its a sunny day today, which pacified me so much. i dozed all the morning in office, and dreamed losing of my baby, and contacting the woman (ema?) who gave birth of my baby and now lost her right eyes, trying to reborn my second baby son, to satisfy my deep sorrow and untouchable pains for my losing baby son. the woman likely not gifted and in miserable situation and under her new man's control, but she tried to satisfy me. i don't believe in the dream, i just felt the pains of losing my baby. but, after all, i think my burst last night is a rebirth both for my baby son and myself. in the past days we covered by too much dirty evils. and i believe in the sunshine and the sun right always on me and the Royal of mine.
that's my review today. i look forward to live and forever live with my baby son, warren, for the oath i prayed to God when i in turbulence before last time fell into asylum to cure my hopelessness upon evils on my baby son in infancy, i will forever attending him, just like attending my passed grand Father. i look through all clouds for the day i see the right layout of my kingdom of China from my ancestor of glory centuries ago. dad, God, u see.