Saturday, March 07, 2009
its quite bright in the morning. when i got up and caught sight of the warm sunrise, i doubting if i carry my camera with me. last night ema shown reconcilation with me after i rebuff her attempt to trap baby in her cliche teaching method. in the night i reviewed quite some details in my life of love and proud of my beloved. baby again push his way on bed, between ema and me, and i slept aside my pillar to make space for baby, who took my pillar like last night. its all bright except ema returned lately at noon and didn't cook for me, instead ate yesterday's porridge and pickers. i doubting if she and China surveillance adopt their old cheat, of crying me for money to support baby son, warren, as well as myself. the old cheat previously edged me out from ema's home and the illusion of my starving baby distressed me hopelessly and forced me retreat to my home town penniless, and finally was trapped in a local asylum in my home town, central China. but that can't work again, nothing can't change my faith in God, and his superpower to see my Royal in glory on behalf of him, the only all in all and final in final. my life and my kingdom to reclaim on eastern Asia, just a preset from God, and in full fledge since the holy spirit stroke me when i immersed in love without any reservations. in no way creatures on the earth can harm me, nor to my Royal and beloved. my fiancees, with their respected families respectively, already in line with my angels ahead of me, as well as the prophets constantly sharpening foresight for the brave and praying, laiding fundamental works for God's biz on this land, full in God's view, awaiting my touch to reinvent vitality into the scary people and their dirty homeland.
its a nice day, since its dawn. gays in the office let my legs cold, by their bloodless corps. evils this moment in a rush. that's near their end of time. sunshine, like ur beaming faces, my beloved, will blossom in the coming season under the heaven, all in God's shine.
Thursday, March 05, 2009
snow in lunar 2009 descending since mid morning, just leaving yesterday's sunshine in the past. last night i tried to post a blog entry i wrote in office before the end of work time, but China surveillance heavily blocking and spying my posting on home pc. so much dirty i guessed in the process, that a snow this morning needed to cover its smelliness. when i left home in the morning, its just dripping, but gradually turned into a strong snow. i felt the threat of spying eyes on home pc upon my web credential, but more felt blessed in the drizzle. i esp. loving the shallow sorrow mood rains bring to me, as a life memory when i grew up in rains plenty central China, where my home town locates.
this morning i continued to post latest blog entry to more channels of my web presence. dirty from the ill persons around constantly challenged me, they r dead in fact. i shot some picture in office, now that i second time brought my camera, a FujiFilm FinePix S2000HD with me at noon, for the snow and my long time dream to everywhere with another eye of witness. i hope u can see the factual snow scene here.
ok, i don't intend to babble more. ema still in bitter with me. i hold no brief for anyone with a profiting eyes upon holy thing. i toward and more and more inward with glory i deserve.
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
however, silent dispute at home let me sad, i esp felt sad upon the time i can be with my best beloved, warren, my baby son, my God, and the hope of China, who brings me so pleasure now and then, here and there. i mean to change, but don't figure to tear off our band in harmony with pains or bleedings. however, after all, i trust God sees my way ahead, over any unclear.
last afternoon in instant message i got known the mother-in-law of my second elder sister passed away. her husband also in family name ruan, the same as that of ema's mother, God lets it interwove and sins to die in sins they committed. in the night i likely caught in a nightmare in which the old woman exert fear in me. then my passed dad, my God and my forever hero, returns home, just like missing a gathering and be late awhile. His seat just there unchanged.
that's my highest pleasure, to see my dad in my dream. i didn't attend his funeral ceremony, and that led my always unease. i know he love me so much and i know he glad to see my absence from him in the end of his life on the earth, knowing me in the road to reclaim our vested land of China in title of family name zhu, and the only son doing the predefined task in sight of our ancestor, the Emperor of Ming Dynasty.
its a bright day today. God knows how i cherish the bright and warmth. these days Chinese laid off a lot in sinking enterprises in troubled economy, like occur in other parts of the world. i know God see its a way leading me through the block behind, toward the reunion with my all beloved girls, my crowned queens.
bye. that's my utterance today. i love seeing my space extending, like the wind spreading the message. love make u glad, just like it do me. i love u.