5/7/2014
gained family 2nd credit card.^ its such a thrills and spills day yesterday when my son harvested our 2nd credit card, especially intends used by him online and offline. I admire China Post Saving Bank's credit card and applied it 3rd time via filling form in its local office, but none response. in last Monday I almost lost hope in it and an American Associated Press news article about China Communication Bank has rapid credit card auditing campaign attracted me. A minute after submit application form online I got affirmation in sms. its incredible fast and workable! I even don't believe its true after the painful applying process through PSBC's. I was afraid China surveillance's intervene like it did unreasonable. I informed my son the good news next dusk, he replied at once excited, for this credit card long time aimed to remove burden of payment all means, empowers his spending & facilitate his financial mobility. the next 3 day boils me in waiting the ems. finally I dropped in the ems office & took it before dispatched before 11pm. reunited son outside of the house of his mom, who tentatively locked us out & relentlessly compel me for surrender in her marriage hell, I let my son unpack the ems, went through activating the card via online and official hotline. even failed then we visited bankcomm.com's local office and activated my bankcomm credit card there. we enjoyed shopping online at once after dined out beef noodle, and equipped the new payment tool with my son and my own cyber being. in the night I didn't watch any American TV series as usual, but immersed in relaxation of harvest. God, u know how fragile my financial status as well as our online security. u know how I inspired by stride ahead into new realm. grant me space and edge to live noble. bring me sooner my Royal China, my girls into new family which would be fertile. I'm ready since the start of 2014. thx dad, God, take me progress in route of uprising.28/6/2014
dreamt of killing enemay of my Royal China. ^ dreamed lenthily my old family, my siblings rallied and killed our long time enemy, a Huang, likely my once boss in QRRS. it costs many ritual skill & operations,and relaxing after completed it.23/6/2014
dreamed of being open war against bureaucratic uncle's family. ^ Dreamt war between my old family &my uncle's.my passed father appears in dream, shows his leading bravery as usual. I gradually firmly stand against the sinful cousin, a long time bureaucrat, a veteran cheater &betrayer. he found his been beaten, turned lean on my back. I cut him off from my back, it likely a huge success, in celebration I woke up. fund raising for 2nd hometown flight tour hardly progress. 3 senior middle school alumni cold shoulders to me, one cursed me, one muted upon my gossip, both journalists, under tyrant CCP's manipulation. the 3rd one, kindly response, but held a position look out. my son likely curious upon the outcome, said him restless on bed in sultry night in the week. when we reunited in weekends, I casually found mobile of another alumnus I tried hard to reach out, I sent 3 sms in 3 days. this morning I boot up courage and dialed the number, which reported invalid. he is a governor. God, I saw so many affirmatives. I will continue to pave way for his Holy. but summer makes my city more enjoyable, thanks, dad, we won't lose if we bounded with this northeastern China this vacation. dad, God, bring me sooner my Royal China, host my summer palace my family, with my friends deserve. grant us a new credit card, to empower my son's online payment, as u promised. thx, dad God.13/6/2014
fund raising failed once. ^ after announced flight hometown tour 2nd in blog, I first contacted my hometown folk and also Nankai alumnus. he once worked for Xinhua News Agency, then open his own company, and now said bankrupted and worked as employee to earn his first month salary so far. he urged me to talk to him in night privately, and kept silent quite some cases when I tried to persuade his loan in cyberspace, ie. QQ, a Chinese mainstream IM tool. I buzzed in around 7:30 pm, ended after 21 minutes during which he carefully evaded rebuffing me while kept me explaining my cause. he likely an agent of China surveillance over me. here in Qiqihar, in 2 days after the announcement here, 2 guys somewhat acquainted in the SOE approached me and inspected me in chat, quite odd in my routine. the sinful alumnus even vended suicide, claiming his grandpa killed himself, and another Nankai alumnus of us did it several years ago, left his poor old parents in barren peasants. he targeted me as victim and patient. I defended my cause emotionally with despise till saw the trap of trail, indifference of tame, even profane, from steel certain of the despair tyrant PRC. this morning my QQ was blocked from login. so I napped. I dreamed with my son in his infant strangely. I blamed his mom didn't slice food into small pieces less choke him, then I walked into corridor to find him stumbling. I fed him water but accidentally spilled all onto to his back, caused him a chill. woke up I decided to publish the fund raising conversation which concerns my cause. web QQ long time bans me from retrieving chat history, so I tentatively broke some copies during psychic muting the demon exerted. God, dad, I know we will travel as we like. help me reach the pleasure sooner.dudel2014-06-11 13:56:45
卓，我不知道你遇到了什么难以克服的困难。尽管我做出了各种猜想，但是也不一定能体会到你的内心，我期望你振作。请恕我直言，如果你像肖一样，我认为是没有必要的，我自己也曾有那样的想法，但是我的亲爷爷就是走的那条路，给我们家带来的是无法抹去的伤痛。所以即使我的公司欠债近30万（现已经停工），我也必须咬牙面对，上月我找了一份新工作，目前还没有领到第一个月的工资。如果你只是要孩子回来一趟，那是没有必要的，如果有其他困难，我尽量给予帮助，甚至发动黑龙江的校友来帮助你。我最期望的
dudel2014-06-11 13:56:47
是你能敞开你的心扉，请晚上联络1534*****
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-11 14:24:40
刚忙别的。我真的没有大事。我做最大的能力让我儿子活在最精彩的当下。信心，别无他顾，让我只争朝夕。
没想到你这么困难。我像垂帘洞的禅师，只知道抓紧我的事业和视野。我要带我儿子一年后重回老家看看，我要争取实现它。
看到你负担的公司的消息，很遗憾。你我都向往成功，没有其它。我现在勉强度日，但是心向高台。我借过好几个同学，但没觉得是自己是累赘，人所在地不同，繁简两重天。我信神的富有，救度不再其他，就在身边。我相信垂手善事，可解两渴。我相信我的生机可以分享，只要同舟共济。
我找你不是要救济，我要你分享成长。因为钱不是世界上最宝贵的，是人和事，是看得见的辉煌，弥足珍惜。
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-11 14:38:57
oncliff，你能亏30万，为什么我不能借5000？咱们差别有那么大吗？我有机会还想领教国内开公司的事。不要挫折啊，一寸险，一寸赢。
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-11 14:41:08
人生就像变法着玩。吃过的苦就是来日的甜。我没有出路，但不是不思考。
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-11 14:41:55
看到你的自述，你走的路不错！！
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-11 15:03:16
需要敞开心扉的不是我，是你。作为商人的恩格斯，不能不抱怨运营困难。
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 09:35:03
我还是需要你借我5000. 跟那些使你负债的客户比，我更可能不是你破产的主顾。看我的好的一面，是否值得你帮助。
dudel2014-06-12 10:09:04
请晚上来电话，告诉我你的计划
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:09:39
什么计划？有这里说不清的事吗
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:10:17
我很愿意跟你叙旧，只是为时尚早。
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:11:34
5000块不是个大玩具吧，老板，
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:12:07
你非得要评估我吗？
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:15:09
我们都经历蜕变，但我认同自己，在同一，注定的轨道。
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:16:30
有人快，有人慢。校友经济本应如此。
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:17:32
社会本应如此。纽带，不是这样吗？
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:23:36
如果纽带起作用，肖不致脱落。为什么要否认交谊？社会应该否认关系吗？
benzrad华中朱子卓2014-06-12 10:25:13
公允否认亲情吗？只有自然的社会才会长久。
