Monday, August 18, 2014

tomorrow shines the past.

18/8/2014

dreamt snakes wrapping ankle. ^ my son recently again got hot and cough. last weekends is our noble life's experience monthly, before salary day. we go movie, snack, Walmart shopping, dined out. for Golden Hans toast buffet out of service for months, we grouponed a meal with duck heads. my son surprised me, likes the cuisine. in Walmart I bought him a Japanese style school bag, priced ¥298. I also equipped him notebook, travel pen, knife we long time planned to replace broken one of a tool pack I won years ago after a blood donation. next morning, Sunday, he asked to replay "family guy".he immersed in it for hours. after showered with me in public spa, he continued the game. near dusk I urged him to allow me left earlier for I a bit tired after 2 day's companion. but he then napped with his feet in my arms.when his mom returned I kept silence till son woke up later. then he napped again with feet warmed by my neck. his mom cursed me for video games exhausted my son, and demanded before my son resumes health I should keep him from her house. I waited near 8pm. then I told my son I have faith he will recover soon. I asked his permission to leave. I left him with listening audio ebook for his mom banned him to watch his favorite animations online in the night. God, safeguard my son's sound life. bring me sooner my Royal China to attend my life that's perfect. resume my son's energy and his movies and games. thx dad, God. allow us to break financial blockage in coming worsen PRC's economy.

15/8/2014

dreams in pale morning.^ dreamt of exam in QRRS office with once colleague and alumnus. in an office likely of my previous workplace in QRRS, my Nankai alumnus, Wujiang, who always good at exam, well prepared & occupied largest desk in the office. a woman colleague whose hometown in my neighbor province, Anhui, also exchanged words about coming exam. on the floor there r lots of cassettes of video tapes for my once job is cable TV station of a SOE. I was nervous upon the test as usual, &prepared cope it with metamorphosis. then dreamt under siege I asked my brother to allow moving my son to his guardian. my elder sister played with us near the well of Zhudajiu village, my hometown, under the dam. son played happily till napped in my arms. in last dream, my son fired a rocket and hit a target down.

9/8/2014

dreamt of buying emagarten real-estate. ^ yesterday son's mom asked me to accompany son's swim lesson.I admitted. I got there earlier to play video game with son. when son entered the stadium, I walked around and skim the landscape of the summer sports base. we ate beef noodles before went home. son's mom returned later than 9pm. on bus stop an elder man quarreled with a cop. more policemen arrived with vehicle. the higher rank officer threatened arresting the man before the old man chose to flee. this morning I felt dog tired. after breakfast I had to nap again. I got up near 11pm. I dreamed I bought a piece of land near the summer game training center where we can rest on. we have house, furnitures among trees and other plants in emagarten. the promised loan by my alumnae, broke, likely police or state security agency interfered. the contact like other contacts I reached out, no answer to me since then, sinks into darkness. God, what ever a path hideous, I need ur guide & guardian. let me in faith unalienable. bring me sooner my Royal China, my offspring to my vested land prosperous. thx, dad, God, in this usual morning.

8/8/2014

dreamed of grandson. ^ in nap dreamed a grandson dragged his toy boat in the house under grandpa's custody. his boat travels indeed the world, meeting storms, sailing all deferent seas. he mastered the oceans but his grandpa just wouldn't stop his anxiousness and gossips in the old house where his grandson the whole world in his command toddled with his toy boat. I in dream so dear with them, likely of my family. It's a sunshine morning, like yesterday's. but I was concerned with a loan promised by my senior middle school alumnae. last dusk with the gospel, I visited my son. he was on way to his swim lesson with his mom. I followed him and first time visited the stadium. the area is spacious and green. lots of kids playing different sports there. we dined out when son done his lesson. my son hesitated on way to training, but turned smart and talkative on way back.the day before yesterday I also fetched him to dine out, for cheering him up among sadness of loving his parents, for enduring of our poor earthy life, also for threats from local mafia and ruling tyrant of PRC behind the curtain. in his way I made right decision as the Son, the way to save the world, esp China under darker rein of ruthless and lawless nowadays, out of unexceptional. this week I also reckoning claim a domain for my Queens, emagarten. I concocted it years ago for my son's mom's career, English teaching. now I felt kindergarten and garden surely my haunting interest. I want to hold it from dissolving for my future family, my children coming soon. God, ur affirmative brings actions. pl allow me progress after fears and burning restlessness of hoping. makes my world better with advance. grant me moving among debts and shorts.

31/7/2014

dreamt son who's in vacation. ^ dreamt we met amid but we pretended we don't meet and continued to walk away, against surveillance.we were in a community bathroom, say campus. workers fixing tubes on 2nd floor. I managed finished my shower in spa before hot water ran out. when I left the spa I told coming guy the maintenance. my son in his summer vacation tour, brought by his mom and her mother for a week in seashore Qinghuangdao. this week my works here in QRRS dorms markable fruitful. I restored my chormebook after misconfigured chrome os and turned unstable, under harshest blocking google service in tyrant PRC, sinking dreadful son of bitch fatherless. I also final spanned family new domain, 2idc.info, with more booming sites, like vimeo,blogger,tumblr,lofter,twitter,etc branding aggregation. God shows me benefits of maintains low profile while engaged always in errands to help the world of vanity fare as well as shared economy. I saw clear my way to self-efface & self-efficient in voice of Holy while among dusts. the dorm garden left 3 chairs, I recently enjoyed resting on the bench after dinner and jog. but many envious poor souls meant to challenge my sphere. a walker with a hippo neck in my daily dusk jog road also tried hard to disgust me. that in the week frequently reminds the invisible but everywhere source of authority. God, dad, u r so invincible! let me enjoy ur world freely and hearted. the glory of Son unfolding in my eyes, dad God, through scenes and events around me prescribed, like echoes of praises under Heaven. God, bring me sooner my Royal China with my Queens, with our children coming big and innocent. thx dad.

photo description: monthly noble life's treat: cinema, snack,Walmart,dining out,harbor in my dorm. son, warrenzh, got cough yesterday but we still found funs in all actions. next dusk, after 2 full days' game playing, roaming outside as his mom forced, he fell into sleep when I, his proud dad, gossiped world politics. till 8pm, his dad left after attending his 2 naps. his mom blamed me as usual for my son's liking staying with his dad. here we rested near Dadi Digital cinema before we headed to next tour, Walmart. we ate some sweets from Taiwan franchise.

Friday, July 25, 2014

God saves future of China.

25/7/2014

dreamt of crime.^ dreamt a father and his son plotted to threat the public. they bought arms before aboard. on the train they cheated and finally succeeded to explode and kill. then dreamt my kid brother learnt to defend. later likely my son and myself equipped ourselves war field skill. yesterday I got a less satisfying salary, ¥2351, from QRRS, my once employer. I then visited my son with his living support. there he combated 3 hours and completed video game, Op spec: Line. its likely he first time confronted with killing human and war time experience. his expertise in shooting so amazing that my only response is to appreciated, only service is lips. returned to dorm I narrowly settled down tasks left to push online our new domain, 2idc.info, ie. www subdomain hosted on google sites. God sees how China nowadays surveillance harsh and insane, and what my accomplishment of prison break a miracle. last dusk I told my son I want to sacrifice to thanks God. I offered him a bonus of ¥50. he didn't reply me when I tried to talk to him in air. I rested quite awhile in dorms garden. in dorm I reviewed my son's achievement and my task completed, I at once saw the link between them.God,u shown me my son's concern upon sustainable development in the circumstance of sinking PRC with its tyrant communist. God, u show me my sorry for my son for being unable to support him a better life style.God, u show me the bliss to live our own hands and fight for alive. God, my 2nd credit card from bankcomm.com, its pay day due now, help me defeat deficit.bring me more thrills on the worldly earth. fetch my Royal China with my girls sooner to me, in time and bright.

18/7/2014

dreamt minority in China & their culture. ^ dreamt travel to southwestern China where habits most minorities. in a village most of their business is tourism. I ate their meals, mostly baozi, etc, of Han tribal food. their lives likely became better in recent years but they closely watched their culture under influence of Han's. I respect them, and always inspired by their fantastic culture. then I turned to sell the traditional meals as a business. one of my alumni supervised it. the day before yesterday I bought my son his 10th domain, 2idc.info, for IIDChina, namespace of my brainstorm years ago. its likely the last generic root domain I admire, .info. I love it. An independent blogger, William Long, used .info, too. I was inspired by the informative blog, a constant freedom seeker among dying harsh surveillance PRC.last weekend brought many joys to my son & myself. we made a budget ¥400 to celebrate our new bankcomm credit card, my 2nd credit card. we shopped in walmart, ate Korean cuisine dog meat and Japanese cuisine breakfast. I stayed longer for my son asked me to try more on a game, till his mom, the dirty woman, nasty me with her usual curse. God, u didn't put any obstacles on my way. my destiny has none business with this worldly world. bring me sooner my Royal China, let me stride new journey. thx dad God.

12/7/2014

dreamt research train. ^ in first dream session i got fastest speed of train as a researcher. then with son's mom and her mother we aboard a train. the steward black marketed lavatory space to travelers. we in fact stayed in compartment with illegal ticket from the steward and seemingly happy to be aboard on time, our destiny surely soon reaches. in 3rd session I research bullet train and improved its speed, but most content evapored when I blog. likely I'm glad to travel via it to my hometown, for It only cost 3 hour, like flight. last night again rained cats and dogs. in the rhythm I exchanged words with my son and also watched TV operas from US. his mom, an envious vicious animal, turns more and more insecure and find her all ways to deprive my time together with my son. demon brings her soon to her end, even bitter release of false & twist soul. God, my son now in his summer vacation. let him enjoy the free time. as to me, I had to find new progress in our business. God, bring my girls sooner into our new family. bring my children blessed in light right time. thx dad God.

11/7/2014

dreamt of my young years being programming. ^ dreamt with QRRS IT department colleagues who once rejected my application to join them. they asked which program language I good at. I said I read a programming book. they said the book so good that suffices training for a programmer. they suggested BI, business intelligence, as database language, and another executive language for me to work with them. a girl crew of them received me in the IT department and accompany me join a coding summit or camp of improving programming skill. we had good talk that encourages me as being self-taught in the past. in the dream I'm inspired by new career prospective, and proud of my experience of self-studied. this week especially long for me. for I had good news for my son till I see him. my 2nd sister, who usually a demon peeking my weakness, loaned me ¥1000, for gathered deficit in upper half of 2014, and for celebrating our new bankcomm.com credit card. God allows me funded it quick and confidently. I also fixed my computer likely infected by virus. Its painful and frighten to running Internet under surveillance of evil. Its not easy to avoid being spied among compelling artificial intelligence including criminal usage, but I will fight hard like baptism myself. God, I know how vulnerable my cyberspace being, my web assets, is, trust u I express freely. dad, God, coming weeks will be funny with spacious budget. let's stay in joy for even brighter future blessed in holy. bring me sooner my Royal China to fulfill me which not late. help us sooner financial independent. thx, Father.

Saturday, July 05, 2014

since it stirs, it cured

5/7/2014

gained family 2nd credit card.^ its such a thrills and spills day yesterday when my son harvested our 2nd credit card, especially intends used by him online and offline. I admire China Post Saving Bank's credit card and applied it 3rd time via filling form in its local office, but none response. in last Monday I almost lost hope in it and an American Associated Press news article about China Communication Bank has rapid credit card auditing campaign attracted me. A minute after submit application form online I got affirmation in sms. its incredible fast and workable! I even don't believe its true after the painful applying process through PSBC's. I was afraid China surveillance's intervene like it did unreasonable. I informed my son the good news next dusk, he replied at once excited, for this credit card long time aimed to remove burden of payment all means, empowers his spending & facilitate his financial mobility. the next 3 day boils me in waiting the ems. finally I dropped in the ems office & took it before dispatched before 11pm. reunited son outside of the house of his mom, who tentatively locked us out & relentlessly compel me for surrender in her marriage hell, I let my son unpack the ems, went through activating the card via online and official hotline. even failed then we visited bankcomm.com's local office and activated my bankcomm credit card there. we enjoyed shopping online at once after dined out beef noodle, and equipped the new payment tool with my son and my own cyber being. in the night I didn't watch any American TV series as usual, but immersed in relaxation of harvest. God, u know how fragile my financial status as well as our online security. u know how I inspired by stride ahead into new realm. grant me space and edge to live noble. bring me sooner my Royal China, my girls into new family which would be fertile. I'm ready since the start of 2014. thx dad, God, take me progress in route of uprising.

28/6/2014

dreamt of killing enemay of my Royal China. ^ dreamed lenthily my old family, my siblings rallied and killed our long time enemy, a Huang, likely my once boss in QRRS. it costs many ritual skill & operations,and relaxing after completed it.

23/6/2014

dreamed of being open war against bureaucratic uncle's family. ^ Dreamt war between my old family &my uncle's.my passed father appears in dream, shows his leading bravery as usual. I gradually firmly stand against the sinful cousin, a long time bureaucrat, a veteran cheater &betrayer. he found his been beaten, turned lean on my back. I cut him off from my back, it likely a huge success, in celebration I woke up. fund raising for 2nd hometown flight tour hardly progress. 3 senior middle school alumni cold shoulders to me, one cursed me, one muted upon my gossip, both journalists, under tyrant CCP's manipulation. the 3rd one, kindly response, but held a position look out. my son likely curious upon the outcome, said him restless on bed in sultry night in the week. when we reunited in weekends, I casually found mobile of another alumnus I tried hard to reach out, I sent 3 sms in 3 days. this morning I boot up courage and dialed the number, which reported invalid. he is a governor. God, I saw so many affirmatives. I will continue to pave way for his Holy. but summer makes my city more enjoyable, thanks, dad, we won't lose if we bounded with this northeastern China this vacation. dad, God, bring me sooner my Royal China, host my summer palace my family, with my friends deserve. grant us a new credit card, to empower my son's online payment, as u promised. thx, dad God.

13/6/2014

fund raising failed once. ^ after announced flight hometown tour 2nd in blog, I first contacted my hometown folk and also Nankai alumnus. he once worked for Xinhua News Agency, then open his own company, and now said bankrupted and worked as employee to earn his first month salary so far. he urged me to talk to him in night privately, and kept silent quite some cases when I tried to persuade his loan in cyberspace, ie. QQ, a Chinese mainstream IM tool. I buzzed in around 7:30 pm, ended after 21 minutes during which he carefully evaded rebuffing me while kept me explaining my cause. he likely an agent of China surveillance over me. here in Qiqihar, in 2 days after the announcement here, 2 guys somewhat acquainted in the SOE approached me and inspected me in chat, quite odd in my routine. the sinful alumnus even vended suicide, claiming his grandpa killed himself, and another Nankai alumnus of us did it several years ago, left his poor old parents in barren peasants. he targeted me as victim and patient. I defended my cause emotionally with despise till saw the trap of trail, indifference of tame, even profane, from steel certain of the despair tyrant PRC. this morning my QQ was blocked from login. so I napped. I dreamed with my son in his infant strangely. I blamed his mom didn't slice food into small pieces less choke him, then I walked into corridor to find him stumbling. I fed him water but accidentally spilled all onto to his back, caused him a chill. woke up I decided to publish the fund raising conversation which concerns my cause. web QQ long time bans me from retrieving chat history, so I tentatively broke some copies during psychic muting the demon exerted. God, dad, I know we will travel as we like. help me reach the pleasure sooner.
dudel2014-06-11 13:56:45
卓,我不知道你遇到了什么难以克服的困难。尽管我做出了各种猜想,但是也不一定能体会到你的内心,我期望你振作。请恕我直言,如果你像肖一样,我认为是没有必要的,我自己也曾有那样的想法,但是我的亲爷爷就是走的那条路,给我们家带来的是无法抹去的伤痛。所以即使我的公司欠债近30万(现已经停工),我也必须咬牙面对,上月我找了一份新工作,目前还没有领到第一个月的工资。如果你只是要孩子回来一趟,那是没有必要的,如果有其他困难,我尽量给予帮助,甚至发动黑龙江的校友来帮助你。我最期望的
dudel2014-06-11 13:56:47
是你能敞开你的心扉,请晚上联络1534*****
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-11 14:24:40
刚忙别的。我真的没有大事。我做最大的能力让我儿子活在最精彩的当下。信心,别无他顾,让我只争朝夕。
没想到你这么困难。我像垂帘洞的禅师,只知道抓紧我的事业和视野。我要带我儿子一年后重回老家看看,我要争取实现它。
看到你负担的公司的消息,很遗憾。你我都向往成功,没有其它。我现在勉强度日,但是心向高台。我借过好几个同学,但没觉得是自己是累赘,人所在地不同,繁简两重天。我信神的富有,救度不再其他,就在身边。我相信垂手善事,可解两渴。我相信我的生机可以分享,只要同舟共济。
我找你不是要救济,我要你分享成长。因为钱不是世界上最宝贵的,是人和事,是看得见的辉煌,弥足珍惜。
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-11 14:38:57
oncliff,你能亏30万,为什么我不能借5000?咱们差别有那么大吗?我有机会还想领教国内开公司的事。不要挫折啊,一寸险,一寸赢。
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-11 14:41:08
人生就像变法着玩。吃过的苦就是来日的甜。我没有出路,但不是不思考。
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-11 14:41:55
看到你的自述,你走的路不错!!
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-11 15:03:16
需要敞开心扉的不是我,是你。作为商人的恩格斯,不能不抱怨运营困难。

benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 09:35:03
我还是需要你借我5000. 跟那些使你负债的客户比,我更可能不是你破产的主顾。看我的好的一面,是否值得你帮助。
dudel2014-06-12 10:09:04
请晚上来电话,告诉我你的计划
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:09:39
什么计划?有这里说不清的事吗
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:10:17
我很愿意跟你叙旧,只是为时尚早。
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:11:34
5000块不是个大玩具吧,老板,
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:12:07
你非得要评估我吗?
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:15:09
我们都经历蜕变,但我认同自己,在同一,注定的轨道。
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:16:30
有人快,有人慢。校友经济本应如此。
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:17:32
社会本应如此。纽带,不是这样吗?
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:23:36
如果纽带起作用,肖不致脱落。为什么要否认交谊?社会应该否认关系吗?
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:25:13
公允否认亲情吗?只有自然的社会才会长久。