Friday, April 08, 2016

dim while persistent hope of better finance in sinking PRC.

Apr 8, 2016

So I napped again after a sandstorm noon. I dreamt using water as fuel and a pair of light wings. I flied over a slop and carefully calculated fuel consuming. on the hill of my hometown, I finally ran out of water fuel and woke up. in the past week banks called me several times but now less burning. I hope my business outruns the ever accumulating profit in addition principal in a decade. this week financial hardness embarrassed me so miserable that sometimes humbled me to bite, esp occasionally an old cop near retired age ate his rich lunch in dorm canteen with his pal in canteen. after restored hope of life, my dinners in canteen even delicious since then, from complain of loan from its operating woman. this week my restoring dynamic sites also makes proud progress. backup partially imported to new database, and fresh web apps targeting new domains tried and satisfying. our new site gathers thin traffic but God, plenty of holy world, let me feel capable of the online presence now and then. my own especially glad to see these beautiful huts of interactive, of hospitality, of service, regardless sunshine nor turbulence. they will be history and morality, will be testimony of holy commitment. previously I tried hard to build them on google infrastructure, but now financial situation hardly support it, and compatibility with php less satisfying. now I found cheaper hosting at godaddy. and free hosting at byet.host. God, dad, let the freedom of cyberspace persistent, let the internet affordable forever. above all of them, I gladful upon hardware upgrade last year I pushed recklessly. dad God, bring me sooner my Royal China to foster good world closing the sinking PRC, bring me sooner my children, my girls with whom I prayed so long online. in coming salary pl allow me to alleviate more or less my credit overdraw burden. grant us purchase power among my dear credit cards. thx, dad, in this chill afternoon.
Photo Description: woz, Hope of China, has painting lesson arranged by his mom. here his talent artwork in early stage.

Apr 5, 2016

dreamt first time of youth friend, Qiuxiaolin. yesterday I napped several times but still today felt exhausted. after canteen breakfast I satisfied and napped. I dreamt Qiu xiaolin, my Nankai alumnus and close friend of literature, visited me in my hometown. some neighbor kids, Zhudehua, Zhuhongying, etc, played our pingpang ball. sometimes they asked my judge for who can play. I told them there are several balls and enough for them. Qiu must discuss our favorite literature and also relaxed with kids and fun. I had 2 friends in campus. one is Qiu, another is BianbaQingda, Tibetan artist I never contacted soon after I stepped into my empirical career in QRRS. that's nearly 20 years ago. Qiu is now likely a professor in his hometown, southwestern China. Bianba's paintings getting gallery public and must also return to his hometown, Lasha. and that's all I knew. they have my best wishes. yesterday is lunar mourning day, dorm canteen out of service again. I ate KFC breakfast and a cheap but consolidate lunch. the additional cost made my reserve for reunite son in weekends in April turns even poorer. God dad, grant me freedom of living dignity. empower me rent hosting service online for my business on the earth in holy affirmative. bring me sooner my Royal China to enlighten the eastern sky. thx for peaceful moment of nap and crisp air after last dusk drizzle.

Apr 4, 2016

dreamt of my Nankai schoolmates visited my house in their study. last Saturday I worked overnight to install ubuntu on my son's computer which frequently hacked by China surveillance. so this morning I napped. in dream when I returned to my house likely also my woz's mom's, to my surprise, all my Nankai alumni there resting, playing card, chatting, etc in their travel, just like when we studied in campus. they likely in their 2nd field practice except without me who is old and trying hard to make a living. I saw Chenxinjian, Chengfeng I recently contacted for help, also saw Muyunhe, Wangyanping, alumna whose comment is acid and sharp, saying I getting old. they all settled in my house at home. this month my salary in serial was around ¥2000 while my living cost for my son and my own is that amount and additionally bank charges ¥1000 for my credit overdrawal. in frequent banks calls, I felt more or less burnout. I contacted some of my senior middle school alumni for help. most of them evade me, but a promising guy, our once unbeatable academic score champion and financial institution crew since graduation, acquainted my hardness. last Sunday reunite woz, my dearest son, Hope of China, is quite warm memory now. we dined rich, played games heartedly, chatted on profound far sighted topics. upon my shortage I offered him 2 options, less visit or dine cheaper, he chose the latter, which made me prouder. its sunny spring now, fine weather these 2 days encourages me putting on my best clothes. God's mercy, my nephew, elder son of my dearest youngest elder sister, who operates an online clothes shop, prepared me some alternatives. God, dad, my life so far is enjoyable. pl don't deprive our leisure and pleasure in the moulding of our Empire of China of 1109 years ahead. only living happy deserves our vested kingdom. pl help me step by step relieve my burden of bank loan, and grant us of purchasing power continuous. thx dad, bring me sooner my girls when we matter each other. enliven me by my children I breed and attend full heart. thx for this silent morning after KFC breakfast.

Mar 21, 2016

dreamt of international cargo. in dawn dream, I prepared my packages to Sweden where I will study. on half way I found my packages missing. then found I mispelled and hijacked by malware. on half way where there is crowd watching soccer world champion, I miserable search all hijacked packages' label and corrected them to my designated destiny while maintained hijacked address untouched but move it to lower propriety for forensic and wouldn't executed for trial and test. then in remote country I possibly waiting for the only missing package uncorrected, and doubting if its a serial compression in which missing a member package will ruin all others, or all independent compressed packages in which missing one will only affect itself content. the dream likely an echo of what I saw last night I returned from visiting my son. on the bus stop I noticed railway station setup its cargo handling office where previously rented to 3rd party business likely small hotel, etc. its likely now has their business booming and office restored. I saw 2 young couples leaving from the office and likely they fetched their cargo. I enjoyed online shopping last year so much. now the PRC government installed higher tariff trying smoother overseas purchases booming among Chinese middle class. its a whole pack aiming prevent Chinese better informed shifting from poor Chinese quality to world including political, life, society, ethic all aspects. dictative PRC attempting stop losing customers inland by monopolize their poor official offer like north Korea where people lame generations and generations of prey. how I cherish overseas purchases last year and cozy of online shoppings which now almost impossible under my current hard financial situation. God dad, PRC sinking dictation want harness domestic consuming boost economy and employment while never afford losing control on market, the most important role in industrialized production chain, and through which American people and world economy help China in past decades so much to allow diligent Chinese labors, mostly peasants engaged full fledged and improved their lives nonstop in more than 40 years. the ccp is a bitch, grace never sheds light in its stoned heart, and relentlessly sinking China with it when times ditching them with their poor quality and means of troublemaking. dad God, bring me sooner my Royal China and my beloved children, my queens for peace and pleasure of now. please ease my credit deficit and allow me shopping online as usual. in the coming salary allow me make use to alleviate my debt burden more or less.

Thursday, March 17, 2016

moon in clouds.

Mar 17,2016

dreamt of once enemy in old work place. these days daunted by difficulty in setup web apps on google app engine, I rested myself and enjoy reading online more routinely. it can be boring and I napped after noons. this noon nap I dreamt with my son fought against punishment in game in which I tried to gain network administrator job while the cable TV network equipment exporter company from Beijing teased me with my QRRS cable TV director, with whom the battle since put me jobless. they disliked me and blocked me with quizs. I also dreamt of my Nankai alumni with whom I begged help before my 2nd flight tour with my son, in bank's urgency to confirm credit positive, and informed with my cyberspace brand searchable. in weeks my domestic blogs at lofter.com cencored. he likely a part of PRC surveillance, and likely by his effects my custom domains with lofter.com all removed, blogs' access resumed after near a week's prohibition. in the dream I also saw why once colleague in QRRS cable TV, assigned accountant still prefered spreadsheet, excel, to automatic database software I long suggested, to manage customer's fee. he might co-operated with the director using primitive tool to obtain more control on departmental sales for their profits stealthily. recently I dreamt my son more occasions and sometimes in sexual dreams I even can't differentiate him from my beloved girls. that reminds me my sins of being single so long and female around fondless. God dad, I never stopped praying for my true love, my beautiful girls I called upon my blog so long. I admire young girl in time for marriage so long anytime I perceive with my eyes daylight. grant me Asoh Yukiko, my TW girl, girl Lyu, with whom I still in profound aspiration. grant me new family and more children. God dad, I don't compete with anyone for offspring, like most Chinese and Arab do, but I feel 3 or 4 children will prefect me and nature. dad, this world, our family duty under oath to Holy, makes it necessary to maintain the Royal prosperous. help me achieve the sweet task I won't gave up before destiny. lower my deficit to bank and enable their purchase power. God, help me enjoy the cosy of dynamic website, free my frustrations during building on google computing infrastructure.

Mar 13,2016

returned from abruption. nearly a month after our 2nd flight tour I busy with restoring my work space and our dynamic sites. this morning I slept sound and dreamt of my passed mother. in first phrase I dreamt of windows' encryption. I found myself among Hubei Province folks busy with building its provincial hall. on the roof unfinished, I found windows encryption is a system function that can be called anytime, not likely previously presumably through compressing password encrypted. one of my Huanggang alumni, Huang Linzhong, stood under the building site and talked with me. then dreamt with my son and my mother in hometown village. I bought my son a huge ice stick which almost as big as my son. he likes it and enjoyed it on way and somewhat dirt coats it for too large to hold. passed month I was so busy, several overnights on system restore that made my ear vulnerable and painful. through the process I quite familiar with windows setup via hard disk, with aid of windows pe environment. Google is an indispensable helping tool for problem solving. with it I safely assert here that English world community's informative quality much better than Chinese counterpart. China surveillance no doubt interfered amid my efforts, but God's bliss lifts me from trouble and hopelessness. these days they even targeting my only pleasure in night, English TV programs. I have 3 days apart from my favorite episodes due to media delivers too lagging. they also times and times broke down my son's computer VPN, aiming evades him from English and Christian I endeavored to put him forth. they shamelessly sent their children aided by their dirty earns abroad, but banned domestic English access and bound Chinese with their tombstone sinking in sins. what they losing is not a battle of new world and new life, but a hope of survival in their doomed warfare and division. from now on I will try to resume my old dynamic sites, zho.io and forum of zhuson.com. financial situation is huge hard, I pray relief so hard to live affordable. after all I have faith in my building Empire of China in my title. I believe I endorsed to continue my brand promotion cyberspace. I didn't change as to shoulder the responsibility of Royal China. God dad, bring me sooner my new family with my children forsaked when I productive. bring me sooner my girls in our happy time and vital. grant me purchasing power among my credit cards, and sustain my assets, esp English world one, I bought in online gradually. in every cent I spent shows my decision's value and precise. thx, dad God, in this sunny morning.

Feb 16,2016

research election campaign in dream. dreamt of modern election exercise. this dawn dreamt detailedly in a election campaign. I carefully watched classes of people brought afore. the result not so sure and caucus hard to judge for win. after got up I had to breakfast in KFC a bus stop away second time after landed from the flight. the dorm canteen operator returned from lunar vacation but lack impetus to open service. my dorm working environment quite intactly kept, in a day I settled most necessary updates and instalment. in face of unclear financial difficulties in 2016, I pray solely my job here may complete. credit overdraw urgently need return for fluid, but I now haven't cash to facilitate the process. last night after shut down pc, I casually peeked the possibility of hostility and ill will in my kid brother's family treated us in our 2nd flight tour. they might hate us and attempted hurt us. there is possible battle among my old family upon dad's inheritor. after all 2 KFC breakfast is delicious and my focus improved. Dad God, grant me bonus this salary day to ease my credit crisis. empower my credit card's purchase and readiness in its mobility of currency. bring me sooner my Royal China when it matters. grant us adequate life style we enjoyed so far. thx, dad God. #God #AsohYukiko #dream #love #life

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

won the winter 2015 and spring 2016.

9/2/2016

time to reckon back way. dreamt of madly promoting my Royal of China. first I appeared in campus canteen. I found my spoon missing. I afraid it was contaminated and search it. my Nankai Univ alumni, Zhang Chongfu appears. then in the crowd of leaving school students in campus, I turned more and more desperately promoting the message that I was the Emperor owning the country. some parents, including a parent and also likely a teacher, heard me carefully. I then acclaimed I will pay her triple times her cost even I doubt it would be costly for the throne. then I saw Peng Jinglei, one of my Huanggang senior middle school alumni, just in the crowd, I acknowledged him, "how is Peng Dehuai in ur family?", his sweats dropped like tears. I then woke up. Its first dream in which I dreamt of confronting my alumni truth I declared so long in cyberspace, my Empire from my ancestor, and madness in persistence in adversity. my 2nd flight tour with my son, woz, near its end. even now I felt sleepy, for my brother's family usually went to bed around mid night. in lunar new year they crazy with gift cash and video talk with hometown village folks. I spent lots of lessons to alter his complacent upon his current messy work flow and badly organized work space, his loose income should replaced by well planned, economic production profit. I urged him read daily to maintain thinking and vision. he dislike my preaches but more or less he understand his small enterprise not so rosy. his wife made many delicious meals, left my stomachache frequently secrets acid burning liquid in dream for overfull dinner. now time to foresee return flight. last night I showered woz and myself. my brother promised will drive us to airport. I enjoyed so much the journey. God, dad, I hope I didn't hurt my brother's ambition, his sense of visionary. I hope our grand father's Empire brings him confidence as my holy spiritual wake up. I hope his mean habit, his premature entrepreneur grows unshakable plenty of our Royal China. dad God, I didn't mistaken holy completion in this lunar holiday vacation. bring me sooner my girls, my crowd Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, into my new family. bring me my Royal China when I productive. spare useless bets on robust of my offspring and Empirical inherit. grant us smooth flight returning to northeastern China where I fought for freedom and better world so far.

1/2/2016

dreamt of Japanese prostitutes. in dawn dream I visited brothel with a Japanese friend. I first time accepted prostitute service. I chose 2 girls, one younger and one taller. but sex seemingly not successful. nearly a week past since I brought my son visiting my kid brother in southern China. I tried hard to perceive his situation and offered lots of innovative suggestions which unpopular and repulsive. I also want he loan me ¥5000 aside flight tickets which costs him 10000rmb to fluid my credit overdraw. till now he complained economic hardness and refused to loan. ICBC previously extended me a week to return debt otherwise possible disabled my credit card but fortunately till now they didn't buzz me after a week's probation. in the week my brother lingered in his mill daytime and lately returned around 11pm. I accompany my son and first son of my brother at home aimlessly. in such a inhospitable circumstance I eager to flight back to Qiqihar, my 2nd hometown. we ate spicy cheap food and lost appetite soon. but last night my brother treated us dining out and I swallowed there. before the dinner we arranged to play arcade console games in the shopping mall. my son competed hard in racing game against his cousin, 2 years older than him. lately we shopped for lunar new year. my notebook finally got its power sock converter and my son and me both watched our favorite online videos after mid night before went to bed. here drizzled since we arrived and coolness in house kept woz staying on bed while gaming on his pad. my brother's house is elegantly spacious, but badly untidy. I blamed him for several times and now I don't intend to preach more for a narrow minded man. its not wonderful as what I imagined but my tiring battle against PRC surveillance healed. after the Spring festival, my financial situation might worsen steeply but God dad, I have faith in the way leading me through. dad God, bring me sooner my Royal China, bring me my girls in new year in new family. grant us debt free and purchase power among my credit cards.

17/1/2016

prepare to launch. dreamt building house with my alumni. A teacher led us to push down a wall. Chenfeng, Hunan graduate in my Nankai Univ alumni, push so hard that fell with the wall and startled me by possible tragedy. then dreamt with my son before flight tour, which demands detailed list of future activities to prove innocence. I burned brain to cover all possible agendas in the list to satisfy censorship. last weekend fulfilled with joys when my son unpack new purchased goods in my dorm. we have first compute stick for portable computing, for securer storage. my son less gamed on pc while immersed in his pad games. on Sunday he first time forgot bringing his gears for spa. he likely grows and looking into more wonderful world other than video games. his mom now less intervenes my work in her house for my son's living standard. in our gathering I complained a lot about closer surveillance PRC tyrant exerts upon us. now the last week before we cruise our 2nd flight tour together. that's likely the main concern we seldom touched. 2015, esp lunar 2015, brings so many surprises we hardly counted on. in cheerful 2016 we eager to gain its preview and outline. aboard will do the job and alienate curiosity. God, dad, grant me return some of my credit deficit, ensure my credit's purchase power and readiness. prepare us a happy journey in southern China. bring me my Royal China when I productive.

14/1/2016

dream of military talk. dreamt first play go with an alumnus, with his friend, a PLA commander of PRC as side watcher. I discussed with the battalion about military organization, claimed on battle field a battalion is a standard unit, rather than squad nor company. I also discussed CCP history and its strategy. during the chat, we saw a huge ant lair in building. these days peacefully enjoyed English world online after half settled vpn router app. intensified contacting vpn support team under PRC surveillance led to draw: I can't access vpn from router, but its desktop version grants me youtube and open world as first time I was amazed by. yesterday I trying to deploy the vpn service on my second router, a Chinese gee router, its again blocked at once, even previous HK based vpn servers unable to connect, too. the sinking PRC bitch too weak to afford anything extra, and tries all means to honey pot domestic users with infected hardware and software, just for sinful espionage and breaking apart massive angers before last straw weight it down. this week I also ditched my 3 dynamic sites on google cloud engine, after misconfiguration locks myself outside. I will try to make full usage of google sites, and zoho sites, which both elegant product line. In holy Urgency, I bought myself another gadget, intel compute stick. I'm so complacent after seeing last year's upgrade of intelligent gears brings about productivity. God, dad, grant me remove credit deficit more or less in lunar new year. enable my credit with purchasing power and sustainable capacity. grant us smooth flights between here and our vacation destiny, my kid brother's house in southern China. bring me sooner my Royal China, Asoh Yukiko, my other sweet girls, as well as our best fruits, into my new family. dad God, led me to new level of glory and grace.