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Monday, December 31, 2007

baby at home after the first serious snow since winter

spent 2 hours fruitlessly uploading my home video and picture to the web.really don't know what kind of a pleasure the Chinese internet dog enjoyed to block times and times again from my finishing uploading.they just let u upload then cut in the mid or near the end.they shits really had abundle of time to fuck around and mess up.they just fed to foolish Chinese people,shit on their heads.

afterall, its a nice holiday vacation.i will soon see my fruits after these chores and pains.dog, to its best,was an shortsighted animal.what's can prevent their corpse ditched like a mop?
what can compare with my hate to the hell Chinese internet cop?i just want slaughter them all,none except.the bull shits just blocked and hindered any productivity.their spyware now no my pc monitor each time when i typed.they r the exact the terrors.
bull shits!

silent Chinese, doomed to outburst in the coming future.












baby son&first serious snow since the winter

Saturday, December 29, 2007

snow scene after first snow



the snow in last night cover not so thick on ground,but severe enough to let riding a bike hard in the morning.i spent noon in office to surf,against the bitchy woman's order not to use the cable of the pc she was assigned.in the afternoon we were informed to fetch bonus and i reached the headquarter and fetch my share amount of ¥1800,which indiscriminal my poor status in the team.all glad,and i more or less touched.i need it to return the medical fee my elder sister paid for me,and upgrade our ill working crt monitor.i was also registered for appeal for economic assistence.i was inquired about my marriage status and my support amount for my baby and his home.last year i used part of the finance assistance and this year i intended do so again.i was contented with the gift.hope all in the world under God's shine a better perspective.i love the life in the world.

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Friday, December 28, 2007

first serious snow in the winter



the first severe snow finally descended.from near noon to now.tomorrow it likely will cover thick on the ground.i seldom felt holiday's atmosphere,but being busy with my fun on the web.blocking from Chinese net cop was severe but still i can read most contents i interested about dotcoms from feeds reader.life in dictation need enduring and tolerance.final stroke need time to accumulate its full strength.comparing with the countries in war torn,we were lent peace temporarily.The Japanese PM visited Peiking Univ. today and offer a lecture,i regarded it that all the world waiting Peiking's opera spreading and unfolding gradually.peace after storm which itself after peace.i m sure about it.China, with its ancestor's full glory, need time to pass a way far from straight.

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Thursday, December 27, 2007

first frost in the winter



sunshines lasted so far.the weather was crisp and dry.the first heavy snow in anticipation lingered on the other side of the northeast province.i got my home pc wired to internet as scheduled but Chinese internet police deprive most of my pleasure by blocking lots of US-based websites,including myspace,facebook,vodpod,mashable,technorati,wordpress,livejournal,stumbleupon,diigo,plaxo,mediafire,omnidrive,buxfer,feedburner,to name a few.i had to adopt variable proxy methods,most ill working under heavy surveillance on key routers.life in China like in a cage in zoo.surveillance upon the company traffic was a bit loose but the woman in the office bitchily plotted to block my access to the only internet-equipped pc, by manually deleting files to let the pc down and let me hold the shame of breaking it down.its an echo of laugh from God's setting, i lack nothing to find fun in my own.i read news from US and hope the day of reforming the Chinese political system sooner, under the environment of world democracy.i never withered the belief that China's destiny is true representative politics,real democracy.God's shine even cast over the heavily exploited land.

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Monday, December 17, 2007

First snow in the warm winter




first snow in Qiqihar and some shot before the day.there r quite some reports on tv about snowing weather in these and those days around the other area in Heilongjiang Prov.but Qiqihar always dry and sunshine.now first shallow snow descended and the temporature still warm.snowing weather in anticipation near future.i felt its so auspicious.





baby around the first snow in Qiqihar in the warm winter







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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

rush time of QRRS,my employer



the company was state-owned company and still harness radio to broadcast its news to its employees just before and after working time.i try several times to leave the factory but all failed.life taught me lessons mercilessly.after all the sunshine,which is most case in Qiqihar, always show his warmth to me.God will see all these.

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Monday, November 26, 2007

that's life: still warm winter



again i left being idle and facing myself.i listened the ambience and wondered what i need to do if online.the sunshine outside the window was quite bright and the air was crisp.i don't know where the ship of life steered to and when i can find my destiny.i just kept surfing for the most enjoyable part of life and looking forward to change to occur.

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Saturday, November 24, 2007

Friday, November 23, 2007

warm winter outside the window


all leaves dropped.first snow in anticipation.i felt still time in my life.

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Monday, November 12, 2007

baby in his new clothes

quite some time our baby wore open pants and handmade woolen sweater. recently his mother bought him a new woolen sweater which he likes.the day before yesterday when i returned home and found him in new sweater i felt flash in my eyes.my baby also very glad and asked to shot pictures at once.but then was evening, so i suggested shot next day.but next noon he was sleeping when we returned home from work and ate lunch.his mother finally shot him yesterday with adequate sunlight in lense.i shot a movie this morning on Saturday when he was sleeping. i panned the camera to show our home, simple but cozy.our baby recently liked to bump and crack.he liked to beat me in my face, for i like to kiss his bottom without his consent.he also demand my sleep apart from his mom and him.he sometimes acts naughty, but we all including his grandma ,now at our home to cook and care him when we went to work, who complained a lot about my baby interrupt his watching tv by power down the tv set.his grandma usually brought him outside.and lots of stories happened outside evade our sights.our baby now can utter a lot meaningful sentences, let his mother loving him more.everything in sight rosy.i contented with my cyber life,esp., recent blog with twitter.the only problem disturbing me is that i can't sms to twitter for 1 rmb per item too much for me.otherwise, how i enjoy twitter's service.



baby in his new clothes.


Friday, November 02, 2007

family life in chill winter



our baby son very like to play games.he let us play with him with hide-and-see and laughed a lot.

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Thursday, November 01, 2007

try mobile blogger

眸子的星茫浮于薄è"¼æµ&lsqauo;试i like mobile blogging so much but it just blocked by China police.

Monday, October 29, 2007

family reunited

my family reunited after my failed job-seeking journey in southern China and after all those turbulent moments with my baby in Qiqihar,Heilongjiang Prov.,northeast China, which rendered me into the trap of asylum for 4 month.i didn’t regret,as usual, i love my baby, i follow impulse to follow God.i indeed felt no more closer to my baby in those distressed time.its he let me leave Qiqihar.he was always right.


family at rest host at video of facebook.com


family reunited

family reunited


family shot after i returned from my hometown and worked for some days in my long time working unit.

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Tuesday, October 23, 2007

my recent heading work

its not a long road backward to my past blogs.i had to face many vivid memory when i in distress some months ago.being believing is not so simple in routine life but i will stay.i like being busy with warez and seeing the progress of IT.i like play with great softwares to do some design.i also need to support my family, in return, i need a job to service the society and the company i was long time employed.




Thursday, August 16, 2007

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

My family at the dam of my hometown

in front of the tribe hotel.
on the bank of the dam.birdview the hometown.
play with water.
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Friday, August 10, 2007

my family relax at the aunts' home


my family gathered along Changjiang river


baby son bathed in the river.


toss and prevent tossing.


gloomy people(my nephews)
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Saturday, July 28, 2007

my family at my hometown


me with my baby son.


my baby son with his niece.


my baby with me on the Mount. Houbei.


my baby son mist in thoughts.
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Tuesday, June 19, 2007

a new stage open for me.

i will combat like an ant for a living, with clumnsiness accompanying with age. i had closely harnessed job marketing web service dot com like 51job and zhaopin.com to post my resume, but so far only a company responded me. however, no one can break my faith to the care onto me of God. i still and forever live in hope.

Friday, February 16, 2007

pale sunshine

last night i didn’t linger too much in cafe,and by being restricted to direct connection and posting via post2blog to 3 blog hosts all successfully i finished my routine swift.returned to the dorm i read awhile my blog then went to bed after 1:30 am.i restless for quite some time and worried my hot brain.however i slept sound later and dreamed a lot of building used as prisons,and quite some people tried all means to climbed the wall to evade being trapped in the building or move from one building to another.i also know intelligent youth(ziqin or zishiqingnian in chinese) in and after mao’s culture revolution era all infected with dog behavior.some of them operate till now but still in dog’s behavior.in the mid night i heard some strange sound likes baby’s cries but the dorm or aound can’t holding any baby.when i accepted its a new birth of baby,it ceased.i woke up early and stayed on bed wondering for some time till at 11:38 am or so i got up for lunch.then i ate the apple i brought from my baby’s mother’s home yesterday and haunted outside.i jogged some time on the way to the dorm in the dorm zone yard.after qrrsers went to work i went to borrow its magazines.but the gate blocked its employees late for half of an hour.i also waited there and one of its employees ever cooperated with me to shot program for qrrs’ cable tv when i worked once there chatted with me.then the library found locked.i returned and on the way remembered i should remit to "hope project".then i visited icbc but there were queues there.i then went to post office nearby and remit 222 rmb to beijing "hope project" for impoverished children of chinese less developed area.returned to dorm i listened radio on bed since then till dinner time.most time i wondering our love and marriage in fog.in the morning when i awake i recognized u might had scheduled to study aboard.i don’t know its illusion of dog’s exertion or message directly from u.i tossed in love with u.dinner was egg and green pepper and bean curd slice.after dinner i again listening radio music on bed.the neighbors with a thin paper wall apart from my room stayed there and exerting dirty will onto me and let me have to defense.later some female visited them.i left the dorm again at 9:57 pm to here to write u.
bye.dog in the cafe pestering me so i want to be swift.i love u,never anything can change it.u might venture the western world as u r young and endorsed,but u should know i m suffering for u,by u,and to u.in every boring moment u sensed after bubbles and ebbs,u will find my gaze in expectation unbeatable and evalueable.i love u like the sea blue deep,like the mountain lofty and clear and with dignity.love u is not as easy as pains taking, is not additive as music or paintings.love is my image of ur figure in the loneliest night,flashing and disappeared in street lamps after gases of taxi and dusts of rush foot step of passengers.l love u,in doomed light in the end.i hold u in every brink of cautious eyesight.
bye.baby,my dearest kin,my kid sister,love me,and not let me slide away.kiss u with blossom.i love u.no matter which way u chose or to choose.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

dry bright day

last night near 11 pm i was allowed to access most websites i had accounts via direct connection.i was seemingly encouraged to surf lately.returning to the dorm i read awhile my blog on pda then went to bed after 1:40 am.i dreamed in dawn of a guy,likely a qrrs’ graduate employee in one of the dorms,liked chinese boxing (sanda in chinese) training,who can use his leg kick the hot spot (xuewei in chinese) between eyes to let u tear.i spelt his name in dream,but after woke up his name into my mind was fang zhenjiang(square promote river).last night or in last sleep i dreamed my grand father smiling,and stay quite awhile in my dream cordially.i got up at 11:39 am and went to lunch.after lunch i strode in the open space on the south side of the workers’ palace of qrrs.when qrrser flocking to the factory,i returned to the dorm zone and jogged on the rim of the mini garden.then i returned to room to rest.i spent then 2 hours in sunshine.i know girl fang(quare) r well and ready.she now a china marine corp’s officer and temporarily working in the team of state security to monitor my web activities.she ruined the post in the new cafe about my mad history,for she can’t bear the broken story of our love in nankai unv. listening radio on bed,i roamed a lot of the pass time with brewing of love with her while seldom contacted.most songs broadcasted in the radio were love and let me even immersed in moving and forgiving.then my baby’s mother buzzed in to tell me she and my baby finished shopping.i then visited icbc,intending to remit some money from qrrs to "hope project" to subside poverty strike children of china.but only a window at service and quite some queue there.i also was told remission need national id card which i didn’t brought.so i returned to the dorm and picked my bike to visit my baby.my baby was sleeping when i arrived and his mother watching a war theme tv theater titled "pearl harbor",about japanese shock invasion to us.i sat down to eat peanuts with her.but soon my baby woke up and cried for sometimes.after him rejoiced,we played with him and let him glad.his mother ate most of the sugar gourd i bought in the way and the rest let my baby glad.then the grandma arrived with a box of apple and a box of orange.soon the girl student arrived and my baby show his friendship a lot to her,offered her oranges and hindered her from writing.when dinner was ready the tutoring didn’t finished and my baby kept offering meal to the girl student,so we suggested her to eat with us and she did.after dinner and the girl student left the grandma watched tv and we played with our baby and he really liked us to play games with him.when i found tv series concerning topic i cared i left.my baby first refused to farewell to me but later kiss me and goodbye to me.in the dorm i again felt the pains of love with girl fang(square) and a hot brain.i lean to try to cool it and found my link to the japanese girl who once studied with me in a class when i prepared my master degree entrance exam in nankai unv. .i left the dorm at 9:57 or 9:58 pm to write u.
recent snow was the ever thickest snow in the dog year of lunar calendar.it melting in day time but some of them still let the road bumpy.workers sure promptly to clean the road for travel.i like the snow very much.
bye.i love u.dear.i have 25 years with u.ur face was the faintest image in my mind.i love u so much,in every moment looking forward to being with u,with ur tall figure and slender buildup my heart tumbled.u r the most vivid dream of mine i can envision so far.i need u eager than any time.i can’t wait for our warm house and harmony family life.i kneel to the ground on which my grand father’s tablet stood to beg for ur presence sooner to me.i love u,with my heart and soul,live me a life more colorful,baby,not to let it continue being pale,i urged u.kiss u with flow of mountain steam from the most serene valley.kiss u again before bye to u.i love u forever.love me my baby.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

bright sunny day

last night in the cafe was dog chased.and it likely will continue to block my posting step by step and cafe by cafe.since 9 pm till now,half of an hour passed i can’t open any web site other than google in my firefox,after restarted firefox 2 times.i spent near 7 hours till 3 am to retouch my portable suit and blogging.returning to the dorm i read my blog then went to bed.i dreamed bush,the american president now,talked to us within a small gathering with his family.i got up at 2:49 pm and finding the sunshine enviable bright.so i walked outside in the open space around the workers’ palace of qrrs.i toddled awhile in the entrance of the little bush garden in left front of the palace,then a huge car approached to clean the snow.then an elder approached me and asking if i was from a factory of qrrs.i then moved to dorm and went to borrow magazine.but the library was locked.i returned to the dorm again and listen radio.then i noticed its valentine day.i doubting if i should go over to see my baby’s mother and decided to see them after dinner at canteen.i bought 3 hambergs and cup of cocacola,which was my baby’s favorite,at a price of 27 rmb with 3 coupon i bought from a customer couples there eating.the man of the couple let me doubting there is a dog,but i needn’t care anyone covert.i also bring a coffe cup offered by qrrs last day but it fell onto ground from my hand when i picked it out from the holder of my bike on the ground of the residential building and broke.my baby immediately asked to drink cola.the grandma there and likely had been there a day,as my baby’s mother told me yesterday.she soon finished tutoring the girl student and we finished eating the hambergs.soon dinner was ready by the grandma but they all ate less.then we couples played with our baby and he laughed a lot.the grandma soon watched tv and brewing dirty will or challenged us.my baby later tired and being milked but after his mother took off his coat he again asked to play.its clear that the grandma determined to stage after 2 of her sisters to challenge us.i also got a view that dog trying to distract me from my direct goat and underwent covert plot in aim to extending its day it can be in charge.i decided to leave when i know i m ready and my baby immediately left his mother’s milk to farewell to me.i kiss him again and again and left.i stayed in dorm for minutes then here first try my portable suit then write u.
bye.i love u.yesterday the magpies crowed on the tree in front of my window in the dorm.i m sure u r never more closer to me now.i love u, in sheer baby’s sensational fresh touch and new landscape.kiss u with beer.holding ur thick hairs to cover my face in touch with urs.i love u,never be more surer.Technorati Tags:

pale morning, snows in the mid of afternoon

last night was terrible for surfing.dog determined to waste my time in the cafe.i spent 6 hour merely let my portable suite neaty and blogging.i first tried online virus scan and dog let it hanged first time.second time 2 online scanner,namely kaspersky and trend, working but didn't find any virus or spyware in my suit.my portable suit can be intact from dog,but also possible dog hijacked the online scanner,which was just an activex of ie.also active access scan was unable,so they hide and see with scanner,just like many occasions they can do anything on it can pestering.they most frequent and straight utility sure the router in their hands,they can let it automatically.they r earning to do that,in the dog rein to earned to dog chinese people.posting also painful,frequently returning failed pages.i insisted hand over 5 rmb as charge.when i arrived the dorm its 1:26 am and i felt worry about if the aunt left for their home and left my baby with his mother alone at home.i rest a moment then headed to see my baby and by the way transfered the materials offered by qrrs to my baby's mother's home.i was armful and i took a taxi.on the taxi i was obliged to talk about my situation and the driver sure intelligent.if not canny.my slept aside my baby and the spying eyes from the southern neighbor let me restlessly,sometimes even woke my baby up.his mother complained a lot on my troubling her.near dawn i fell into sleep but soon my baby asked my accompany to him.the aunt prepared breakfast with pies.i tasted some vinegar with my baby.i ate a lot of pie and porridge.then his mother left for her school.my baby soon asked to haunt outside.i just too sleepy to notice anything.we visited sports yard where lots of skaters and the south park where we caught up some morning exercise elders.we soon returned.i felt better then.after his mother returned i slept and didn't eat lunch.i slept very sound.when i woke up his mother caring my baby playing.the aunt and the liu haunted outside,only the kid son lean on the bed.my baby sure more and more confident now, and also demanding.i cared him with his mother till the girl student arrived.then i walked a mile to the dorm and ate dinner there.i dozed in the room till 7 pm then i came here.till 1 am i started to blog.and almost 5 hours spent avoiding pestering of dog.
bye.i love u.in near and on far.i can see more stern challenge ahead with my web activities but i sure enjoy my part of pleasure of internet.kiss u with right.

Monday, February 12, 2007

pale sunshine

last night in cafe posting was painful.dog's block let it a test of endure ability.i got view that dog not only cost me more money on web but also more time being waste,less time to think on the web.my profile at myspace.com was hacked to error-prone.the day before yesterday it was being down but when i tried in ie near 0 am it resumed.then yesterday it again down.my google browser sync also under unauthorized modification and lost the status i logout last time.returning to the dorm near 0 am i read awhile my blog then slept at 1:26 am.dreams i can't remember now.near 8 am the monitor of my once working place,qrrs, buzzed in to informed me going to the office to fetch bonus and financial aid before 8 am.i returned and slept till 1:08 pm getting up.finding the unclear sunshine i felt better jog outside and i went to the office.the monitor asked why i didn't arrive on time then we went to the main office building.there i was offered 700 rmb and 2 qrrs' uniform then waiting for the interview with the department director.we talked briefly,at the time the labor association chairman of department handed me another 700rmb.after the director left the monitor and the chairman,in family name of liu, accompany me to fetch some material bonus in its shop and help me bring them to my dorm room.i saw their out and wondering if i should sent them directly to my baby's mother's house.but i left to listen radio till 4:30 pm then i ate my dinner at a cost of 4 rmb.the female administrator of the canteen inquired me and i glad to talk about my recent status.after dinner i haunted around the open space surrounding the workers' palace.when i returned,under the tree near the gate of the dorm zone some magpies rabbled loudly and let me wondering the moment of my arm around ur neck near,and my hand almost reach urs. i also sensed the arrangement of qrrs, maybe from the day i first time arrived back to 1991 when i graduated from nankai unv. after the turbulence of "6.4" beijing storm.old man's covet layout still in good shape and history extending likes an mutton sheet.

after dinner i also buzzed my hometown and my mother wanted me took job and visit her next year.when i buzzed my baby's mother she felt not so glad to know my not bringing materials newly got her home.i felt obliged to her.

bye.i love u.in near time i can sense.kiss u with god's touch.kiss me,baby.i love u in the heaven.bye.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

weak while pure sunshine in the morning,straight bright in the aftenoon

last night in the cafe being blocked heavily. i merely blogging while costing 4 rmb for 4 hours.returning to the dorm i read awhile my posts on my pda.the rats in neighbor room kept babbling and dirty me.so i read awhile chinese traditional poems on my pda. i went to bed at 1:06 am.soon in the dream i sensed ur pains of ur love and ur penalty to me of migrating to us.i wet dreamed then and woke up.i was heavily upset,and saw quite some omen of the effect of ur giving up to our love.i can't judge what's illusion and what's omen, even sure dog around exerting their coldness and dirty will.i got up at 9:23 am and washed my bed rob then went to see my baby.he was near the 2 sons of the aunt watching tv with their mother.he was told by them to pick me a pair of slippers.i held him then till went to receive his mother who now underwent normal teaching scheme at 10:40 am.i was in sincere low spirit that i seldom talked.my baby directed me entered the sports yard where lots of skaters even the sunshine melting dirty snow.then we moved to the south park,where he asked for some candy.his nose running and the vendor lend us tissue to mop.my baby very glad to play on the mini plaza in the park and laugh and babbled a lot.later he walked to a nearby grocery market.then i suggested to prepare to receive his mother and we headed on.we entered the school later when the students leaving.he then turned irritated and even worse after returning home and was milked to sleep before lunch.lunch was fried beef which they ate last night as the feast of the festival of lunar little year(xiao nian in chinese).my pda's calendar still indicating today should be the festival and i also remembered the day in my hometown was right the day.after lunch i dozed aside my baby and his mother soon left for her school.my baby soon woke up while i sleepy.when he played on his own i started to retouch my portable suit.then the aunt family left to fetch their booked ticket from the railway station.my baby cried a lot not to let me operate on  the pc,and i knew hacking around concentrated. my baby even powered down the pc just when i copying the archive to udisk.however, i didn't scorn my baby after all my wrong scorns to my baby while he is always right.later we mix some drink of juice powder and beer to drink and he liked it very much.then i bathed him.he enjoyed it very much,only when he can't breathe when water covered his face he need my caress.when i wrapped him with quilt sitting in the sunshine on the balcony the aunt family returned and left some fussy comments.i turned normal in spirit,and sang sometimes.near 4:20 pm when went out to receive his mother.he again entered the school yard for the gate was open.i sensed cop in the outpost of the gate spying closely all time.my baby asked to walk on the dusty field track till his mother approached us.then i went to public bathroom to shower.the bathroom changed its boss.and a man before i arrived there being massaged and continued that after i left.another man arriving when i leaving.my baby's mother tutoring a girl student and soon finished and dinner ready.before dinner my baby ate a bowl of wheat food with spoon on his own and felt glad.after dinner i recited some strong phrases and let my baby stay in high spirit.when he asked his mother's milk and slept,i left.in the dorm i dozed awhile,listening radio.after 9 pm i came here to write u.

bye.i love u,no matter how u treat me.i admitted i can't judge ur decision upon our love right now, and i really care about my life ahead with u together.i need true love,but i would suffer misery as the stories of artist.i broke my heart one time and i think i don't want ruin my soundness any more.

i love u,in every tiny sense it bares.love u in sunshine.kiss u with beer.

Saturday, February 10, 2007

blunt sunny day

last night in the cafe was gliding of time, at a cost of 4 rmb.returning to the dorm its near 0 am and i read awhile my blog on pda till 1:30 am and went to bed.dog around spying concentrating and let me cost some time to settle down.i stayed awake for some time before i got up at 2:22 pm.then i walked around the front open space of qrrs,there were still sunshine on the ground.returning to the dorm i listened radio music.the topic of one of its program was jealousness.i reviewed my time with the occasional contacts with the girl fang (square) when i was in naikai unv. and later my time with my baby's mother,and look forward to the time with u ahead.spying eyes thick in the dorm and let me restlessly.the canteen received less customers when i ate my only dinner there.on the way returning to the room i met 2 girls leaving with packages for their home,likely.i again listened radio awhile till my baby's mother buzzed in and told me its little year (xiaonian in chinese),i refuted her according to the calender on my pda that tomorrow was.my baby at the time around 7 pm was said just slept.i came here to blog soon after and tried seeing why thunderbird ill working after packed into portable suit.dog now heavily blocked me,hindering me operating on www.diigo.com ,on which i created 2 groups under title of benzyrnill at http://groups.diigo.com/groups/benzyrnill and faezrland at http://groups.diigo.com/groups/faezrland and declaimed democracy of china and my royal of china.they also block quite some proxy of australia,most of them usually working and speedy.maybe they now need a boost of their loot to bargain with their host for bonus bone.
bye.i love u, in tear in dear.kiss u with beer.love u like the sunshine tomorrow.

Friday, February 09, 2007

sunny day, inspiring sunshine in the mroning

last night in the cafe was worthy even dog finally blocked out my p2p download after all these temptations and taking away just to upset me,letting me getting about 200 mb stuff.i find lots of addons of firefox and enjoyed them very much, esp. the addon of google browser sync,with its function i had envisioned some time before i knew it.i just can't wait for google's network operation system and online office.the addon of deepest sender,dog again hindered me getting it,long time handicapped and some of its form box abnormal.hacker in dog team sure had some knowledge on these warez and just can't help showily harnessed it.the only vacant likely a plot,for from the moment i picked it the keyboard and mouse were remotely controlled and just after i took the seat quite some empty seats appeared and soon i was besieged by babbling hooligans bustlingly till after 4 am.they smoked as their usual dirty trick to disgust me.after all who can save their pitiful fate of being buried with dust and shit?no longer than the life of a fly.

after returned to  the dorm i ate my breakfast in the canteen.then i headed to see my baby.he was walking in the waiting room when i arrived,while his mother tutoring the 2 girl students and the kid son of the aunt.then with my baby in my arms or on my shoulders i hummed and sang and murmured to my baby,who played with caps of bottle on his own.when his mother started to tutor another girl student and held my baby to breed him i started to rebuild my portable suit on the pc.i reinstalled the os to prevent infection but sure dog around can harness wireless gadget to hack my operation again.but i don't care more about it in the process of my operation.they infected my files can only had one advantage they can benefited,in my view, to inform them actively to hack me online when i surf ,via the spyware embedded into my file to server to  search its client.other thing concerning privacy had all being in god's view, and thief eyes in god's set.i didn't eat lunch when i operate on the pc,for i didn't felt hungry.my baby was cared by the aunt for some time and was bore into sleep in his mother's arms.i slept aside him when the pc let me free.but he soon woke up when i just felt into doze.after lunch his mother held my baby outside.i stayed at home to do my task.the liu and the aunt watched tv and severely attacked me.when my baby and his mother returned i merely finished my work,but yet to pack to my udisk.after finished my task and turned off the pc i cared my baby and sang a lot.the aunt and her elder son started to cook and before the dinner the grandma arrived.dinner was pie with potato slice and onion.i enjoyed it for i was very hungry.after dinner my baby played with my pda and thrown it twice onto floor but intact.when they chatted i felt sleepy and his mother suggested my leave and i admitted.in the dorm i dozed for an hour and here write u.i just so anxious about the fantasy of the newly added addons.

bye.i love u, in the turning corner in front of us.longest dark had faded its way.i saw the brew of our love.kiss u with beer.i love u,like beer in transparent light brown and green.kiss u again.

sunny day,stained snow melting,day light longer

last night in the cafe was a mess. i merely blogging while cost 3 rmb.later some men and female sat around me and bit me.turning to the dorm its already after 0 am.i read awhile my blog and slept at 2:10 am.i dreamed a lot and remembered some but now after busy with let emule to download and finding some firefox addons i forgot them.i got up at 11:18 am and went to have lunch.after lunch, i rested on the bed for some time then haunted outside.there r quite some boys playing basket ball in the yard.i sat on the swing for awhile, then walked around the open space in front of qrrs.on the way returning to the dorm i visited the free cafe of qrrs and trying to download some firefox addons to prepare a clean reinstallation,but just after 3 or 5 minutes the internet connection was cut off,i reset the pc and being force offline again after several minutes.the cafe administrators persuading me leaving for several rounds,including bodily poking.i then left and found dinner ready and i ate it.then i rested on bed listening music.after receiving my baby’s mother’s phone call i decided to surf overnight to download and prepare a fresh rebuild of portable pack.my baby hummed in the phone and let me glad.i also in peace reviewing my years and times with his mother.and i can envision we can have a better way to live with ourselves.after 7 pm i listen news from radio of beijing,in which the premier talked about the power of people.i sensed the bless from my ancestor and more peaceful to accept my baby’s mother as part of mine and live with trust each other in the long run.i also felt surer that i will trust u from the start and all the time in our life together.after 8:30 pm i launched to the new cafe.all lcd occupied.i waited till overnight service launched.then there was a young man left,and i pick the seat in a rush.the pc was immediately controlled by dog,hanged after i tried online security scanning.after reboot i tried a domestic av soft to scan the pc.my emule downloading also started.there r some complains about the lagging of speed, letting me sorry for my downloading costly for internet traffic,but i m surer that dog more responsible for the slow internet speed.they monitored all my activities online and the passports of all my cyber existence, in god’s view, what they desperately hampering my getting a clean portable pack and a clean os at home was likely just waste my time and upset me,and harnessed hacking tool to let their monitor more automatic.after all what’s the worth of all these worthless wrest?only god know when and why i had to enjoy my working scheme with my own pleasure.
bye.i love u,in every silent moment.i felt even readier for ur descending in front of me.love u with beer,which tasteless without u at lunch.kiss u with peer.
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Wednesday, February 07, 2007

ordinary sunny day

last night in the cafe was terrible.dog again practice its dirty trick to control the keyboard and router data package filter to trouble my posting and surf a lot.the pc hanged a time.they likely got mad in method these days,after times and times failed against me.returning to the dorm i read my blog on my pda till 2 pm then slept.i dreamed of 2 interpreters, a man and a female.after 1 pm i was alarmed by the phone from my baby's mother,to imformed me to register our divorce to the civil office.i left at 1:10 pm.i rode there by bike and my baby's mother alone waited there and we moved to its new office location near the district government.there we were rebut for we didn't bring residential book.when we returned the home our baby just held by the grandma and the aunt playing on the ground.my baby rushed to his mother but seemingly ignored me.i waited in front of the ground door awhile then upstairs to meet his mother and met her just outside of her door.there we registered our divorce and my baby's mother made note on the document that i gave up all property and my baby to her.i was let to fill the form first but when i reluctant to write our accord she pick it up and i told her that i left my house deposit within qrrs,my once workplace,to her,and all my owning except my monthly expense of 300 rmb.she weep when we waited for our divorce registry,which numbered like "0100700100" or "00100700100",etc. on the way home we shopping grocery.i bought my baby some candy of worth 7 rmb.returning home i moved some missing files onto my pda and imported family email list to the thunderbird of my baby's mother's notebook,as she once inquired.then we played with our baby.i sang sometimes.the liu kept watching tv as usual.the old sister busy with cooking.they first time cook steam bread,with which i ate 4 without any dishes.my baby's mother ate 2 aside me.on dinner the liu ate after we finished and he insisted eating rice,which was remnant of lunch and there was few.after dinner the aunt family gathered in their room and my baby played there for some time,sitting on the back of the kid son laying himself face down.later we played in our bedroom,his mother played with him with hide-and-see in the curtain.my baby laughed a lot and i kiss him a lot.his mother got angry when i sang but later rejoiced.after my baby milked to sleep,i kiss my baby's mother's forehead and told her to be sure of our bright future and left.i told her i will take an apple with me but i forgot it when i coated and left.arriving the dorm i headed here immediately and busy with correcting my blogs till now to write u.www.diigo.com did batch posted my posting,but dog likely invaded in with their messing and my blogs missing some posts and i had to costly amended them.

bye.i miss u everyday. i need u in every moment when i was alone.i love u like the sheer right.kiss u with beer.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

sunny son before lunar new year in new clothings.

shot by his mother.

no words can express my love for him.


sunny day

the morning in the cafe was just make use of a pc, not the internet.p2p download was heavily tempered.a man in my age likely a cop nearby biting heavily.i merely prepared thunderbird for my baby's mother,and that cost me 4 rmb.when i left its near 11 am.i went to see my baby at once.my baby was in the waiting room when i arrived.the aunt today very domineer and ordered my baby to eat a lot.my baby's mother had lecture in the morning.when she returned she looked glad.my baby rushed to pick her her slippers.my baby ate less for lunch.at lunch i told what i valued email client and suggested her keeping good behavior to make good use of email client.she likely half accepted.i also told him how cop in the morning stole my domain of email with yahoo and gmail and 163.com of a speedy domestic hostsite.she agreed to let me operate on her notebook to move thunderbird portable onto it.but the backup made in the cafe likely infected and i spent a lot additional time trying to avoid it.in fact the whole afternoon i busy with rebuilding a portable working environment for myself.downloads from the cafe infected heavily and let my pc hanged quite sometimes.my baby and the kid son of the aunt and the grandma all urged me to eat dinner but i just busy with finishing it before dinner.when i ate my dinner they finished and my baby's mother got angry and refused to offer me meal.after dinner i soon finished backup of download and shut down pc.the aunt family gathered in the room they occupied now.i waited for my baby playing with the kid son.later we moved to our bedroom and my baby first played with his mother hide-and-see in curtain and laugh a lot.later i laid him on the pile of quilt and let him sliding to ground.the risk let him laugh quite a lot and let his mother uncomfortable.she told me she will file divorce tomorrow with me and let me waited on the ground of the home building in the afternoon.she even inquired how i care my baby if she left my baby with me.i admitted her request.after my baby slept i also dozed on the edge of the bed.i kiss her forehead and left.she also shown her care for me.its a painful moment,but i m afraid more severe pains to arrive to tear our hearts apart. i rested on the bed in the dorm for awhile then i arrived here.

today quite some graduate employees of qrrs leaving for their holiday.in the morning and in the night people leaving.but i saw the wife of the hunan couples with their child son.i don't know what a pain ahead but i know god's training just sweat and meaningful.

sunny day,eaves dripping yesterday.sunny morning

last night i surf overnight in the new cafe.i registered myself and my baby with some other email account with google,netease and yahoo.dog kept close monitor and stole one of my account.they bit heavily in the process.i spent most of time on setting webmail account within thunderbird.when dawn descended i barely finished letting thunderbird working.returning to the dorm i ate my breakfast and rested on bed for awhile then returned the cafe to write my blog. the night before yesterday i spent 3 rmb or 4 in the cafe to blog.when i surfing i heard the wife of the boss likely saying it indeed charged 1 rmb for an hour.if so the boss had guilty to accept my expressed obligations many times.indeed i knew all these under dog's arrangement,but also in god's set.i needn't care anyone on the earth after all.returning to the dorm its already after 0 am.i read my blog on my pda till after 1 am.i dreamed the pave way around the lake of qrrs covered with plants and grass.i was asked to bring some boxes of book to the library and on the way met one of my once qrrs colleague,wubaohe,a girl graduate from beijing normal unv. .i was blocked by the gatekeeper of qrrs.i got up at 2:24 pm.i then went to the library of qrrs,there i read some mags not lend.namely china garden.then i went to read newspaper.but the newspaper "cankaoxiaoxi(world reference digest)" was taken by an elder there,so i read pictorial.then on bed i listened radio till dinner.i asked for 4 rmb food but was allowanced 1 rmb.on bed in the dorm i started to doubt if i can surf overnight and felt right to do it.after 8:30 pm i walked about a mile to surf the cafe allowing me to down with emule.ftp now blocked deadly,let my ftp client downloaded some files but all of them broken or incomplete while the ftp client was cheated to have finished.dog likely manipulated router's filter rule to maltreat my internet traffic. bye.i love u,in these new year in brink.love u like candy in mouth.kiss u with beer.

 

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Pale sunshine, chill day

last night i spent more than 5 hours in cafe to try to let my thunderbird working.dog likely blocked localhost's some ports needed by web mail function of thunderbird and let my all attempt failed.when i left its after 3 am.dog bit heavily during the time i surf.they besieged me after i chose a far seat.they r dog or gay from cop or arranged by cop.they let me irritated and felt cold in my leg.dog now bit again heavily around.
after returned to the dorm i read my blog on my pda till 5 am.i can't sleep but just dozed.i got up at 8:10 am and ate breakfast in the canteen.then i went to see my baby.i ran upstairs and my baby was in the arms of the aunt when i arrived.his mother tutoring 2 girls students and the kid son of the aunt.the elder son,the liu reading in the room they now occupied.i told my baby how tasty a breakfast with pickle and porridge can be and soon the porridge was served.my baby ate some.after breakfast i murmured to my baby a lot,till his mother lost her temper and almost slam onto my face and startled my baby into cry.i got a view why she preferred to tutor students at home,just let her being on center stage of the family,in the guise of being busy and earning and righteous business and also avoid herself engaging anything of chores.its a long time tradition of her family life,and she succeeded to bring it to my family,let her dominating and sustainable,but all her did just in fact rubbish,like the rubbish system of china nowadays.dog ran its way everywhere and felt assured.robber and thief felt they doing the most common job on the earth.her dominating role over the students she tutored just as boring as what she taught and earned, and fragile as she sensed it,that's why she so dependent and crabbed.dog in nowadays china beset in the same situation,inevitable,they doomed to lose for themselves losing the ability and inspiration to sustain the boring its exerted on the whole citizen.there is nothing new ,nothing original,nothing productive.they bankrupt the world with their rotten corpse.that's their fate,till they bing buried.
when the grandma arrived,my baby's mother felt glad to let me to fetch some package of washed clothing the grandma brought.the grandma surely empowered with something recharged and her presence quickly let me doze and slept.i slept till after 2 pm,or so,at least i missed the lunch.my baby's mother glad to let me sleep and covered me with quilt of my baby's.my baby approached me sometimes and wanted to play with me but i can't woke up.after i got up the grandma chatted with her sister family in the room for my baby.i soon decided to bath my baby.his mother opposed it and my baby also disagree with it,but i arranged it.his mother then enjoyed to bath him while i busy with holding the water jet and shot with camera.after bathed our baby,his mother showered herself.i played the shot on the tv to let the grandma and other member at home watch.then i went to shower in the public bathroom.there i enjoyed the whole bathroom with my own alone.returning to home,dinner soon started.after dinner i asked for my baby's mother's permission to operate on her notebook to backup shots and the os again.when i busy with pc,my baby played with the kid son of the aunt and bit him.his mother lean aside the aunt.after i finished backup,we played with our baby in our bedroom.my baby turned more and more to be less agile,but i felt dozy,so i left.and just arrived the dorm i came here to write u.here i updated my youtube and picasaweb.
bye.i love u.in dim and in dream.lunar new year can be ur shopping march. i will spend my holiday with my god.kiss u with beer.

From baby in showe...


Saturday, February 03, 2007

sunny day

last night i spent 3 more hours in the cafe ,costing me 4 rmb.i tried to post to www.digg.com .returning to the dorm i read the biography of Russian president Vladimir Putin then read my blog awhile .i went to bed around 1 am.i got up at 9:52 am and went to see my baby at once.i ran upstairs and his mother tutoring a girl student when i arrived.the aunt held my baby playing on the edge of the window of the bedroom.my baby immediately asked my caress.then with him on my shoulders i sang and recited memo.later his mother rebut my performance and let me calmer.when the aunt and his elder son started to cook,i powered pc trying to retrieve my email accounts book from dreammail to thunderbird but failed.i delayed awhile to have lunch when they were eating.i ate a lot of bone of the brand "quanjude" duck with its juice.before i started to eat my lunch i asked for pickle,and my baby asked a lot and ate a lot of pickle,let his mother and the aunt in a fuss.they tried to stop but i let my baby eat what he liked and drank sweat milk his mother bought to dilute the saltiness.after lunch his mother suggested haunting outside,and we haunted the cult dragon supermarket nearby,where his mother bought a barrel of edible oil and some grocery.i bought my baby some milk candy.his mother suggested to transfer surplus in my salary book to my baby's deposit book and she did with my admission.she transfered 1000 rmb while my finance book indicating only 900 rmb left while i had to spend another 200 rmb as my monthly expenditure.returning to home i soon decided to fix the notebook which can't play movie fluently as result of being infected by virus and malware.later i decided to reinstall the os and working environment.his mother constantly opposing my operation,by delay or refusing to care my baby.she also urged me to leave before dinner.after dinner i continued installation and backup.the system surely infected,whose symptom including undeleteable folder in the recycle bin.however,this time the movie can be played in normal speed.dog also changed the logon avatar to a dog into my backup, just boast their hacking utilities as their used behavior.the aunt family went to bed early,and played on bed.my baby don't want to sleep and asked me to hold him to hang around when the notebook let me free.i finished backup near 9 pm and his mother seemed happier.we played with our baby awhile on the floor in bedroom.she checked my finance book.i waited my baby milked to sleep and left. i also picked an apple. the road connecting to suburb decorated with string of lanterns.holiday atmosphere everywhere.the couple from hunan prov. lived temporary in the dorm also absent when i returned the dorm,let me even lonely.i felt i was ditched in the eccentric corner on the earth.however,i don't lose my hope and my faith in my responsibility. bye.i love u, in near time and far coincidence.the moon night so clear and cool in the universe.kiss u with beer.

 

Friday, February 02, 2007

cloudy day as i saw

last night i spent 3 hour and spent 3 rmb in the cafe near the dorm zone.a chinese girl within facebook.com blacklisted me let me at a loss.i registered my account with www.digg.com and found its attraction mainly on the news voted,not handy tool for personal posts management.returning to the dorm i read my blog on my pda till after 2 am.in the nightmare i dream something crept onto my bed from what it hide under the bed and i can’t speak or scream even startled.then in a building likely in a campus,there r some bed berth only with a layer of straw and some shit on it.i was in a corner and felt threatened heavily.later i found a group of young muslim in a near building snipper me through the large window of the building i stayed.an alumnus of my senior middle school,raojiawang(family prosperous), appeared and slept on the bed adjoin mine.then i was in the campus of the senior middle school,huanggang middle school,where i stayed temporarily in a small cabin used as the radio station of the school.my elder brother appeared in the campus.and the building where i was taught when i was a student there was ditched and its ground floor was supported by wood.i woke up at 2:58 pm and got up at 3:02 pm.then i traveled through the open space in front of qrrs.after returned to the dorm i listened to the radio till getting up for dinner.qrrs now hosting a birthday ceremony for its graduate employees tonight and set up a huge balloon outside of the canteen.i ate 4 rmb food without any meat as my only meal today.then i jogged some time in the room.then i buzzed my baby’s mother,less her buzzed in when i was in the cafe later.when the qrrsers leaving for the party,i arrived the cafe i had been charged favorably to surf.ftp again was set to unable to download even its connection with servers succeeded.some pests around me bit heavily,including an by appearance boyish person just aside me murmuring all time,but i just wondering if he is normal.
the atmosphere of celebrating lunar new year turning thicker now,but i still beset in the misery of missing u.i need u,in every meaning it can bear.love u like a cheese in the cold basement.i love u.kiss u with beer and feel.

Thursday, February 01, 2007

bright sunshine all day

last night i spent 3 more hours in the cafe to blog,and join some friends with www.facebook.com. i was charged for 3 rmb with favorite price.i saw some beautiful faces in facebook.com and tried to make friend with them.returned to the dorm i read awhile my blogs on my pda and went to bed after 1:00 am.i slept very sound till 1 pm,and forced myself to got up at 2:08 pm.when i arrived my baby and his mother went outside.the aunt and her sons watching tv.i busy with sorting what i got from the overnight surfing in the new cafe the night before yesterday.his mother asked where i was when they returned,but my baby later approached me and was held away by his mother.his mother threatened me to shift the pc out of her home.after i finished backup,i asked if i should install media player on her notebook for her recently complained a lot about missing the soft to play movie she got from her colleagues,and i was told did it.near dinner time and i was told by his mother i’d better eat dinner first for yesterday they ate the brand ’quanjude’ toast duck the liu brought from beijing and i was left with some.i enjoyed it and made some appreciations.after dinner i played with my baby while his mother started to tutor the son of her colleague and the son of her aunt.i talked to my baby to let him stay on the pivot.when he asked to play with tap water his mother came to care him and let me continue my work broke by dinner.when i tried to find a backup cd to restore some baby songs my baby got impatient with his mother’s care and being kept away from the notebook,and soon milked to sleep.after i found the cd lost i quit my task and slept aside my baby to accompany him in sleep.her mother urged me to leave.soon my baby woke up and want to play.his mother got anger with me, complaining each time i was here my baby got agile,and i accompany my baby when he is sleeping is absurd.i held my baby watched the city night landscape on the balcony with window open.when i found the mops laid on the rim of window to prevent water leaking from window all sucked,i shift my baby to his mother and squeezed out water of the mops.my baby still don’t want to sleep sometimes when i slept aside him on bed,even i sometimes felt sleepy.when his mother got again anger i left.the aunt and her sons kept babbling and giggle on their bed.the liu went to waiting room watching my leave.
its a nice day.i don’t know why i recently slept so sound.but i saw more girls with their mates.when i leaving the dorm to write u here,a tall girl washing her hairs in the washing room of the dorm,let me felt so near and so far from what i can and privilege to have with u.
bye.i love u.like sheer bubble on the seashore of the south china sea.kiss u with beer.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

snow overnight and morning.shine in the afternoon

last night i first time tried peer downloading in cafe and even dog's pest hindering me getting quite some enviable warez,i reaped almost 2 gb stuff.they resolved to prevent me getting any av soft or its definition database file,so as let its terror on my pc prevailed it way.the left side neighbor first play some music and let me felt quite relaxed.but he soon left.the right neighbors likely a couple engaged,kept babbling and later the male read loudly what he typed in instant message cursing from time to time.they let my right leg chill.when i left around 7 pm a car ported outside just launched to leave.i ate 2 rmb for breakfast,and rest on bed for 3 hours dozing.after 10 am i woke up but don't want to get up and stayed on bed after 1:30 pm.my brain today full day stuffed in dorm.then i went to renew my borrowed mags.only a new issue there,so i read some mags don't lend there.the sun was bright and large in the sky when i left the front gate of qrrs and went to read newspaper.the 'cankaoxiaoxi(world reference digest) always left few pages there,tentatively avoid my learning more about the world.returned to the dorm i finished reading the borrowed mag and again rest.there r likely a couple in neighbor room,chatting,even its working time for qrrs.they let me cold and dozy.i ate my dinner some time earlier,with 4 rmb for additional food.a guy left qrrs for his master degree ate there,in his vacation,acquainted me.i ate an apple my baby's mother offered yesterday.then i again rest on bed listening radio.when i turned awake after 7 pm i reviewed our relation and felt proud and touched on our own.i was weak in front of u,otherwise i should took u directly as my wife,but i always regard u resourceful than me,i don't think u should be more experience in love,but i think female nature plenty than men.so i entreat u to pick me,to ensure me that u choose me,follow me.i might insecure in front of u,but i always value trust and pledge more important than anything in love and in marriage.i lost in love before i headed here to write u.
bye.i love u.like deer in grass slope,without any shelter.kiss u with beer.

by the way,my web chat available now these days,even sometimes unstable under pest of dog.on any blog of mine with meebo im box,u can leave me message or chat with me if i m online.i will kept online when i write u.

snowing all day,the longest snow in the winter

last night in the cafe was merely bearable.i spent 3 hours there and should charged 5 rmb but was allowanced 1 rmb.after returned to the dorm i read awhile my blog on my pda and slept after 2 am.i dreamed played with a python and half wet dreamed.the night before the day i dreamed of one of my once qrrs colleague,lixiangjun (finding the emperor),who once was a cop worked in qrrs and lived neighborly in the dorm but later gave up his career and went to beijing,said worked there as a real estate salesman.i woke up after 10 am and got up at 10:23 am and went to see my baby at once.the snow likely continued since last night,and snowing all the day.when i arrived my baby was striding near the door in the waiting room,while the aunt and her elder son cooking.the kid son learning in the room he lived.my baby on my shoulders playing caps of bottle.the elder son want to stand on the football and fell to floor and damaged his arm.his mother accompany him to the hospital.my baby didn't want to receive his mother outside,so we stayed.his mother bought some apples and bananas.the kid son left to study.we started to eat lunch,but his mother refused to sit aside me,but on the opposing side around the table.my baby ate less.after lunch i prepared hot water for my baby to bath,but his mother opposed it.my baby soon bore into sleepiness when we watched tv.he slept soon,so did his mother.i doubting if i should went to surf,but felt dozy and later slept aside my baby.my baby first woke up.then the kid son returned.we went outside after his mother suggestion.we visited the sports yard,where we took some shots.my baby asked me to push him sitting on the ice ground to slide and later i even push him sliding with his back and head on the ice.his mother had to let her shoes repaired,so we headed.but a girl student of the school reminded my baby's mother her tutored schedule,and we returned home abrupt.at home his mother urged me to leave.i backup shots to her notebook and left.the aunt and her elder son had returned and slept together.i played my pda awhile in the dorm and had dinner.then i waited in the dorm for overnight surfing.i listened radio and dozed awhile.i departed for the cafe newly open at 8:54 pm.here i busy with finding some torrent seeds to download,now that http downloads frequently hacked by dog and can't run in windows,including 3 different av soft's definition files and some tools i needed.they also let quite some pda warez can't run on my ppc.i don't know what they intended but they had not too much options to adopt against me.
bye.i love u.in this saint snow white world.i love u with my simplicity and my soleness.kiss u with beer.




Monday, January 29, 2007

thickest snow in the winter last night,sunny day aftermath.

last night in the cafe was under pest of dog.they controlled the keyboard and the hardware package filtered the internet traffic.my ftp client can't download even can connected to the server.i cost 3.5 rmb but with an allowance of 0.5 rmb just to post to my blogs.this night i watched the traffic monitor hardware modified my ftp client's requests and let it bypassed downloading to finish or kill a download queue.they likely can modify files on my write-proof udisk,and let wrote it after my file operation finished.they hijacked and modified my submit package to www.diigo.com to let it batch posting err-prone.in a word,they blocked the way to the world within china,which fatally deemed them into death,or no freedom in china forever.

when i arrived the cafe, a cop in uniform sat on the nearest seat in the room and his car ported outside.what else they can do,except licking around with their dirty and infectious tongue?

last night i slept early,just after 11:47 pm.i didn't woke up till 11 am but can't help continuing to sleep.i got up at 2:40 pm and went to borrow pc mags.there were 3 kinds of new issue but i can only borrow 2.so i finished reading one there.then i passed the front open space of qrrs and its workers' palace.i doubting if i should go over to see my baby so i didn't enter it.but as soon as i picked the pc mags,i enjoyed reading them in the room all the afternoon,till dinner time.i ate 4 rmb food as my only meal today.turned back to dorm i finished reading to another pc mag.in the mid my baby's mother buzzed in and my baby was held by his mother to the phone to talk to me.then i visited the cafe.here i tried to let ftp client download but its ill worked under hacking.the 5 cafes near the qrrs all fatally blocked me from now.my blog posts,some of them err-prone,likely under their unauthorized modifications after posted,not merely under hijack and modifications before the moment my submit package through its way out of china,the dog pest land.

bye.i love u.in this saint white world of winter snow.i love u in every piece of my message in the cyberspace.i love u with my tear and soul.kiss u with beer.


 

Sunday, January 28, 2007

warm winter day

warm winter day



  • last night was an enjoyable experience in the cafe.one of my neighbor left in the mid and 2 of other side slept but threats lingered on me for quite some time.my 2 sd card capable of 2 gb was stuffed and i had to ditched some ebooks downloaded.i returned to the dorm to have breakfast,then rested on bed for 2 hours.then i headed to computer market to buy myself another sd card.this time the vendors of the booth i dealt for some time all present,including the manager i earliest dealt.a 2 gb sd card cost me 135 rmb while just a month ago 1 gd sd card of the same brand of apacer cost me 115 rmb.i returned to my baby's mother's home and there i immediately sort what i got last night to hard disk.i noticed my baby and his mother not in waiting room and i thought they haunted outside but likely they slept in bedroom.i till lunch time paid attention to them after i almost finished my sorting.after lunch we played with our baby awhile in the bedroom while the aunt chatted in the other room.my baby's mother unease and frequently urged us to hang outside,but my baby refuted it.then the aunt and his eld son leaving.they three likely had slept together on the narrow bed for 3 nights,even her sister's home were spacious.soon my baby's mother decided to haunt outside.we went to a supermarket on my bike.my baby asked to stride on his own in the mansion,looking around here and there without any daunt.his mother again frequently urged to leave.my baby later touched the glass wall with his hands and 2 of his fingers bleeding.after we found it his mother complained me a lot and cold shoulders to me.on the way home we shopped in the grocer shop.his mother again and again urged me not to stay her home and sneered to me.when we just arrived the home a phone call likely from the grandma arrived and i left without farewell to my baby and his mother talking to the phone.in the dorm i tried some time on my pda then dozed.after dinner i read awhile my blogs on my pda.then my baby first acquainted me in the phone.his mother just want to square me out,to save her insult to me in the afternoon.i gladly talked with them.i also buzzed my hometown to informed my mother i had remit her 700 rmb to support her life there.i dozed till 7 pm and then i here to write u. the moon was round and large but unclear.my baby's mother told me in the afternoon the weather was turning.i love u,like the coming snow.in the supermarket a girl with a woman in front of me reminded me of u.i love u,in every corner i search for u.kiss u with deer.bye.  - post by benzillar


warm winter day


 

bright sunny day

last night in the cafe i registered my baby and his mother another account with www.diigo.com ,for i valued it.after returned to the dorm its near 9 pm and i read the biography of philipine's president Gloria Macapagal Arroyo till 3 am and when i laid it aside i can't afford to miss any time i can be with my baby,my god,and felt deep sorrow for my baby and his mother.so i headed to see them.the bike area was locked and i went there via a taxi,costing me 8 rmb.when i entered the bedroom his mother was awake.i kissed my baby a lot and let him woke up and again milked to sleep.i slept aside my baby against the room the aunt lived.in the morning my baby approached me and touched my eyes but i just want to sleep.till near 9 am the breakfast almost finished my baby approached me again to let me get up to breakfast.i got up and found the grandma and his kid sister's family there around the table.i picked the inner seat and eat.my baby soon asked for my care and i barely drank a little bowl of bean juice.even i want more the table and dishes was cleaned.then the old sisters went to shopping.the kid son went to study.our baby played with bottles of cosmetics with tap water and later was took away by his mother.lunch was cooked by the liu,the first son of the aunt.the kid son also returned.lunch was merely a dish of eggs.after lunch the liu washed dishes.my baby was held by his mother.the challenge from the liu let me dozy.then he asked me some question about customization of win xp desktop icons.my answers likely faultless and let my baby's mother glad.when his mother started to tutor a girl student,i left to shower.i also had a haircut.on the way home i met my baby with his mother haunting out and we entered the sports yard.my baby played with 2 basketball for some time in the clusters of boy players.his mother urged to return so we did.his mother bought him a cup of ice cream and i bought him a stick of sugar gourd.they enjoyed the gourd at home.soon the old sisters returned and they busy with sorting the refrigerator,which lower closet frozen.i accept my baby's mother's urge to leave before dinner but his mother discussed my expense log book till dinner time.dinner was a large fish,cooked by the liu.before dinner i spent some time swiftly move my download to hard disk.then the sons went to shower.my baby and his mother lingered some time around the bed on which the aunt lean.i felt boring and intended to leave but at the time the sons returned.i lingered some time with my baby and his mother in our bedroom and i intended stayed there for the night,but his mother drove me away.in fact last night i told her i wouldn't stay in the dorm any more.i just want spent any time of my own with my baby.but now after a night and a day i felt my baby can live well without my sorrow for him.i kissed my baby several times before leaving.the liu rightly stayed in the waiting room to watch our parting.on the way i decided to spend the overnight in the newly open cafe to surf and download.so far i found some ebook to download from ftp servers.but 0day stuff was blocked by dog.dog periodically cut off the connection to internet. bye.i love u.the biography of Gloria Macapagal Arroyo let me know life was short and tender,while responsibility was straightforward as gliding.i felt i need more mood to enjoy the passing history around me,including my beloved.love u in the sheer light.kiss u with deer.

some shot of my baby today.