dark day

i got up at 8:11am.last night dogs bited lately and let me had to went
to lavatory room to shit after 3 or 4 am.when i went there i met a
girl leaving in the corridor.i had the full day indoor with my baby
except a break for showering in common bathroom where i was alone in
the room to shower.in the morning the ground was somewhat
wet,indicating last night was dirty around me and i was cleaned by the
frizzle.my baby's mother allowed to leave home after 9 am so we
gathered awhile.i cared my baby playing until he slept on my shoulders
near 11 am.when i felt can't bear i shifted to hug him to let him
sleep.he woke up near 11:30 am and peacefully sat on my laptop to
watch tv.its rare for him for he always likes to play around.at lunch
he ate less and played around the table for some time.his grandmom
also there.after lunch i shown his mother i works on settling her
accounts on youtube and played alone on the web after she left and
slept.i soon fed up with slow speed of surf experience and found my
baby peacefully in his grandmom's arms to play.so i left to
shower.when i returned i met his mother leaving for shower.i held my
baby playing in the rest of afternoon.when his mother returned we
played with him together and let him laugh a lot.i left till i felt
gloomy on my odyssey for my second marriage.
the starsea cafe locked my pc just after some minutes after i login to
my google and i burst to the short girl who always troubled my usage
of pc here.
bye. days and nights i fighted for u,i don't know what a course i m in
but i forever stay.
i love u.kiss u.
tonight likely to snow as i gladly predicated several days ago.its
would be uncomparable blessing.

pale day.

last night i spent almost 4 or 5 hours in a internet cafe to customize
my youtube account.in the dawn i returned to the dorm after machine
dogs heavily hacked the net and let all proxy i can find blocked.i can
access my blogger account.i tried several pc and likely all pcs within
the cafe under the monitor of machine dogs.a more wider possiblity is
that all chinese internet cafe under cops' spy.china no doubt a socity
under tightened surveillance of the dictator,but i didn't know its
scope and depth.
i got up after 12 am.and laid on bed till 4 pm.then i went to starsea
cafe again to finished my work rest.the blogger still can't be
accessed.i had to wait.
i more and more enjoy the cyber life,living history based on the
warehouse of the .com service.but the chinese dog just lagged behind.
bye.i love u.kiss u with dusts.

faint sunshine in the morning,paled out in the afternoon.

last night i worked lately to 9:40 pm.i even attempted to continue my
work after i exchanged daily bless with my son and his mother.but i
held back myself for i want to share free time with my baby and his
mother next morning.his mother said she would be free this morning,and
last morning she held my baby to eat out kentuky fried chicken.i more
or less enjoy publicity with my son.so i regret didn't go over
yesterday.
this morning i woke up at 8:01 am and got up at once.last night the
boss of the starsea cafe haunted in my mind for quite some time.when i
left he upstairs to meet me and i know he monitored me for a long
time.they belongs to dogs union.
my baby received me near the door.soon his mother suggested to haunt
outside and we went to south garden and we started to shot our
baby.some old parents holding their grandsons there showing their
admires to us and my son's mother shared my baby's biscuits with them
but i didn't.for i promised my baby not to disperse his food with
anyone.
in the afternoon the railway telcom arrived 2 staff, a man and a woman
last time visited us to handle our adsl installation,upon our
complains for the too low speed of adsl.they just shown me the adsl
modem's interface to show its downward speed is 2m,but didn't resolve
our problem of slow surfing.i later doubting the woman staff a
intelligence worker of the state security bureau.the man blamed my
firewall and even suggest me surfing without firewall.after them
left,i spent 2 more hours to upload a 200KB video files to youtube.com
but failed thousand times.my baby slept on my shoulder in advanced and
later let the old woman shifted to bed.i held my baby to receive his
mother after 6:30 pm and had a nice time in the entrance of the
classroom building of the school.
i spent 2 hours here to register my family members youtube accounts
and let them working.
bye.i love u with bareness.kiss u with drips of winter leaves.

From warren with h...

indoor modifying my googlepages all afternoon.

i spent all afternoon in the starcafe to modify my googlepage at
http://benzillar.googlepages.com .dog's blocking some resource quite
irrigating but i finsihed it.at noon i felt quite unease about my
spending last night(in the middle the pc hacked and reboot and lost
all my works after half and an hour,so i spent another hour to
suppliment it) and today exceed my budget. but i admitted its my need
and god sees my effort to discipline.i will stayed in the dorm all the
evening,not spending a coin here.i like google,if i can do something
to satisfy myself i would do it with google.
bye.i love u.kiss u with teeth and tease.

bright warm sunny day

my baby received me near the door when i arrived there about 10:00am.i
held him playing for half an hour then went out to receive his
mother.we picked the way to sportsyard and he asked for walking on the
newly heaped earth on the path around the yard on feet.there r 3 or 4
children with their parents there.my baby picked a ditched sore milk
cup so i suggested buying one.then we went to tongxin supermarket
where we bought a cup of sore milk,a bag of fried fish wings and
little bag of sausage.we ate immediately outside of the market.then we
entered the south garden where swarmed with aged people.we had a good
time in the sunshine.when i caught sight of some teachers leaving
through the door of his mother's school i hastened there but still his
mother had to turned back from home to fetch us.after lunch i played
awhile his mother's notebook then we triple went outside.we
accompanied his mother to her school and we went to south garden.i
started to shot my baby.he played on the leaves on ground
concentrately but later insisted to hang the camera and bumped a lot
on the paveway,let me very anxious.he asked for some snack from the
grocer in the garden.when we shifted to sports yard after eating a ice
stick he slept on my shoulder.the old woman laid him on bed and i
started to play with the notebook and the web.the dogs again hacked
the notebook and the antivirus and antispyware and firewall again
broken by the dog,who mostly likely manipulated the telcom to hack our
byte flow,but also possible my os let them faults to break in.its just
too fast.they r more and more desperate to brag their weapons and
brutality.they r losing,just like their doomed fate.
tonight the cafe full of dogs,heavily biting.last night dog among them
let the pc err prone and hanged and reboot itself.dogs union really
losing.they just can't keep their fake peace.fake pretense.god let me
see the breaking light near the end of the tunnel.
bye.i love u.kiss u with pure white of the coming first snow of the
killing winter.

my baby son in the extraordinary warm winter day

milky warm morning sunshine

i woke up at 7:35 am and got up at 8:33.last night i was bited and had
to cop with them awhile and felt pity for myself for god let me
experience this shit.i know all this kind of experience just to let me
be more steadily unbendablely demand a fundamental change to china,to
the shit arrogant persons now.i like my own play,like my baby always
seeking playing with stuff around him,but we r constantly interrupted
by dogs,for they can't support themselves peacefully,they need a beat
to know themselves,to boost their performance.
days and nights let us speechless.silent u let me load too much
burdon,i need ur encouragement,i need ur tender.but u kept
clueless.maybe dogs hinder u,maybe my linger in my existence hinder
u,but i want u know my heart always open for u.my life seemed
peaceful,but i yell for a refreshment.i stare at the sky,i search the
sea of web,i need u bring me another chance.
bye.i love u.kiss u with flavor.

extraordinary warm sunny winter day.

i woke up at 7:22 am and got up at 8:00 am.last night dogs let me
restless awhile and i sometime can't judge in dream or in reality.i
dreamed my elder brother and a country folk broke my house and the
latter attempting to steal something.i headed to see my baby at
once.my baby received me near the door on foot,likely he usually
played alone when at home with the old woman.i held him playing on the
balcony but later i was distracted by the wish to settle his mother's
notebook.last night i download free firewall and antivirus soft and i
just need a try.my baby let me alone for quite some time but sometimes
he drag my hand to lead me away from the notebook.i evade him for
sometimes.after 10:30 he cried loudly for my cares and i gave up pc
and held him outside and he fell into sleep as soon as we downstairs
to ground floor.he slept on my shoulders in the south garden and again
some people asked us to return home and soon my baby was woke up by
illwilled people around and we shifted to his mother's school where we
received his mother.at home before lunch my baby laughed a lot with
hide-and-see with his mother.but soon after lunch i busy with notebook
till 4:30 pm i held him out to receive his mother and he again slept
just left his mother's home.he is now growing up and under trainning
by god.god let illwilled persons around our home desperate to exert on
him.but he forever safe and sound.
on the way leaving his mother's home i felt sorry for him.i should
caress him more,for i come over rightly to see him.his mother not so
interested in my work for her.
bye.days and nights let us love blunt.i don't know how far u ahead
me.i only know fight myself a safe cave for the unclear ur presence.i
only know god's seeing my chores.
i love u.kiss u with the purity of the coming first snow.

--
还我河山

你在清贫中呆得太久了
你分不清月色的石子和清癯的星
眸子的星芒浮于薄霭
厌倦的兽眼阴雨中低低沉吼

bright sunshine afternoon

i laid myself on bed listening music radio till 4 pm.dogs hunting and
let my pda hanged a time.after 4 pm i got up and want to read
newspaper but the newspaper room out of service.so i took a tour to
the eatern zone of qrrs which underwent large changes under the
ambitions of qrrs and the municipal gov. .there r some open space
around the qrrs hotel for receiving its foreign and national
guests,which covered with grass and a few trees enclosed by
fence.nearby middle school had a new teaching building.leaving its old
2 floor building extending some area likely being occupied by
management stuff.qrrs even build 3 building of 15 floor or higher but
their ground floor mostly locked now,indicating can't be rent for
service.the state-owned enterprises owning quite some assets not eager
to open to service but hold for a good price.it can be safely said
nowaday china's biggest asset was the land of peasants that been
deprived from its owner.i also tried to find another internet cafe but
in vain.maybe the customer can't afford another,or maybe the cops
monopolied to maxize its profits.
bye.i want to read my google personal homepage,which was block when i
surfed at starsea cafe in the morning.i love u.kiss u with clouds in
the pale blue winter sky.

warm and bright morning

i got up at 10:09 am.awake on bed i doubting the irriatabel spying and
hacking on our family internet accounts from dogs.it likes a long time
tiptoe in shits stained ground ,likes a smoke gun aside u without any
restrain.dogs here in starsea again block most of my access to some
websites.they shits on chinese mainland for so many years that anyone
passed here can't avoid to be choked by the foul smells.they r dirty
animal.i also doubting who trusted the cafe to ask for a show of id
card to use internet,who privileged to ask anyone to show their id
card when they at service.is is lawful when we enjoy services like
shopping or walking or eating while had to show our id card?its
longtime a laughable compare that american have a unique social
welfare id card while chinese have a unique national id card for the
convinience of cops to trace criminal.they drive any chinese into
criminal with their disgusting dog eyes and licking dirty tougoe.
however,the sunshine outside of the window is bright.last night dogs
around my room in the dorm heavily biting when i read pc magzines.i
have to read bible to clean myself and trench the foxes and wolfes and
dogs.they likely desperate or new hungerer or new evil spirit arrived
near my room.
i slept sound,thx god.
bye.i'd better do some reading on web.i love u.kiss u with tearless blue sky.

--
还我河山

你在清贫中呆得太久了
你分不清月色的石子和清癯的星
眸子的星芒浮于薄霭
厌倦的兽眼阴雨中低低沉吼