Wednesday, July 22, 2015

silver whisper in summer rain.

7/22/2015

dreamt of climbing steep hill. :: in dawn dream with some pals climbing hills which r steep and thick of yellow earth turned from rotten rocks. one of graduates from hometown village Zhudajiu, an art student, offered a helping hand when almost climbed the top. also there r tigers among crowd, they drove farming bulls. this month almost a marathon before getting my gifts for son, woz, from US.it drove me tasteless from my routine including site building, blog, tech news digest,etc.I don't know which first, boring in work or action in adventure to power up our living and working environment, or son's mom's Taiwan tourism challenges my serving our son. but one thing is sure, I want improving my son's study and entertainment facility. I want he surfing without sinking PRC's surveillance, want him familiar with digital world from his teenage.I want him living in freedom in homeland like those bureaucracy's offspring sent overseas.I want him enjoy fruits of Christian and democracy.so I ordered him chromebook, nexus 7 tablet,chromecast, and also a chromebit for replacing windows desktop as my own workspace which frequently hacked by China surveillance. the process burning me a lot, for Chinese customs can seize them without precaution. the bundle cost me near ¥5000, with the aid of my recently improved credit limit by ccb bank I survive in face dropping salary due slump economy in China and in QRRS, my once and long time employer. in last step against PRC's Internet blocking, I bought new vpn and gee smart router, which relief my coding demands last resort breaking blocking, equip family frequently been hacked router with openwrt function. God, dad, all my efforts means I am responsible for improving our life quality within my civil space, contrast to CCP's depriving and stealth of individual freedom, unreasonable totalitarian. dad, God, grant us free cyberspace, ensure my son's secured circumstance under despaired PRC.bring me sooner my Royal China, my girls and our children in our dynasty of 1109 years. after heavy rain yesterday, grant me a sunny day to pacify the last waiting.

7/7/2015

dreamt of programming and management.::dreamt hanging with a girl whose family is a billionaire, like HTC chairwoman Cher Wang. I then closely watched the work flow of an affiliate enterprise, a spa. I started to program management software for it, from database to use case design to sql building, I almost finished it, exceptionally programming detailed in dream.

5/7/2015

heavy journey in dreams. :: first dreamt my old mother got pregnant. my kid brother and I discussed how to deal with it. then dreamt in hometown village, Zhudajiu, discussed breath exercise and Chinese traditional Kung fu with graduates in the village, and mourning a passed graduate from the village. when I napped against boring waiting for overseas package after breakfast, I dreamt traveling and dwelt at customs with 2 parcels. the customs staff probed and registered packages, and I tried to rent a upper cell to store my heavier parcel so that my mobility improved to better enjoy the scenery harbor.past week tough for me, for I looking forward my overseas purchased gift for son, a dell chromebook, to arrive sooner.Its my first international cargo. no one tells me its feasibility nor reliability. my routine work on site building also distracted by the waiting, stalemated and rarely updated. I previously pray God allow me present the solution aiming improving my son's study and entertainment environment before his tour to Taiwan in his mom's faculty delegation, but they abrupt aboard in last Friday noon, left me better prepared for the coming bliss in the securer notebook. God, what can I do to speed up the delivery? what can I soother burnout in the prolonged descending cheer? dad, God, such easier thing turns so difficult, why is the curtained hand constantly takes away and messes up? God, dad, grant us light in the end of the tunnel, fruit of faith upon burning thirst when done. bring me sooner my Royal China, my girls with my kids under my Empire lasts 1109 years ahead in eastern Asia. bring us new earth and land in milder weather zone that feeds and baptizes like charming destiny.

29/6/2015

dreamt of Islamic nation. :: in dawn dream, my 2nd elder brother works temporally in mid-east.I live in his house and waiting for him fetching meals for me. then my 2nd elder sister also in the country. I tried to figure out the relation between its custom and its religion, the Islamic, say, larger door indicating open brotherhood within them. last night I slept deeply, likely weekend reunion with my son released my endured expectations, and joy flow find basin of memory and peacefully mixed. through my business my son more and more sensed the burden of living. Saturday night I brought him to dine out in downtown grill buffet, on arrival I told him how I unease upon my debt which mounted to nearly ¥25000. then my smart son, woz, felt dizzy during the dinner, ate less than usual there while first time hangout several weeks ago we both enjoyed the rich meal.dad, God, my life here more and more turned into waiting and enduring. grant me momentous/momentum to move on, to engage myself for adventure. bring me sooner my Royal China to home the eastern Asia. permit my sites online booming in and out of cyberspace. in this golden Monday Morning, bless us new chromebook and chromecast. thx, dad.

25/6/2015

dreamt of Lyu Songya, the girl visited me.:: in dream we r senior middle school students or undergraduates. one boy student followed us when Lyu invited me errand and later I kissed her. our intimacy turns stronger in the adventure and we likely has a son. she good at academy as usual.Its clearly she first time appears in my dream. these weeks totally burning me in waiting for gift for my son, woz, Hope of China. I ordered it on taobao.com, Chinese biggest e-commercial portal, but after nearly a month the vendor told me my specified chromebook was not a touchscreen. I badly need a touch screen to allow woz play android games on chromeOS, so I retreated it. then I tried to order directly on dell.com, order confirmed and a week later canceled for my credit card not a native American one. I also ordered google chromecast for saving woz's sight: his mom recently bought herself bedroom a large LED smart TV, which attacked my son watching closely. I want him keeping a distance from TV lest worsen his eye sight. he already wears a glasses of 400. the shipment from US also needs a month to arrive me, that burns me again. these weeks I don't know why I sleepless and tasteless, or I put too much expectation in the efforts to improve my son's study and entertainment environment. God, my space kept pinched by China surveillance, pl allow me do something to engage myself meaningfully. bring me what I need to shelter my family against looming homelessness in sinking PRC. bring me sooner my Royal China to host the eastern Asia and the drifting continent. thx dad God, see soon my proud works for my son, woz.

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Saturday, June 13, 2015

loving sunshine agian and again.

13/6/2015

dreamt of government of Qing dynasty.:: in first dream worked for a young man in his water heat factory. he in fact a gangster entrepreneur, earned first bucket of gold from bloody business, like many succeeded youth in northeastern China, dogs rampant land. I tried to keep distance from the charisma who inspected old facility and made ambitious plan to renovate the steam heat system on a small hill. he tried to attract me over while acute in behalf of his blur dog business. then dream in a large space not likely family but my dad there, he is leaving for his work but concerned deeply my work. I assured him I busy with my websites even its hard with or without marketing. then I saw my website business contacting a Mandarin Primer in cyberspace. then I in another world found he, a Manchu, is actually Primer of Qing Dynasty in history. the Emperor of Qing Dynasty also appeared in dream but we didn't exchange many words. Its a sunny dawn, so I decided to cherish the golden moment to blog the dream. last night I talked to my kid brother, urged him to have another baby, as he want a daughter, as long as his financial situation supportive.I told him if he have another child I would less threatened by biocide from sinking PRC tyrant. I urged his mission to defeat our cousin, the first son of our blue collar worker uncle, a teacher, a dean then a bureaucrat like all worst communist cadre. my kid brother impels comparing him with the cousin as enemy, said the sin already failed for his 3 children, all boys, all unsuccessful in career. but I refute my kid brother's impatience, pointing to that one fortune changes anytime and never overlook sinister in preparing or guise, or on the wane. the night I felt harder to sleep, for I know changing matters occurs. God, I saw so many complacent in my site building. allow me to sustain the online service, as well as our diamond domains, to ever brighter scope in future. bring me sooner my Royal China to family me. bring me sooner my girls with our children. Dad,God, allow me more in ur shine.

6/6/2015

dreamt of hooligan.::its a drizzling night while I didn't know the rain outside. I dreamt in dorm a hooligan borrowed my key to open other apartments. I don't want war against the beast so I tried to show him that my key is only working for my room, not compatible with any other room lock. I never allow my key left my hands till the hooligan left futile after my demonstration. the dream very vivid and urgent. when I woke up its 5am and I felt better note it on my mobile. I missed my breakfast after I woke up near 8:30am. its warmer in dorm but the drizzle, expected against everywhere catkins annoying eyes and noses, in time to clean the air. the past week I endured waiting as usual. more times I can't bear and laid down, and each time I napped soon. aging likely takes more and more my joy into enjoyable future glories. burning hope in gathering and social interactivity, boundless delicacies frequently unseat me. I knew my changing taste and away my presence. God, engaged me with fresh idea, committed me in task force, even in this adverse espionage sinking PRC tyrant exerted on us. God, dad, embed me in soil and grows dream of Holy message as usual. take me to ever new journey fills of bravery and consolidation. bring me sooner my Royal China to family me, dad, thx in raining.

2/6/2015

dreamt of journey again.:: first dreamt discussed talents' ethical standard with President Obama, and opposed his choosing of elite. then dreamt of being granted to fly with attendants. before aboard, among stewards and stewardess we moved packages onto the flight. its a honor to work with those young and beautiful people. till the jet launched, the session of dream ends. before I woke up I saw my 2nd elder sister gossiped me among our relatives.Its kind. last week I endured a lot before my Postal Saving Bank of China credit card arrives. God promised me it would be smooth so I just waited. till Friday noon I can't bear the breaking neck looking forward, after near a week, and visited QRRS mail office. a new guy there told me the mail address didn't include departmental detail so they denied the mail. he suggested me hurry to visit local postal office and if lucky enough to catch it before it retreats. it was not there when I checked in. the monitor, a mid aged man urged me informed card issuer to re-mail. but I lingered there till the computer operator, a younger woman extended her help and suggested me visit her next day. I left with gratitude. but in the afternoon I can't bear again and visited the woman in postal office soon. she disappointed and asked me check in next day as planned. returned to dorm rusty sadness so sick that put me asleep on bench in sunshine intact. managed to survive to Saturday, I finally fetched my first VIP credit card from postal office. it comes double: a common PSBC credit card well known for its no annual fee, and a gold credit card valid especially for 6 years. the credit limits not so impressive, each ¥15,000, but may suffice me. the outcome promised but turns so wilder with joy. with the financial tool, I probably better equipped to cop my debt and maintain lifestyle we enjoy.
God, dad, I misunderstood credit some time. help me better adopt credit in coming years. grant us fruitful work and life with companion of credits which so graceful. bring me sooner my Royal China to grow and harvest. grant us a flight journey sooner to elevate our burnout in grudging reality in sinking PRC surveillance. thx dad, among so many positive changes these years happened on us.

26/5/2015

dreamt of graduation in dawn after son's birthday. ::dreamt gathering & cooked to celebrate our graduation. the meal includes fruits and porridge. Zhang Chongfu dispatched dishes to us.Huang Junyi and Yang jing happily what they gained in the final exam. even I seriously concerned my final score, which is 45 out of 100, but in fact I won the test to graduate successfully. some of my less lucky alumni, like a girl Fu Jing, 2 other guys hate school, only got a one digit score. yesterday is woz, my dearest son, birthday. I previously intended to linger in dorm which more and more accepted by me as my office. the morning is gloomy pale, after a sunny Sunday. I look forward the sun appears again in clouds to sunburn my wet bed clothes, but it doesn't till I gathered my son and ate his birthday cake I bought him, in his mom's house.God urged me to visit my son on his 10 years' birthday. I grouponed a cake from a likely startup. the cake manually made by a young lady her own in a simple and a bit messy shop but its delicious. my son carefully put on all his 10 candles before we made snapshot advised by his mom. they reportedly will travel to Taiwan with their school delegation in coming summer vacation. I suggested my son using my credit card to buy himself ¥500 or more valued products from the dear island. his mom previously asked if I aid my son's tour, I replied I don't have extra money, but this reply of credit card sufficed her, for she just in lack of foreign credit card. she likely even doesn't know what a visa card looks like. In last week I managed a lot to enable our life easier. I purchased new VPN for woz independently using against more insanely brutal surveillance in sinking tyrant PRC. my application for PSBC credit card, my 4th, got passed and the card due to reach me in this 2 weeks. to celebrate the credit, which likely my first VIP card with largest credit quotation so far in my title, I purchased my son, Hope of China, God of Universe, a dell chromebook with touch screen facilitate his workspace experience as a pupil. the old dell notebook a bit too heavy for him and mainly used as a fix game console and online TV top set. so many good news intensified my nerves and exhausted me in weekends. So I had to ask for absence during game time with my son. he fought alone bravely in weekends online battle field. I even felt dizzy overnight in dorm, after I first tried Japanese style wine from a Japanese cuisine restaurant in downtown we lunched Sunday before weekly shower. God, my life here graceful. I can improve my life in China with lead of America. China doesn't necessarily abused like a hell or pitfall of sins and freaks, we can make it better on our won. dad, God, pl allow my son quality learning space and living standard in my custody. grant us swift move among debt barriers. bring me sooner my Royal China to raise my children, future of China.
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Wednesday, May 13, 2015

means in drizzles.

13/5/2015

dreamt of academic nightmare.::in dream my passed mother encouraged me to join campus even I had definitely lost chance to gain my diploma. I talked with a young professor on way to classroom, saw my classmates there, and our mentor woman, Yangkexin, both far from me. I just so singly entrenched among them, spending time aimless and futile just for forgetting the sad end like blackhole. the late spring drizzle lasted more than 4 days. its so rare in Qiqihar, northeastern China. my towel in dorm even can't dry itself. yesterday I added my google adsense code to my 3 new dynamic sites powered by google cloud engine to allow display advertisements which can bring me shared income from the search giant. its so nice to see site vivid with fliers. an article about how to maintain digital legacy after decease also remind me how fragile digital content is without sustainable financial support. it takes a committee or company to carry out operativeness of website instead of elapse of human being. it took me 40 years before I find my vocation, and my engagement with my web presence just launched. OMG, I am in my prime time and happiest stage now, how I need to spare an executive team to long run my digital empire covers thousand and thousand future years for glory of the Son and his gospel! last night I doubted quite awhile if I buzz my son in such a cold and deadly silent night. I more and more reluctant to talk to his mom whose untidiness and dirtiness expels me, and I also hope my son lives in normal and reasonable situation even under the insane woman's custody. my son will envoy himself. my debt to organization now amount to ¥17,000, seemingly I had to apply for second installment. God, dad, u know how I unease with such a draining debt, and how I badly need currency to broaden my business here on the planet. guide us, as well as my nation, my family, peacefully through liability to bank. connect us with evergreen source of fortune, live life of prosperousness. thx,dad, in the drizzle I saw changes brings us advantage. God, land us onto our promised land where doesn't know anxiousness nor want.

6/5/2015

saw so many classmates in morning dream. :: last night a drizzle just wet the ground. the dorm is damned chilly. I join quilt to warm myself after breakfast. so I dreamt my Nankai alumnus went camp. we settled along a small brook and will return to campus overnight. I saw Wenxiong, Chenjiancai, Zhousheng,and lots of schoolmates. the stream less alive, so many worms in it, I didn't want been infected so I just roamed among my busy grilling alumni. later I flied in the middle of the stream but soon my playful schoolmate dragged me down. My heart was sad, for leaving. my package not well tightened while march soon began in the dream. its really a relax to see vivid school life again. the trees and grass all new green now. but spring rain never formally addresses. my heart saddens in these days preparing credit cards pay back. God, dad, grant us free burden in life. improve my apartment's warmth condition once and forever. bring me sooner my Royal China to home me and my concerned. thx, dad.

5/5/2015

dreamt of orgasm. ::recently frequently stay late online and sleepy in the morning. last night first a nightmare of psychopathic woke me up to pee. then dreamt an extraordinary Buddhist nun fight monks and conquered them with deep orgasm. I sensed the way reaching orgasm and satisfied. these days sunshine a bit rare, cloudy late spring let my dorm apartment cold. in mornings my leaking window covered with mists and disappeared till sunny outside late. my son finally now playing online platform. he loves to see gamers over the world joining in his game. last weekends he asked to play all time, allowed me to retire and watched aside. even connecting to servers frequently failed under China surveillance and game session lost, he didn't depreciate my efforts to deploy the platform costs dollar and improved Internet access. we got rid of the old wireless router which frequently victim of hacked. we dined twice delicious meals in the Labor holiday. one is buffet we never haunt before. a shallow drizzle wet some ground when we ate. another is southern Chinese cuisine, which so rich that we had to ask son's mom joining us. leftover bundle enough for carry home even after we three fulfilled. my son asked my promise to stay till 8:30pm and we did: near 8:15pm my son allows me leave when his mom urged him to teeth brush before went to bed. my 2nd elder sister finally offered her loan, ¥1000, to me and it really solving. my websites serving and I dig them casual and leisure. God, dad, I pray for ur salvage for my shortage of currency. we don't sustain large costs but currency of healthy lifestyle maintains consistent supply, while my salary deficits in 2 serial months due slump economy and industrial gloom QRRS in. dad, God, we do enjoy life we have now, except my longing for children and wife. pl lead us through tough shaky road toward dignity and glory. bring me sooner my Royal China and my children as known. bring known broad way to the promised land. thx, dad.

29/4/2015

woz first online game platform.:: last week too busy to blog. we promised a restaurant near my dorm bimonthly haunt, delayed a week we finally fulfilled. in the week I purchased our first pc platform game bundle, from humble bundle in which "PvP: Garden War", my son's long time inspiration, enlists. $10 of my payment will donate by the release company, EA. I also donated $10 to Nepal earthquake rescue. when I pay, I felt complete, not only the goodness, but also empowered pay tool I gained since last year, credit card with world currency like Visa, MasterCard. my responsibility scattered without the financial tool. so last Monday I filed fourth application for PSBC credit card. Postal Saving Bank of China refused me 3 times previously, but I don't see why in its defiance. I have to make prudent choices to maintain 4 credit cards giving my poor income, but that's enough. my new adventure, 3 dynamic sites hosted on Google Cloud Engine, runs smoothly without much I can do now. visitors scarce but I will try my best to sustain its operative. I feel so bright upon our future, with my son, woz, Hope of China, God of Universe, with our 18 diamond domains. last week I slept dog-tired mostly, scampered through short dreams evaded recalling. I also encountered my 1st serious scam. Bankcomm leaked my account, which allows a scam call claimed represented the bank contacted me to sell fraud gift pack. the woman on the phone told me I will pay ¥99 for the pack but a ¥100 mobile fee charging card will issue to me. that's no loss, so I admitted. I absently paid when I visiting my son while the package arrived the dorm. after activated the charging card after I returned to dorm in the night, I found my mobile subscriber does not response. I search online, the case narrowly covertly discussed: forged charging hotline, forged gift pack,forged Ipad TV usb stick (virus positive). sinking PRC brought lots of scams. its police only interests in activists & social causes hunting down, but never criminals. they never fail evil but cost of hope of common people. trees budding since Apr 26. in a night green leaves appears among dark branches after a winter. municipal gardeners busy with watering street fence plants. some flower trees blossom in time. annoying dusts and sands in wind disappeared after stalemate weather dooms the area sultry instead of windiness. God, dad, isn't summer arriving like I dreamt of? I love summer, beautiful female skin and stylish dressing, breeze of shadows and water's baptism. let it come, dad, and bring me my Royal China! bring me my new family and glorious wedding. bring me through debts and delight of life here. thx, dad, God, in this pale morning.