty onto me,but i finished reading to 'world reference digest' in time.the president of iran claim israel wouldn't exist in the future,american finance ministry to visit china and world ,esp former high ranks of german praised china a lot and look upon china's continuous rapid growth driving world growth.that's skepticism and opportunism.old europe long time used to be gambling on both sides.that's why they ignited the 2 world wars and they tended to seduce the third one.us had trouble to calm down momies' cries for their lost sons,even the sons died worthily,and let the world retreat to accept its bitter and bitter output.that's the failure of insanity of tribe cognation via uncontroled immigrate.
returned to the dorm i roamed in the room for about an hour,leting the radio on.at diiner i was offered 3 or 4 picecs of meat and i enjoyed my meal.after dinner i buzzed my hometown and want to talked to my grand father but my mother told me i needn't talked to him,who had been on bed for several days,for he is too old.i felt a little bit hostility in the tone of my mother.
that's my day today.boring and trifle.but i counted it for our bright future,like cat bite his paws in unrefrained thirt.
bye.i love u.near and far.kiss u with tear and bear.
its sunny however.last night in the cafe i first visited i finally got the lyric of beiguozhichun(the spring of north country) just before i left.i skimmed it awhile and elapsed extra 5 minute and was charged 0.5 yuan in addition.right i got zoundery blog writer now and write within it to post.dog already let the pc popup a err box to threaten my blogging via it.
last night i read my blog and later 'thinking on the web' till 1:47 am.rotten rats nearby again urged me to rest in advance but i kept at guard.in addition the book quite informative.i got know in searching engine design domain there r quite some battle concerning the artificial intellectual techonogy,and likely lazy chinese dotcom to lose,no matter the official how to promoted it via blocking google and other searching engin.this morning i woke up at 9:41 am and got up at 10:30.and i was under attacked before i woke up.after getting up their force let me sat in silence.they sued me my relation with my baby.dog's eyes set everyone foul licker,that's nothing specail.at lunch they again offered me dirty dish of stuff of belly of pork or bull or sheep with a lot of spices to hide its smelly,even i spilt several times.i know the male administrative likely in family name of sun,gathering ill willes against me for some time.and they just challenge their boldness to death.
bye.i love u this morning.i love u in still.last night my pda told me by quoting shakespear's, all true love run no smooth.i was assured so much.kiss u with bear.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
up at 11:29 am.in the dawn i dreamed my best friend of
alumni,qiuxiaolin,and his once girlfriend,longhanjiang (dragon pertain
river) visited me.qiu told me their relation now breaking.i tried to
use our poor camera to shot them but Ms long constantly changed her
poise to challenge the poor camera which had problem to capture moving
object.all my sickness disappeared after the extroadinary long
sleep.so i hasted to see my baby.my baby almost didn't sleep in the
moring.lunch i almost eat less.i had a quarrel with my baby's mother
who echoed the kid sister and frequently blocked my baby playing
objects he liked to play,in the case a bag of suger,i told her she
should do her best to allow my baby to play what he want to play.the
afternoon spent playing tapwater,pc,grid frame of window and powder of
body smother.the kid sister left for shopping some time.after she
returned my baby got sleepy but he just can't fall into sleep,likely
at guard.the kid sister babbled persuadings aside frequently and after
the grandmom arrived she claimed even i can't let my baby sleep.but i
know just her ill will let my baby alert at sleeping.the grandmom
brought some cold dishes,likely remnants of a banquet.they fed my baby
with some and i launched a quarrel to urge the kid sister not feed my
baby many times except 3 meals with his parents.they didn't
rebuked.then we went to receive his mother.my baby asked me to bought
him a stick of sugar grape and a stick of fried susage.when children
of the teachers entered the yard of the school we slided in.when my
baby stepped on the dusty track of the sports yard his mother fetched
us.her friend,a woman whose husband was a cop and had a 7 month baby
girl watched aside awhile.dinner i again almost ate less,for i
disliked greese food now,even disliked any remnant of other's meal.the
old sisters chatted in low volumn on balcony while i watched tv for
some time.my baby haunted me sometimes.
its a nice day after all.my baby also in steady recovery.dog plot a
lot but they trying hold water with grid basket of bamboo.if tea is
sweat,if dog not to search for foul,the thing maybe can change.but
that's impossible.impossible is the dog not to bite,the thief not to
steal.for several days i can't access www.google.com,this time i
surfed in the cafe i first time visited,and i open www.google.com,but
just after searching result of blogwrite.exe's download returned,and
when i search for the lyric of beiguozhichun,a japanese song,with
which i tried many times all blocked just to let me upset,it again cut
off online with www.google.com.dog even block search.yahoo.com from my
access,just to let me upset.what they can do beside this,they doomed
to death and before that they can let anyone smell its rotten smell in
bye.i love u.like pourest snow.kiss u with bright and shrine.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
magzines.i boroowed a copy of pc magzine and 2 econoic management
magzines.then i went to see my baby.on the way near the kfc store i
bought him 2 fried chiken legs,for i want to present him a
surprise.they costed me 15 yuan.my baby in the arms of the kid sister
who is watching cop soup.my baby started to eat the chicken
happily.but he didn't eat much,for he and me all suffered thirsty
after shitting waterily.today i shitted 6 or 7 times waterily.i ate
less but felt thirsty constantly.my baby's mother refuted my suggetion
to shot outside,blaming the snow was cleaned.she suggested shot indoor
but i didn't act upon and just played with our baby together in
bedroom while the kid sister (her aunt)cleaning dishes in waiting
room.i felt the kid sister at a loss in her attempt to build a closer
intimacy with my baby than mine,so i suggested my leaving and my wife
admitted.my baby asked me to hold him to the corridor but his mother
urgent to leave so she let him played with the doorring and let me
after returned to the dorm i read awhile magzine then dozed on
bed.till 4 pm i woke up in the dark.i farted a lot in the mid.being
sick now distracted me from ill wills around which had troubled me so
much so far.i know god putting us into a new training course now and i
look forward to it.
the snow was the thickest among the 3 snows in this winter,even
so,workers let it clueless on the road and obvious open space.so i
admire now the heavily snow recently haunted the western america,via
tv reports i seeing its beauty and mighty.
bye.i love u.in this cool early winter.kiss u with snow white.
last night i spent 2.5 yuan here.a dog near me likely a cop,hacked me heavily before i ready to finish my work.it again let the ie responded very slowly and let some bottom of pages ill working and links redirected.i just doubting how they can delayed my pages requests so long and delayed the arriving pages tentatively.i guess that's all what they can do now,to mess up,to shit around.
bye.i love u.kiss u with this holy bright white.love u in chill.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
last night i read in the dorm till 0:13 am.dog around bited furiously.i lost sleep all the night.i had pills and urined as usual,but just after i settled on bed i had need to urine.i guessed that's not real and i thought i'd better endured it for my baby.so i sleeplessly.in late night the neighbor hooligans still made cracks with their chair or something,likely stayed there sleeplessly.in the process i saw the plot of dog to weave a web to trap me into the asylum and there they took full control of my life,from eating to sleeping to medicine to communication,in which they can plot and execute evil onto me without obvious obstacles.their aim was to whitewashed my mind and my name from the world.but they just unable to do as they liked.i got up at 7:13 am and went to see my baby at once.my baby vomitted in the mid night and let his mother restlessly these days.when i arrived he was held by the kid sister feeding while watching tv.my baby was motionless to me.so i went to the room wondering if i can do some works first on pc.but my baby asked for my caress and let the kid sister at a loss.the full day my baby didn't leave my caress.he just loathed to walk or play with his own.he shitted 4 times with watery shits.he suffering.his mother let us not to receive her at noon.so we stayed at home in the morning.at noon the kid sister of his mother arrived.i disliked her for her behavior since i engaged with her elder sister.she seldom ate at home while her financial position was shabby.i mean,she likely frequently accompany some rich men to eat outside,at least those can afford her a treat.her last visit,dated the day before yesterday,brought some grapes with which i tasted some and likely so did my baby.and i shitted waterily last night,too.in my view she just too wicked,like her mother's family.the afternoon she slept in the quilt in the room for my baby and now occupied by the kid sister of my baby's mother's mother,watching movies on her elder sister's notebook.later the kid sister of her mother also slept on the same bed.i had to admit she was not nobody,she let me felt in the hell for unconfortable and sleepy.my baby played with tapwater and cooking utensil and grid frame of window and torch,but he also finally felt boring and slept.i slept aside my baby.my baby woked up 2 times with cries.after finally got up i still felt faint and lack of energy.my baby also loathed to play on his own.after 5 pm the kid sister left.after another an hour i held my baby to receive his mother,against her warn.my baby directed me visited a grocer shop along the road where we haunted a lot in summer but seldom recently.we chatted with the boss couples.my baby asked me to buy him a little bag of dry beef and we entered the school for a lot of persons likely students' parents entered by their bikes.a cop card ported outside the door,it my second time seeing it ported there.my baby got energetic and talkative in his mother's arms.it really let me happier.
dog likely weaving its web to trap me into prison or asylum,same place to let me disappear.i had not worry or hindersight.my sleep can be ruined without routine pill which now in my open drawer in the dorm free to replace,but i had long time waited for god not to let me live with it and its in fact the cause of my second falling into asylum for not taking pills for i think its unnature.maybe i lived with less time to sleep,like Nash,the famous physisist survived mental disease without taking pills.
tonight,no matter how distorted by the unnamed unease,or just can't sleep,i live in god's sight and ready for god's call.that's absoluteness.
bye.i love u.kiss u with bear.i hope i deserve a snow tonight.kiss u with baring.
a old shot uploaded.
Monday, December 11, 2006
bye.i love u.kiss u with bear.
home movie of my baby in his first winter.
Get this video and more at MySpace.com
before i went to bed.in the morning i dreamed riding a double seat
bike with my wife and watching a teacher painting on blackboard to
pormote a lecture will be offered by a chinese study 'master'.i woke
up at 9:50 am and got up at 10:39 am.dog started to bite before i woke
up and it forced me to rest in silence after i got up and sat on bed
motionlessly.in the canteen there r quite some girls i don't know
where they r from.a cop in uniform picked to sit aside me and drank a
bottle of soft drink and left.
in the cafe farer than starsea cafe,i powered 3 pcs but all hardware
failed after i login the cafe's register interface.dog recently likely
bargained with me.i can't access https of gmail but http of gmail
workable and i can compose email in it even err-proned.www.google.com
can't access directly from input in url,but accessible from ur login
gmail service.my personal homepage of google was blocked for 2
days.logout of google's quite some service lost response,likely cut
off by dog or stealing cookies from login pc.torpark on my writeproof
udisk also set to fail,and proxies i tried some were set to fail.dog
still felt they r charging all and allowed to work around within their
broken dog machine.
bye.its not a bad day even sunshine sometimes white washed by unclear
cloud around the sun.i hope i can hear u around the new year.i love
u.kiss u with bright.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
after my baby's mother returned i started again to the unfinished work to move my baby's shot onto udisk.we couples later to have lunch.on the table i introduced my work last night lately to add all my family members' google web album into each favorite.i also designed a logo for my google group in memory of my hometown at hubei prov.,centual china,at noon there at http://groups-beta.google.com/group/zhudajiu .the logo at http://zhudajiu.googlegroups.com/web/zhudajiulogoani.gif .welcome ur comments.i also changed her google groups' icons.she admitted my works.the sister listened aside.the kid son of the kid sister also there.after i finished my shower in the public bathroom i cared my baby to play while the sisters left to shower.soon the kid sister of my baby's mother arrived.my baby now open to show his kindness to newcomers and he leaned onto the kid sister and the kid son for sometimes,let all of us glad.his mother went out to buy some dishes and we,all young persons,ate our dinner.the atmosphere gradually turned unfavorable and the kid sister of my baby's mother locked herself sleeping on our bedroom.the kid son and a little boy of my baby's mother's colleague's son,just arrived there to be tutored,both slept on the floor while i sang loudly with my baby on my shoulders.my baby later turned boring.i know energies got conflict.so i soon left.my baby waved to me.the sisters of my baby's mother yet didn't returned from bathroom.
that's our happy day today.i still felt laughable on the way home,reviewing 3 laid themselves down around us.my spirit was considerablely promoted comparing that when i left the dorm.
bye.i love u.like morning star and sunset.kiss u with quice.
btw,last post there is a line 'for the reception girl at starsea dispised me by the excuse of no charges,i haunted a farer cafe and was told its fee lowered to 1 yuan
an hour again.'here 'charges' should be 'changes'.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
half of an hour.the air is warm.after returned to the dorm i read
awhile 'thinking on the web' then dozed.the family of my baby's
mother's mother,likely had a prone of strong feminism,exposed its
intention in my mind.dog let me felt cold and my radio finally turned
it off automatively.after getting up i went to make water and the room
facing the lavatory leaks out blow of laughs,including girls'.i knew
some of them felt lonely and boring even in crowd and gathering.i
review my solitude in which i missed u solely,i tasted joy and pure
and saint and plenty.love in its simplest form is just losing urself
in ur admire to ur beloved.i love u and pray for u,for our bright
future.the radio was elaborating on fable when i secondly turned it
on,and then on narcism,but nothing can distract my faith in god,in my
parents,in my son.i took u as my partner,with sometimes mindless
ignorance or leting ur being,i took u as my own,with pride and
criticism,with boring and with immersed,just as the bible claimed,u r
from my body and shaped by the creator to accomplish me.i don't bother
to attend u every minute,but we r always one together anytime any
place.in every smile between us we r assurrenced; in every word
outspoken we echo soul's harmony from heaven.god let his road spiteful
and as a compensation he let u accompany me,like fountain in
desert,and like lamb in bushes.
for the reception girl at starsea dispised me by the excuse of no
charges,i haunted a farer cafe and was told its fee lowered to 1 yuan
an hour again.last time the cafes increased their charges absurd in
compliance with cop's demand.what's business with cop with cafe's
service in market place?but in china they do charged every
things,every price.that's china's promise in wto.
bye.i love u.i first time since cafe's increased charge surfed more
than an hour tonight.i hope i can enjoy web more freely.kiss u with
bright and blight.
'thinking on the web' till its 1:39 am.dog got repentting after
fighted a war near around 0 am when i usually went to sleep at that
time,to urge me rest.some of them were hard core gays,some of them
wanted to finish their task to monitor me,some of them were tomb
sleeper and demanded seeing all living slept when they can dance with
evil in the dark after.i slept sound but being attacted after woke
up.i stayed in bed wondering,my baby 1 or 2 times cried in my ears but
that's his way to defend.the liu,in his early 30s' or late 20s' ,slept
with his mother on the same bed in different quilts.he born with
falling sickness but that can't be his mother's cause to sleep with
her mature son.they constantly challenge us,likes the lius in nowaday
china challenge people of china,and that's their due to walk out their
track of failure to testfy god's choice.god's glory manifests itself
through the rebellion of sins,through the doomed of those refuse
conversion,the doomed of those refuse the truth.
bye.i love u.kiss u with bright.
Friday, December 08, 2006
lately but under holy spirit i forgave and smoothly fell into sleep.i
got up 10:29 am and went to see my baby at once.when i arrived my baby
was sobbing and i was told he pointed to the clock when i due to
appear to the kid sister of his mother's mother and when the sister
said to him his dad he started to cry and demand open the door.how i
was touched.soon we went to receive his mother.i bought him an
icecream and a bag of soft candy.at noon he was settled to sleep by
his mother and i stayed wandering in the bedroom where he slept.after
he woke up i held him playing tapwater and teeth stick.the sister and
her son slept in the room for my son lately after 3 pm .when my baby
cried for i not to let him play with the grid frame of window,with
which he played for some time and attempting to lock it on his own the
mother got up and see.we had some unease time to concentrate to play
while they locked the room sleeping or pretend to sleep.the liu then
ate his lunch lately and his mother let him feed my baby with some
rice and my baby received it.then they watched tv and later the mother
started to cook.we waited and waited for the time to went out.his
mother due to have her night class and will leave her school after
6:30 pm.when its time to leave the mother insisted feeding my baby
with rice and pumpkin and i sensed her feeling of lose to seeing i
cared my baby well and enough and testing me if i can afford her
leaving.my baby let me wait to eat her feeding,but she threat my baby
to eat frequently and my baby finally didn't eat the last mouth she
and me suggested.the school open its door and we entered.his mother
left lately till we arrived half way to the teaching building.my baby
insisted walking on the dusty track of the sport yard.after dinner his
mother watched tv even my baby wanted to play.he finally sent to sleep
by his mother and i left.
its a nice day again for me and my baby.hope u enjoy ur everyday.
bye.i love u.kiss u with cool.
btw,last post there is a line reads 'since yesterday the idea
haunted me its time to testify if god chooses from his creators or
infinite turns around,suffers to exalt and wellbeings to
fell.technologically operating on some human species not a problem,but
the ethic of human kinship troubled god's chosen so much so far.'here
'creators' should be 'creatures'.then dog attacted me aside and let me
didn't check online dictioanry.the online dictioanry was responded
slowly by dog's hacking.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
meandered awhile in the tree yard for about a quarter,after the shadow
of the tree casted on the rim of the flower garden.then i went to
renew my pc magzines.after fetched 2 copies i read newspaper in the
newspaper room of qrrs.when i sat there i was alone in the sunshine
facing the window.soon dogs arrived and one of them,a middle aged,kept
facing me and challenged me.i read 'world reference
digest'(cankaoxiaoxi) and read quite reports on illegal children labor
and migrates in abnormally dengerous labor situations risked and
resulted into body hurts.and america suffering too much responsibility
to correct the world in distort.bushes suffering shortsighted demand
of profits from us' operation on world.since yesterday the idea
haunted me its time to testify if god chooses from his creators or
infinite turns around,suffers to exalt and wellbeings to fell.mankind
sees quite some fates of animals and now its turn to see that of quite
some tribe of human.technologically operating on some human species
not a problem,but the ethic of human kinship troubled god's chosen so
much so far.nearer and nearer people will be confronted with the way
of god's,the way to choose and extinguished the bitchery,the evil.
www.google.com was blocked for 3 days.gfan of goolgegroup was banned
for access.that's china,a place rebut thinking while the web of the
world innovating everyday.the place being shitted all around,the place
gays and tomb sleeper rampant and attact in daytime.
bye.i love u , like steering star in deepest black sky. kiss u with
tear and bear,pity and cleanse.
neatily cleaned by workers and letting me doubting if they r remnant
of previous snow,but the pour white scattered everywhere proved it
faultlessly.the sun was tiny round and demands more time before u can
see clear its burning round.i got up at 10:10 am and being bited at
once.last night i read the ebook 'thinking on the web' from
www.33367.com after 0:15 am.demons in neighbor rooms and in the tv
room near my room stayed there. in the dawn i dreamed i was told to
care my baby or the baby of my third elder sister.but i was told my
alumni gathering held in a place.i busy with something,like practising
handwriting or other,and when i held the baby left to attend the
gathering its raining.then i found the gathering just in the room on
the higher floor of the same building of our home and i returned the
left the baby at home and left.but i likely didn't find the gathering
but found my wife or my third elder sister at home complaining i
ditched the baby and let him cried into chill and soundless.my heart
was broken by sorrow and i kneeled down aside the cradle to kiss
him.but he was well after all.i was startled almost as his
encountering with silence and without cares.no matter how i sometimes
absent from my beloved,god assures us with the brilliant sun on
time.that's our being blessed.our pledge in one.
bye.i love u.like sunshine and snow white.kiss u with tear.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
in wilder.even downloading speedy my google service and blogs pages
responded slowly.in the dorm after returned i read awhile my blog on
my pda then worry about my baby and i buzzed my baby's mother,she
refuted my suggestion to visit my baby in the night.then i read the 3
pc magzines to 0:47 am.neighbor hooligans got irritated and bited
heavily.they likely totally got mad and evil.after going to bed,my
beloved blond within myspace.com,jamie,haunted my mind for about an
hour.however,i slept sound.i got up at 9:24 am then i went to see my
baby.when i arrived there my baby just stood behind the liu who is
busy with his parcel against the wall of waiting room and curious.then
he played tapwater in most time of the morning.challenge from the liu
and his mother let me sang and recited a lot.i held my baby went out
to receive his mother at 11 am.my baby loathe to leave and the liu's
mother also tended to retard us.the bike repairer ,who is small man
liked a crone always burning ditched tyre to warm his chamber aside
the road,let the air smelly and poluting.my baby soon slept on my
shoulders,which let quite some persons alarmed me,in good or ill
will.his mother left the school early among her colleagues and fetch
us.after lunch my baby was milked by his mother and slept.so did his
mother.i felt dozed but cold without any quilt.then his mother left
for her school and gave me 2 quilts of my baby.each time i felt dozed
but agiled again by challenge around.my baby slept for about an
hour,and woke up when i just thought about wangbin,my alumni i refered
last time in my blog,a guy also from northeast of china.then we
started to play.we ate pine nuts.my baby played with tapwater and let
the basin full.later a ball candy let him pacified for some time when
i just worried about boring will letting him irritated.the mother
started to cook toast pie and fed my baby with some.its time to went
out but my baby refused to leave.i beated him on his bottom 2 flaps
and he cried.when we arrived on the ground we found 3 girls after
their class and attending another class in the building conjoined with
our building and used as the office of street branch of the municipal
gov. .we played with the little girls awhile.then his mother returned
and found us.i then busy with back ebooks downloaded last night to my
pda and his mother busy with milking him.the liu urged to dinner
loudly.he cooked the dishes and cleaned the table and bowls.that let
us obliged.the mother and the son then watched tv silently and let us
couple distressed for our adopting their labor.the rule of religion
let me stadleless and let me lingered more time to wait my decisive
spirit.when i left my baby asked to go to the corridor to watch and he
watched my leaving.the moon was dim in the dark blue sky.i think it
would be blessing if tonight snows.
bye.i love u.kiss u with fright of the balance among the created.i
love like the serenading moon.
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
time.then i went to qrrs' libray to borrow some mags.then went to read
newspaper with the 3 pc magzines i borrowed.there i also read some
mags.after returned to dorm i read a mag titled 'computer application
digest'(dianniao yingyong wenzai) till dinnr time.i was offered some
meats and i ate with pleasure and full fiilled.in the cafe i
downloaded some ebooks from a website at http://www.33367.com .i liked
it very much.its contents were from 0day,but i was blocked from access
to 0day staff for quite some time.o,that's really a pastime long time
bye.i love u.kiss u with bright.and with coming snow i love u in deep freeze.
trapped me for quite some time and continued even before i woke up.the
radio elaborating oil paintings collecting when i just turned it
on.that's my pastime when i was young.i love fine art and ready a day
i can pick it up again with u,with our children on we had time to
breathe freely.i some time ago had quite some collective works gallery
of famous impressionists and post impressionists,but i ditched them
when i broke my heart with the girl fang(square) when i prepared my
master degree entrance exam there in nankai.unv.,yes,i also collected
them at tianjin when i studied therre as a collegian.the morning i
fighted with spying with new and maybe higher level of skill,the spies
likely now stronger and trained.their broken web tried to trap me onto
it and smoother me.breath among men always poluted and i sometimes had
to breathe other ways.birds of the air sure nearer to god,but i had to
learn to launch now on the rock and earth.
today is a nice day,with the large and brilliant sun and clear sky.i
needn't any more warrent.the air is warm,likely brought chiller snow
days coming later.i however enjoy its warmth,now that i can partly
enjoy ur body temperature now.i look forward to u,to the wave and wind
of ur hairs,the wind and blow of ur sweat breath from ur warm armpit.i
love u,like round golden moon in these night sky.i love u like the
round cheek of the most lovable baby in the world.i love to kiss
u,kiss u red watery lips,ur kitty nosetip,i love u and kiss u now.kiss
u with sunflower brilliances ur brilliant cheek and beam.
bye.i love u.kiss u.
Monday, December 04, 2006
my old heading work for my website.
my old heading work for my son's mother's class gathering.
btw,posted on Nov. 24 titled 'weak sunny day' there is a line 'the swallowing freak and monster itself can't live in itself peace.its consuming more and more living
spirits and living spices in peace.' here 'spices' should be 'species'.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
sunshine.doubting my family,my kingdom,my god.qrrser constantly left
from the door behind me.last night i read luke of gospel lately and
much refreshed after leaving it aside.after returned to dorm i
listened radio music on bed.dog's biting.i dozed after the radio was
shut aftter 3 pm.even felt cold i still rested.and in it i knew my
baby's mother's family's intension on me and my son.but nothing can
left any dent on our free will.the royal of my family irrelavant with
nobody but god and it exists for a thousand and a hundred and nine
years.that's the rule.the rule from heaven.
my baby,this winter especially warm.but no warmth better than ur
warmth shadded in my heart and on my body.i look forward to ur red
lips and scarlet scarf near around the new year.my family warmly
welcome ur return,my long time thirst.
bye.i love u.kiss u with snow white.
google group more than half of an hour passed and i now in a rush to
write my blog and that hamper my smooth thinking.i know i can stayed
here longer but i hesitated about my independence.
bye.i had to leave now for my time out.i love u.kiss u with bright.
Saturday, December 02, 2006
the night i had finsihed read john.demons left me for quite sometimes
when i read.last night near the door of my baby's mother's school,men
haunted us likely demons,they let my buttock painful but the pain
disappeared after i read.i went to see my baby after i got up.i
fetched the remain bag of rice.when i arrived,a young man sat in the
room left me doubting if he's my kid brother.then i found the kid
sister of my baby's mother's mother.they just arrived before me.the
young man was her first son in her first marriage,whose family name is
liu.i held my baby playing on the balcony soon.then his mother
returned.lunch was fried beef.then i went to shower.my baby's mother
left to hand in a form as her homework.in the afternoon the liu
babbled a lot with the eldest sister while his mother seldom
talked.later the atmospher was thick dirty and i left to surf in the
aim to modify my blog in memory of my grand father at
http://faezrland.blogspot.com but dog hamper me to open it while i can
open my baby's mother's web album.
its not bad a day for me and my baby.the old woman praised a lot on my
baby,in good and in ill.i left them quietly after kiss my baby in his
mother's arms.the newcomers in an close room leting the young son to
test his new coat his mother brought him.
bye.i love u.kiss u with snow white.
Friday, December 01, 2006
suggested by google blog group and in the process i knew i was hacked
to be slow to download but at least i think its working so i just
waited.then after 5:15 pm i ready to leave for dinner and i started to
stop httrack and logout of my google then the pc of the cafe hanged
and beeped,mimicing hardware failure,letting all my waiting in
ruin.dog really now lost their basic politeness and policy and
police.after returned to dorm i felt bitter with pity,and in my baby's
mother's call i commented dog fell into hooligan.i read awhile in the
dorm after dinner then i decided to see my baby after the need haunted
me for some time and challenged me.i arrived there after 8 pm,i
guess.my baby just being held by his mother playing on ground near the
cooking area.he asked for my caress at once.and i held him playing
tapwater as he asked.the old woman sat in front of the tv
watching,seemingly the owner of the house.his mother later felt boring
and went to bed,after i suggested her to play with her notebook but
she refuted.i backup my downloads to the old pc then powered it
down.my baby spared no effects to beat the keyboard and switch the
power button of the monitor.when we againt playing with tapwater her
mother lost her temper and held our baby back and demanded my leave.i
knew the old woman challenged us in silence.when i started to clean
myself while my baby was milked by his mother,he again catched me and
asked to play with tapwater.later he was calmed by his mother and fell
into sleep and i also slept.in dawn i dreamed of my second elder
brother and second elder sister,and my nephew taking drags in the
dream.my eldest sister commited suicide by throwing herself into
changjiang river in a summer night when i was at grade 2 in middle
school.that's the deepest dent in my heart for i love her so much.so
her son and daughter lived in our home for quite some years till their
father later fetched them home.my baby was put on by his mother early
for me,and we ate breakfast bought by the old woman.my baby asked for
my caress as soon as he getting up with only a shirt.i love him so
much and got up immediately.all morning i held him playing tapwater or
toddled in the rooms.when we all felt boring and i started to sing he
slept on my shoulders and later in my arms.when its 11 am we went to
receive his mother.he asked me buying him a icecream.in the afternoon
we sometimes ate nuts sometimes playing tapwater.the group monitor of
my once working place buzzed in at about 2:30 pm to let me fetch rice
dispatched by qrrs,my once working place.i carried a bag to my baby's
mother's home with my bike and left a bag there for tomorrow to carry.
later the grandmom arrived and my baby was sleeping in my arms.the
sisters talked and forced me again think in the way of god and
religion.i then know there is no way to testimony me among men,but god
and his gospels.the grandmom left soon after caressed my baby some
time while i busy with backup my recent blog to my pda.when we went to
receive his mother,some men haunted around us.we ate a stick of sugar
gourd and enjoyed it.that's our grand day.
today the 2 cafe near the dorm zone all increased its price for 1.5
yuan an hour.china likely steered into inflation now.but the stock
market still bubbling,recording high again and again and the office
media still hosting bubbling commentators to bubble it.and my baby's
mother was lured to try fund agency service.shits.i warned her but in
vain,like all my disappointings to her.she just being narrow minded
and hopelessly stupidly stubborn.
bye.i love u.the moon now very round and large.i love u in her
serenity.kiss u with coming snow.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
i likely had not more to utter.silence covers me with due peace when i was alone.u can enjoy ur peace so far,but only with me u can find final peace.i hope ur hair's wave can touch me sooner and i will taste ur lips with ice cold.i love u.kiss u with bright.bye.
btw,post entitled 'sunny morning,gloomy afternoon' posted Nov 29 there is a line reads:'last night in a dream my worry of my blogs was hijacked by dog was replied,i dreamed in a school or someplace in very haste i tried to test if my blogs' pages returned to me in internet cafes was from a faked website cocted by cops and redirected.' in which 'cocted' should be 'concocted'.'faked' better replaced with 'forged'.i mean cop hijacking domain of world into its cheating domain,just like many internet criminal categoried in title of 'fishing' in chinese.however criminal can only cheating user with familiar domain but in fact different domain while dog can hijacked ur page requests and returned u fake page.
another line within the post reads 'its the last day of our monthly deposit and i was told i was left one day to deposit duely otherwise missing one compensating two month.'i quite sometimes think in chinglish,so here 'compensating' should be 'penalized'.the bank ruled missing a month due deposit of fix term saving and withdraw wholesome,u had to deposit one more month to get the due profits.i guess.