last night baby refused to play any games, but watching animation online. later he got heat. i hold him watching movie "Alice in wonderland" before slept earlier. i postpone to buy trains ticket in the night, but sorted stuff from web&backup to dvds. in the night i again slept&lost in lengthy dreams. this morning the grandma came over to attend baby at home. i got my tickets for hometown journey from the railway station box office around 9am. i will left Qiqihar, the city i never like, on Apr 28th, 2010, and arrive my hometown village on the last day of April if nothing disturbing in the journey.
this again a brilliant morning. i stayed in office for the last work day in the week. i saw bliss of God, as well as of my girl zhou, for whom i searched via cyberspace for so many years, with whom we will at least have a twin babies in coming years that soon, and who follows me the best. God, sees my love for u, for ur Heaven, for my beloved, my passed dad, my baby son in growth, Masheng the Japanese Crowned Queen of mine, my girls that's praying for our reunion in their prime time. God, save me from eagerness for my new life ahead, like the marvelous booming summer season in my hometown, central China!
Friday, April 23, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
1st note in countdown of hometown journey.
lingered in office while impatient for action of hometown journey. the company, QRRS, tried to block my plan to equip baby son a new dell notebook for his games while his dad absent from him, by defying withdrawing in advance atop the rich&meaningful travel while i penniless now, likely retreated from the promise i gained in my first contact with a high rank of the company. dog system of China surveillance tried to ruin my joy of the journey, but they doomed to fail.
hopefully i will launch in the last day of April, as scheduled&granted by God. God, let me leaving with my acer notebook, and baby equipped with his new toy, a dell Studio 思跃™ 14 (Studio14D-158), a best gift from baby's American pre-engaged.
hope baby staying a happy life with all relaxation and business after the department while i enjoy sunburn in my hometown, central China. God, grant the glory and elation we deserve in this brave leaping operation.
chat continued with baby's mom, emakingir, via qq, a Chinese mainstream im yesterday.
6:00 PM me: here warren
but the gmail tell ur system's video chat unavailable.
6:01 PM so likely ur video system ill working.
ema: 还是一样
6:03 PM me: 是啊，可能是你本机系统的视频有问题。dell到手后我去你那里配置机器和游戏，直到解决为止。
ema: 再说吧
me: dell收到款后才进入流程，估计最长得一周。
ema: 没事了
me: 我可能提前去你那里收拾机器。
6:04 PM ema: 你有钱汇款么
me: dell收货地址也是写的你家。
6:06 PM 我向公司要7000，要是有机会的话我就要8-9000.实在只有7000的话，管你和我弟弟各借1000.笔记本不到7100，我妈最近药费500，其它侯用。
ema: 给你么
6:07 PM 钱还没到手你先花出去了
me: 应该没问题。
ema: 要是不给我看你拿什么副
6:08 PM me: 我找神的意志办。从不彷徨。
ema: 我可没有能力资源你
6:09 PM 那让神给你吧
别找我
me: 好了，登出了。
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
a chat with baby's mom, emakingir, about the inferior of Chinese.
me: http://configure.ap.dell.com/dellstore/config.aspx?oc=studio14d-158&c=cn&l=zh&s=dhs&cs=cndhs1 这是我订购的机型。
3:46 PM 我可能全额购买，你要保证楚甲百分百随时能用上这个机器。一回家就给他开机准备好，我弄了高清电视线，它可以同时看视频和游戏，一本挂两屏。
3:47 PM 正式场合你用它，平时干活就用神舟的吧。
3:48 PM 我带宏基的回家。
谁对我去幼儿园看我儿子有看法？
3:49 PM 我去是鼓励儿子好日子慢慢来，不要着急，怕无聊。
3:50 PM 关于游戏对儿童的好处，我昨天给你发了一个网摘。在你邮箱里。
3:53 PM http://www.google.com/chat/video/thankyou.html?hl=en 到这里安装gtalk，开始视频聊。
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4:03 PM http://www.cnbeta.com/articles/109008.htm 游戏治愈自闭儿童。
ben zhu is inviting you to use Google voice and video chat. Get started athttp://www.google.com/chat/video
ben zhu is inviting you to use Google voice and video chat. Get started athttp://www.google.com/chat/video
4:04 PM ben zhu is inviting you to use Google voice and video chat. Get started athttp://www.google.com/chat/video
4:05 PM ben zhu is inviting you to use Google voice and video chat. Get started athttp://www.google.com/chat/video
4:07 PM 怎么现在不能直接聊了？你可能又删了，快视频聊啊。
我发了邀请，你接啊。
在吗？
4:10 PM 重启一下浏览器看看
4:11 PM 你能看见文字吗？回话呀
4:13 PM 你加我吧，dabbog@gmail.com ，在chat下面的输入框输入这个邮址，邀请聊天就行了。
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4:18 PM ema king 王华: 没有chat选项
4:19 PM me: 没有就算了，网上交流也有基本礼仪，不要以为祸害人就没后果。
ema king 王华: 视频聊天错误恢复重
4:20 PM 不聊就不聊
me: 你要什么明说，神都知道，耍小手腕只会自食其果。
ema king 王华: 那你就少指示我
4:21 PM me: 我不指示你，但是交流的时候彼此要有意义，不是浪费在姿态或猫腻上。
ema king 王华: 我一天就陪着你试呀
4:23 PM 你一天没固定工做，我还有活那
me: 我明白的告诉你，即使我一辈子见不上我儿子，我也不会跟我儿子分开。你不要以为在这个可以奇货自居。
4:24 PM 我不要求你跟不跟我交流，我就要求交流的时候是诚意的。
ema king 王华: 我整天盯着这页呀
4:25 PM 我发信息你不也有没回的么
就你自己重要呀
4:26 PM me: 不要浪费在细枝末节上，你代表的中国教育在这上面的徒劳还少吗？世界永远不会容忍这样的浪费，
4:27 PM 可以不交流，像中国人或胡锦涛那样的耍小心眼，一点前途没有。
4:28 PM 中国人内耗就是这样的，这些人都得去死！
4:29 PM 你要什么自己明白，说出来也吓不倒谁，但是通过自虐来消耗别人的快乐，那就是中国人的迄今的悲惨命运。
4:30 PM 我没回信息，肯定是不在电脑旁，不像你正聊着就干耗。
4:31 PM ema king 王华: 我要下班了
4:32 PM me: 世界是光明和明白的。暗人都得死，早晚如此。
ema king 王华: 那我也没向你是的
看你那点休养吧
4:33 PM 你以为你发脾气你就好了
edit&corrected my typo in Chinese.
posted yesterday:
edit&corrected my typo in Chinese.
posted yesterday:
yesterday, God let me prepared to return to my hometown. now preparing working environment for baby's gaming&entertainment, by buying a new dell notebook. i will stay till the working environment working for baby, then i start my hometown journey, the second since recent years.
life so sweat with God's guidance.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Holy love in a pale day, Masheng sees.
19/4/2010
a gloomy day with heartbreaking love&pardon.^those days i slept sound. after visited office later than 8am, got know by chat with baby's mom, emakingir, online, that baby cried in the morning, don't want to join the kindergarten. ema likely weeps online. my heart fulfilled with sorry and loving. the weather also reminded me unfavorable, so i left office to visit baby son. the kindergarten quite near my office, a tour on foot for less than 10 minutes. i doubting if dog, ie. porter will blocked me, for in China dog or cops dominating all fields. but God lets me direct walked to the classroom baby members. the teacher received me with smile, and asked who i m. i told her i m the father. as soon as caught sight of baby, i kneed a leg and squadded to talk with baby. i talked him how his parents love him, and urged him happy time should arrives in sequence, in our anticipation with patience. baby nodded when i affirmed him. i kiss his cheek&left with his consent. in office i roamed for about an hour, reviewing love in my family, between Son&God. then most of the day enjoying reading and web assets hunting. in the restaurant, some trifle people, likely some were my once colleagues, babbled about Internet and China censorship. returned to dorm, i sorted stuff awhile, then again reviewed love of Holy between baby and me, in music lately after 11pm. when i returned from lavatory&prepared to sleep, the kitty in the dorm visited me and ask for food. i went to the grocer within the dorms area&bought it 2 sausage, fed it with a small one. the roommate of its owner, a grey man i referred in previous blog, went to buy ready food&found us. i let him take away the kitty with the remnant of the sausage. its really not bad to feed a animal friend.now its a bright morning, with crisp breeze and brilliant sunshine. when i got up i found some queues on the ground, with a lecturing man. likely they r senior collegians taking practice here in the factory. God, time sliding, where is my beloved?
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| From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
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| From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
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| From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
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| From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
for picasaweb&flickr blocked within China mainland, the shit&dog dominated sinful land, here some digest of photos hosted domestically.
sunset among trees outside of QRRS stadium.
QRRS statue in sunset.
a slice of grass in front of my office.
Posted via email from benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly...鸠昱隆嘉
Sunday, April 18, 2010
shines baby son with God in weekend's visit, rid off dwelling devil.
18/4/2010
visit baby son yesterday.^yesterday is a bright day. when i arrived, baby son watching animation online. God let me doubt if i should buy him his favorite food first, but i didn't, except a capsule of dry beef i bought last day. then i launched to backup my stuff to dvds via my Acer notebook left to baby's mom to use those months, restored the os from backup. the grandma soon arrived, cooked us 2 meat dishes: a chicken with mushroom, a fish. the noise of her cutting the chicken let baby uncomfortable, and he asked his mom and me to care him by sat around him. after lunch, with which i quite enjoyed while baby ate less, baby was brought outside by his mom for sunburn, while i busy with installing all new games on the notebook, after trying to restore its previous personal settings. baby slept on way near his mom's home, i was asked to fetch them, met them when baby dozed on his mom's back. after shown ema some stuff, ie. cliparts and templates, for her courseware, and educational multimedia for baby son, i went to public bathroom, where i showered&haircut. bought baby son icecream. baby enjoyed it at once after i returned there. then shown baby newly installed games. baby partially attracted&tried some with my companion. the devil, the grandma, likely maltreated baby son with rudeness and sins, so when i talked about God, baby shown impatience, and reluctant to game on the digital virtual land i trust a lot. God, u know what i want to pray, never let baby son erode by meaningless boring nor too much wasted time among human that's meaningless.baby's mom, emakingir, likely enchanted by the rich materials i prepared for her work. she let me replace my worn winter coat, later pants before i left, both never washed for the whole winter for i had no enough clothes to rotate, with in season suite. when i left, i forgot my under clothing left after shower. in the night the demons in neighbor room in QRRS dorms shown me their hatred when i went to lavatory to fetch boiled water. their sins more and more in my view.
its a pale day so far. the canteen of QRRS dorms, resumed into service after a month and more time to refurnish. but likely not so many residents in the dorms were attracted. i visited office after some doubts in the dorm room. now i will enjoy surfing as time glides. God, u save.
benzrad's tweet on Apr 16,2010
most of the morning sunny. enjoy flying with breeze online, by keeping gains from web resource. time to still the moment that's rich in the world. God saves me from aggressive hunting in the realm. i love staying with the intelligent properties so much. save me from danger, God. i surely abide self-restraint. let me fly and forget myself awhile! i enjoy the flood of freedom. - yesterday
last night busy with trying new games till 11pm, prepared for baby son in next visit. i also determined trying my best to game more in my own leisure time. its now a sunny morning, after yesterday's brilliance. God, save me in balance of resources hunting and enjoyment with the fruits of collecting&cultivating. i want less nerd and more persistent hero of life's truth, public and private. now let me submerging into stuff and news world again.
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