Monday, August 18, 2014
18/8/2014dreamt snakes wrapping ankle. ^ my son recently again got hot and cough. last weekends is our noble life's experience monthly, before salary day. we go movie, snack, Walmart shopping, dined out. for Golden Hans toast buffet out of service for months, we grouponed a meal with duck heads. my son surprised me, likes the cuisine. in Walmart I bought him a Japanese style school bag, priced ￥298. I also equipped him notebook, travel pen, knife we long time planned to replace broken one of a tool pack I won years ago after a blood donation. next morning, Sunday, he asked to replay "family guy".he immersed in it for hours. after showered with me in public spa, he continued the game. near dusk I urged him to allow me left earlier for I a bit tired after 2 day's companion. but he then napped with his feet in my arms.when his mom returned I kept silence till son woke up later. then he napped again with feet warmed by my neck. his mom cursed me for video games exhausted my son, and demanded before my son resumes health I should keep him from her house. I waited near 8pm. then I told my son I have faith he will recover soon. I asked his permission to leave. I left him with listening audio ebook for his mom banned him to watch his favorite animations online in the night. God, safeguard my son's sound life. bring me sooner my Royal China to attend my life that's perfect. resume my son's energy and his movies and games. thx dad, God. allow us to break financial blockage in coming worsen PRC's economy.
15/8/2014dreams in pale morning.^ dreamt of exam in QRRS office with once colleague and alumnus. in an office likely of my previous workplace in QRRS, my Nankai alumnus, Wujiang, who always good at exam, well prepared & occupied largest desk in the office. a woman colleague whose hometown in my neighbor province, Anhui, also exchanged words about coming exam. on the floor there r lots of cassettes of video tapes for my once job is cable TV station of a SOE. I was nervous upon the test as usual, &prepared cope it with metamorphosis. then dreamt under siege I asked my brother to allow moving my son to his guardian. my elder sister played with us near the well of Zhudajiu village, my hometown, under the dam. son played happily till napped in my arms. in last dream, my son fired a rocket and hit a target down.
9/8/2014dreamt of buying emagarten real-estate. ^ yesterday son's mom asked me to accompany son's swim lesson.I admitted. I got there earlier to play video game with son. when son entered the stadium, I walked around and skim the landscape of the summer sports base. we ate beef noodles before went home. son's mom returned later than 9pm. on bus stop an elder man quarreled with a cop. more policemen arrived with vehicle. the higher rank officer threatened arresting the man before the old man chose to flee. this morning I felt dog tired. after breakfast I had to nap again. I got up near 11pm. I dreamed I bought a piece of land near the summer game training center where we can rest on. we have house, furnitures among trees and other plants in emagarten. the promised loan by my alumnae, broke, likely police or state security agency interfered. the contact like other contacts I reached out, no answer to me since then, sinks into darkness. God, what ever a path hideous, I need ur guide & guardian. let me in faith unalienable. bring me sooner my Royal China, my offspring to my vested land prosperous. thx, dad, God, in this usual morning.
8/8/2014dreamed of grandson. ^ in nap dreamed a grandson dragged his toy boat in the house under grandpa's custody. his boat travels indeed the world, meeting storms, sailing all deferent seas. he mastered the oceans but his grandpa just wouldn't stop his anxiousness and gossips in the old house where his grandson the whole world in his command toddled with his toy boat. I in dream so dear with them, likely of my family. It's a sunshine morning, like yesterday's. but I was concerned with a loan promised by my senior middle school alumnae. last dusk with the gospel, I visited my son. he was on way to his swim lesson with his mom. I followed him and first time visited the stadium. the area is spacious and green. lots of kids playing different sports there. we dined out when son done his lesson. my son hesitated on way to training, but turned smart and talkative on way back.the day before yesterday I also fetched him to dine out, for cheering him up among sadness of loving his parents, for enduring of our poor earthy life, also for threats from local mafia and ruling tyrant of PRC behind the curtain. in his way I made right decision as the Son, the way to save the world, esp China under darker rein of ruthless and lawless nowadays, out of unexceptional. this week I also reckoning claim a domain for my Queens, emagarten. I concocted it years ago for my son's mom's career, English teaching. now I felt kindergarten and garden surely my haunting interest. I want to hold it from dissolving for my future family, my children coming soon. God, ur affirmative brings actions. pl allow me progress after fears and burning restlessness of hoping. makes my world better with advance. grant me moving among debts and shorts.
31/7/2014dreamt son who's in vacation. ^ dreamt we met amid but we pretended we don't meet and continued to walk away, against surveillance.we were in a community bathroom, say campus. workers fixing tubes on 2nd floor. I managed finished my shower in spa before hot water ran out. when I left the spa I told coming guy the maintenance. my son in his summer vacation tour, brought by his mom and her mother for a week in seashore Qinghuangdao. this week my works here in QRRS dorms markable fruitful. I restored my chormebook after misconfigured chrome os and turned unstable, under harshest blocking google service in tyrant PRC, sinking dreadful son of bitch fatherless. I also final spanned family new domain, 2idc.info, with more booming sites, like vimeo,blogger,tumblr,lofter,twitter,etc branding aggregation. God shows me benefits of maintains low profile while engaged always in errands to help the world of vanity fare as well as shared economy. I saw clear my way to self-efface & self-efficient in voice of Holy while among dusts. the dorm garden left 3 chairs, I recently enjoyed resting on the bench after dinner and jog. but many envious poor souls meant to challenge my sphere. a walker with a hippo neck in my daily dusk jog road also tried hard to disgust me. that in the week frequently reminds the invisible but everywhere source of authority. God, dad, u r so invincible! let me enjoy ur world freely and hearted. the glory of Son unfolding in my eyes, dad God, through scenes and events around me prescribed, like echoes of praises under Heaven. God, bring me sooner my Royal China with my Queens, with our children coming big and innocent. thx dad.
photo description: monthly noble life's treat: cinema, snack,Walmart,dining out,harbor in my dorm. son, warrenzh, got cough yesterday but we still found funs in all actions. next dusk, after 2 full days' game playing, roaming outside as his mom forced, he fell into sleep when I, his proud dad, gossiped world politics. till 8pm, his dad left after attending his 2 naps. his mom blamed me as usual for my son's liking staying with his dad. here we rested near Dadi Digital cinema before we headed to next tour, Walmart. we ate some sweets from Taiwan franchise.
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Friday, July 25, 2014
25/7/2014dreamt of crime.^ dreamt a father and his son plotted to threat the public. they bought arms before aboard. on the train they cheated and finally succeeded to explode and kill. then dreamt my kid brother learnt to defend. later likely my son and myself equipped ourselves war field skill. yesterday I got a less satisfying salary, ￥2351, from QRRS, my once employer. I then visited my son with his living support. there he combated 3 hours and completed video game, Op spec: Line. its likely he first time confronted with killing human and war time experience. his expertise in shooting so amazing that my only response is to appreciated, only service is lips. returned to dorm I narrowly settled down tasks left to push online our new domain, 2idc.info, ie. www subdomain hosted on google sites. God sees how China nowadays surveillance harsh and insane, and what my accomplishment of prison break a miracle. last dusk I told my son I want to sacrifice to thanks God. I offered him a bonus of ￥50. he didn't reply me when I tried to talk to him in air. I rested quite awhile in dorms garden. in dorm I reviewed my son's achievement and my task completed, I at once saw the link between them.God,u shown me my son's concern upon sustainable development in the circumstance of sinking PRC with its tyrant communist. God, u show me my sorry for my son for being unable to support him a better life style.God, u show me the bliss to live our own hands and fight for alive. God, my 2nd credit card from bankcomm.com, its pay day due now, help me defeat deficit.bring me more thrills on the worldly earth. fetch my Royal China with my girls sooner to me, in time and bright.
18/7/2014dreamt minority in China & their culture. ^ dreamt travel to southwestern China where habits most minorities. in a village most of their business is tourism. I ate their meals, mostly baozi, etc, of Han tribal food. their lives likely became better in recent years but they closely watched their culture under influence of Han's. I respect them, and always inspired by their fantastic culture. then I turned to sell the traditional meals as a business. one of my alumni supervised it. the day before yesterday I bought my son his 10th domain, 2idc.info, for IIDChina, namespace of my brainstorm years ago. its likely the last generic root domain I admire, .info. I love it. An independent blogger, William Long, used .info, too. I was inspired by the informative blog, a constant freedom seeker among dying harsh surveillance PRC.last weekend brought many joys to my son & myself. we made a budget ￥400 to celebrate our new bankcomm credit card, my 2nd credit card. we shopped in walmart, ate Korean cuisine dog meat and Japanese cuisine breakfast. I stayed longer for my son asked me to try more on a game, till his mom, the dirty woman, nasty me with her usual curse. God, u didn't put any obstacles on my way. my destiny has none business with this worldly world. bring me sooner my Royal China, let me stride new journey. thx dad God.
12/7/2014dreamt research train. ^ in first dream session i got fastest speed of train as a researcher. then with son's mom and her mother we aboard a train. the steward black marketed lavatory space to travelers. we in fact stayed in compartment with illegal ticket from the steward and seemingly happy to be aboard on time, our destiny surely soon reaches. in 3rd session I research bullet train and improved its speed, but most content evapored when I blog. likely I'm glad to travel via it to my hometown, for It only cost 3 hour, like flight. last night again rained cats and dogs. in the rhythm I exchanged words with my son and also watched TV operas from US. his mom, an envious vicious animal, turns more and more insecure and find her all ways to deprive my time together with my son. demon brings her soon to her end, even bitter release of false & twist soul. God, my son now in his summer vacation. let him enjoy the free time. as to me, I had to find new progress in our business. God, bring my girls sooner into our new family. bring my children blessed in light right time. thx dad God.
11/7/2014dreamt of my young years being programming. ^ dreamt with QRRS IT department colleagues who once rejected my application to join them. they asked which program language I good at. I said I read a programming book. they said the book so good that suffices training for a programmer. they suggested BI, business intelligence, as database language, and another executive language for me to work with them. a girl crew of them received me in the IT department and accompany me join a coding summit or camp of improving programming skill. we had good talk that encourages me as being self-taught in the past. in the dream I'm inspired by new career prospective, and proud of my experience of self-studied. this week especially long for me. for I had good news for my son till I see him. my 2nd sister, who usually a demon peeking my weakness, loaned me ￥1000, for gathered deficit in upper half of 2014, and for celebrating our new bankcomm.com credit card. God allows me funded it quick and confidently. I also fixed my computer likely infected by virus. Its painful and frighten to running Internet under surveillance of evil. Its not easy to avoid being spied among compelling artificial intelligence including criminal usage, but I will fight hard like baptism myself. God, I know how vulnerable my cyberspace being, my web assets, is, trust u I express freely. dad, God, coming weeks will be funny with spacious budget. let's stay in joy for even brighter future blessed in holy. bring me sooner my Royal China to fulfill me which not late. help us sooner financial independent. thx, Father.
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