dim while persistent hope of better finance in sinking PRC.

Apr 8, 2016

So I napped again after a sandstorm noon. I dreamt using water as fuel and a pair of light wings. I flied over a slop and carefully calculated fuel consuming. on the hill of my hometown, I finally ran out of water fuel and woke up. in the past week banks called me several times but now less burning. I hope my business outruns the ever accumulating profit in addition principal in a decade. this week financial hardness embarrassed me so miserable that sometimes humbled me to bite, esp occasionally an old cop near retired age ate his rich lunch in dorm canteen with his pal in canteen. after restored hope of life, my dinners in canteen even delicious since then, from complain of loan from its operating woman. this week my restoring dynamic sites also makes proud progress. backup partially imported to new database, and fresh web apps targeting new domains tried and satisfying. our new site gathers thin traffic but God, plenty of holy world, let me feel capable of the online presence now and then. my own especially glad to see these beautiful huts of interactive, of hospitality, of service, regardless sunshine nor turbulence. they will be history and morality, will be testimony of holy commitment. previously I tried hard to build them on google infrastructure, but now financial situation hardly support it, and compatibility with php less satisfying. now I found cheaper hosting at godaddy. and free hosting at byet.host. God, dad, let the freedom of cyberspace persistent, let the internet affordable forever. above all of them, I gladful upon hardware upgrade last year I pushed recklessly. dad God, bring me sooner my Royal China to foster good world closing the sinking PRC, bring me sooner my children, my girls with whom I prayed so long online. in coming salary pl allow me to alleviate more or less my credit overdraw burden. grant us purchase power among my dear credit cards. thx, dad, in this chill afternoon.
Photo Description: woz, Hope of China, has painting lesson arranged by his mom. here his talent artwork in early stage.

Apr 5, 2016

dreamt first time of youth friend, Qiuxiaolin. yesterday I napped several times but still today felt exhausted. after canteen breakfast I satisfied and napped. I dreamt Qiu xiaolin, my Nankai alumnus and close friend of literature, visited me in my hometown. some neighbor kids, Zhudehua, Zhuhongying, etc, played our pingpang ball. sometimes they asked my judge for who can play. I told them there are several balls and enough for them. Qiu must discuss our favorite literature and also relaxed with kids and fun. I had 2 friends in campus. one is Qiu, another is BianbaQingda, Tibetan artist I never contacted soon after I stepped into my empirical career in QRRS. that's nearly 20 years ago. Qiu is now likely a professor in his hometown, southwestern China. Bianba's paintings getting gallery public and must also return to his hometown, Lasha. and that's all I knew. they have my best wishes. yesterday is lunar mourning day, dorm canteen out of service again. I ate KFC breakfast and a cheap but consolidate lunch. the additional cost made my reserve for reunite son in weekends in April turns even poorer. God dad, grant me freedom of living dignity. empower me rent hosting service online for my business on the earth in holy affirmative. bring me sooner my Royal China to enlighten the eastern sky. thx for peaceful moment of nap and crisp air after last dusk drizzle.

Apr 4, 2016

dreamt of my Nankai schoolmates visited my house in their study. last Saturday I worked overnight to install ubuntu on my son's computer which frequently hacked by China surveillance. so this morning I napped. in dream when I returned to my house likely also my woz's mom's, to my surprise, all my Nankai alumni there resting, playing card, chatting, etc in their travel, just like when we studied in campus. they likely in their 2nd field practice except without me who is old and trying hard to make a living. I saw Chenxinjian, Chengfeng I recently contacted for help, also saw Muyunhe, Wangyanping, alumna whose comment is acid and sharp, saying I getting old. they all settled in my house at home. this month my salary in serial was around ¥2000 while my living cost for my son and my own is that amount and additionally bank charges ¥1000 for my credit overdrawal. in frequent banks calls, I felt more or less burnout. I contacted some of my senior middle school alumni for help. most of them evade me, but a promising guy, our once unbeatable academic score champion and financial institution crew since graduation, acquainted my hardness. last Sunday reunite woz, my dearest son, Hope of China, is quite warm memory now. we dined rich, played games heartedly, chatted on profound far sighted topics. upon my shortage I offered him 2 options, less visit or dine cheaper, he chose the latter, which made me prouder. its sunny spring now, fine weather these 2 days encourages me putting on my best clothes. God's mercy, my nephew, elder son of my dearest youngest elder sister, who operates an online clothes shop, prepared me some alternatives. God, dad, my life so far is enjoyable. pl don't deprive our leisure and pleasure in the moulding of our Empire of China of 1109 years ahead. only living happy deserves our vested kingdom. pl help me step by step relieve my burden of bank loan, and grant us of purchasing power continuous. thx dad, bring me sooner my girls when we matter each other. enliven me by my children I breed and attend full heart. thx for this silent morning after KFC breakfast.

Mar 21, 2016

dreamt of international cargo. in dawn dream, I prepared my packages to Sweden where I will study. on half way I found my packages missing. then found I mispelled and hijacked by malware. on half way where there is crowd watching soccer world champion, I miserable search all hijacked packages' label and corrected them to my designated destiny while maintained hijacked address untouched but move it to lower propriety for forensic and wouldn't executed for trial and test. then in remote country I possibly waiting for the only missing package uncorrected, and doubting if its a serial compression in which missing a member package will ruin all others, or all independent compressed packages in which missing one will only affect itself content. the dream likely an echo of what I saw last night I returned from visiting my son. on the bus stop I noticed railway station setup its cargo handling office where previously rented to 3rd party business likely small hotel, etc. its likely now has their business booming and office restored. I saw 2 young couples leaving from the office and likely they fetched their cargo. I enjoyed online shopping last year so much. now the PRC government installed higher tariff trying smoother overseas purchases booming among Chinese middle class. its a whole pack aiming prevent Chinese better informed shifting from poor Chinese quality to world including political, life, society, ethic all aspects. dictative PRC attempting stop losing customers inland by monopolize their poor official offer like north Korea where people lame generations and generations of prey. how I cherish overseas purchases last year and cozy of online shoppings which now almost impossible under my current hard financial situation. God dad, PRC sinking dictation want harness domestic consuming boost economy and employment while never afford losing control on market, the most important role in industrialized production chain, and through which American people and world economy help China in past decades so much to allow diligent Chinese labors, mostly peasants engaged full fledged and improved their lives nonstop in more than 40 years. the ccp is a bitch, grace never sheds light in its stoned heart, and relentlessly sinking China with it when times ditching them with their poor quality and means of troublemaking. dad God, bring me sooner my Royal China and my beloved children, my queens for peace and pleasure of now. please ease my credit deficit and allow me shopping online as usual. in the coming salary allow me make use to alleviate my debt burden more or less.

moon in clouds.

Mar 17,2016

dreamt of once enemy in old work place. these days daunted by difficulty in setup web apps on google app engine, I rested myself and enjoy reading online more routinely. it can be boring and I napped after noons. this noon nap I dreamt with my son fought against punishment in game in which I tried to gain network administrator job while the cable TV network equipment exporter company from Beijing teased me with my QRRS cable TV director, with whom the battle since put me jobless. they disliked me and blocked me with quizs. I also dreamt of my Nankai alumni with whom I begged help before my 2nd flight tour with my son, in bank's urgency to confirm credit positive, and informed with my cyberspace brand searchable. in weeks my domestic blogs at lofter.com cencored. he likely a part of PRC surveillance, and likely by his effects my custom domains with lofter.com all removed, blogs' access resumed after near a week's prohibition. in the dream I also saw why once colleague in QRRS cable TV, assigned accountant still prefered spreadsheet, excel, to automatic database software I long suggested, to manage customer's fee. he might co-operated with the director using primitive tool to obtain more control on departmental sales for their profits stealthily. recently I dreamt my son more occasions and sometimes in sexual dreams I even can't differentiate him from my beloved girls. that reminds me my sins of being single so long and female around fondless. God dad, I never stopped praying for my true love, my beautiful girls I called upon my blog so long. I admire young girl in time for marriage so long anytime I perceive with my eyes daylight. grant me Asoh Yukiko, my TW girl, girl Lyu, with whom I still in profound aspiration. grant me new family and more children. God dad, I don't compete with anyone for offspring, like most Chinese and Arab do, but I feel 3 or 4 children will prefect me and nature. dad, this world, our family duty under oath to Holy, makes it necessary to maintain the Royal prosperous. help me achieve the sweet task I won't gave up before destiny. lower my deficit to bank and enable their purchase power. God, help me enjoy the cosy of dynamic website, free my frustrations during building on google computing infrastructure.

Mar 13,2016

returned from abruption. nearly a month after our 2nd flight tour I busy with restoring my work space and our dynamic sites. this morning I slept sound and dreamt of my passed mother. in first phrase I dreamt of windows' encryption. I found myself among Hubei Province folks busy with building its provincial hall. on the roof unfinished, I found windows encryption is a system function that can be called anytime, not likely previously presumably through compressing password encrypted. one of my Huanggang alumni, Huang Linzhong, stood under the building site and talked with me. then dreamt with my son and my mother in hometown village. I bought my son a huge ice stick which almost as big as my son. he likes it and enjoyed it on way and somewhat dirt coats it for too large to hold. passed month I was so busy, several overnights on system restore that made my ear vulnerable and painful. through the process I quite familiar with windows setup via hard disk, with aid of windows pe environment. Google is an indispensable helping tool for problem solving. with it I safely assert here that English world community's informative quality much better than Chinese counterpart. China surveillance no doubt interfered amid my efforts, but God's bliss lifts me from trouble and hopelessness. these days they even targeting my only pleasure in night, English TV programs. I have 3 days apart from my favorite episodes due to media delivers too lagging. they also times and times broke down my son's computer VPN, aiming evades him from English and Christian I endeavored to put him forth. they shamelessly sent their children aided by their dirty earns abroad, but banned domestic English access and bound Chinese with their tombstone sinking in sins. what they losing is not a battle of new world and new life, but a hope of survival in their doomed warfare and division. from now on I will try to resume my old dynamic sites, zho.io and forum of zhuson.com. financial situation is huge hard, I pray relief so hard to live affordable. after all I have faith in my building Empire of China in my title. I believe I endorsed to continue my brand promotion cyberspace. I didn't change as to shoulder the responsibility of Royal China. God dad, bring me sooner my new family with my children forsaked when I productive. bring me sooner my girls in our happy time and vital. grant me purchasing power among my credit cards, and sustain my assets, esp English world one, I bought in online gradually. in every cent I spent shows my decision's value and precise. thx, dad God, in this sunny morning.

Feb 16,2016

research election campaign in dream. dreamt of modern election exercise. this dawn dreamt detailedly in a election campaign. I carefully watched classes of people brought afore. the result not so sure and caucus hard to judge for win. after got up I had to breakfast in KFC a bus stop away second time after landed from the flight. the dorm canteen operator returned from lunar vacation but lack impetus to open service. my dorm working environment quite intactly kept, in a day I settled most necessary updates and instalment. in face of unclear financial difficulties in 2016, I pray solely my job here may complete. credit overdraw urgently need return for fluid, but I now haven't cash to facilitate the process. last night after shut down pc, I casually peeked the possibility of hostility and ill will in my kid brother's family treated us in our 2nd flight tour. they might hate us and attempted hurt us. there is possible battle among my old family upon dad's inheritor. after all 2 KFC breakfast is delicious and my focus improved. Dad God, grant me bonus this salary day to ease my credit crisis. empower my credit card's purchase and readiness in its mobility of currency. bring me sooner my Royal China when it matters. grant us adequate life style we enjoyed so far. thx, dad God. #God #AsohYukiko #dream #love #life

won the winter 2015 and spring 2016.

9/2/2016

time to reckon back way. dreamt of madly promoting my Royal of China. first I appeared in campus canteen. I found my spoon missing. I afraid it was contaminated and search it. my Nankai Univ alumni, Zhang Chongfu appears. then in the crowd of leaving school students in campus, I turned more and more desperately promoting the message that I was the Emperor owning the country. some parents, including a parent and also likely a teacher, heard me carefully. I then acclaimed I will pay her triple times her cost even I doubt it would be costly for the throne. then I saw Peng Jinglei, one of my Huanggang senior middle school alumni, just in the crowd, I acknowledged him, "how is Peng Dehuai in ur family?", his sweats dropped like tears. I then woke up. Its first dream in which I dreamt of confronting my alumni truth I declared so long in cyberspace, my Empire from my ancestor, and madness in persistence in adversity. my 2nd flight tour with my son, woz, near its end. even now I felt sleepy, for my brother's family usually went to bed around mid night. in lunar new year they crazy with gift cash and video talk with hometown village folks. I spent lots of lessons to alter his complacent upon his current messy work flow and badly organized work space, his loose income should replaced by well planned, economic production profit. I urged him read daily to maintain thinking and vision. he dislike my preaches but more or less he understand his small enterprise not so rosy. his wife made many delicious meals, left my stomachache frequently secrets acid burning liquid in dream for overfull dinner. now time to foresee return flight. last night I showered woz and myself. my brother promised will drive us to airport. I enjoyed so much the journey. God, dad, I hope I didn't hurt my brother's ambition, his sense of visionary. I hope our grand father's Empire brings him confidence as my holy spiritual wake up. I hope his mean habit, his premature entrepreneur grows unshakable plenty of our Royal China. dad God, I didn't mistaken holy completion in this lunar holiday vacation. bring me sooner my girls, my crowd Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, into my new family. bring me my Royal China when I productive. spare useless bets on robust of my offspring and Empirical inherit. grant us smooth flight returning to northeastern China where I fought for freedom and better world so far.

1/2/2016

dreamt of Japanese prostitutes. in dawn dream I visited brothel with a Japanese friend. I first time accepted prostitute service. I chose 2 girls, one younger and one taller. but sex seemingly not successful. nearly a week past since I brought my son visiting my kid brother in southern China. I tried hard to perceive his situation and offered lots of innovative suggestions which unpopular and repulsive. I also want he loan me ￥5000 aside flight tickets which costs him 10000rmb to fluid my credit overdraw. till now he complained economic hardness and refused to loan. ICBC previously extended me a week to return debt otherwise possible disabled my credit card but fortunately till now they didn't buzz me after a week's probation. in the week my brother lingered in his mill daytime and lately returned around 11pm. I accompany my son and first son of my brother at home aimlessly. in such a inhospitable circumstance I eager to flight back to Qiqihar, my 2nd hometown. we ate spicy cheap food and lost appetite soon. but last night my brother treated us dining out and I swallowed there. before the dinner we arranged to play arcade console games in the shopping mall. my son competed hard in racing game against his cousin, 2 years older than him. lately we shopped for lunar new year. my notebook finally got its power sock converter and my son and me both watched our favorite online videos after mid night before went to bed. here drizzled since we arrived and coolness in house kept woz staying on bed while gaming on his pad. my brother's house is elegantly spacious, but badly untidy. I blamed him for several times and now I don't intend to preach more for a narrow minded man. its not wonderful as what I imagined but my tiring battle against PRC surveillance healed. after the Spring festival, my financial situation might worsen steeply but God dad, I have faith in the way leading me through. dad God, bring me sooner my Royal China, bring me my girls in new year in new family. grant us debt free and purchase power among my credit cards.

17/1/2016

prepare to launch. dreamt building house with my alumni. A teacher led us to push down a wall. Chenfeng, Hunan graduate in my Nankai Univ alumni, push so hard that fell with the wall and startled me by possible tragedy. then dreamt with my son before flight tour, which demands detailed list of future activities to prove innocence. I burned brain to cover all possible agendas in the list to satisfy censorship. last weekend fulfilled with joys when my son unpack new purchased goods in my dorm. we have first compute stick for portable computing, for securer storage. my son less gamed on pc while immersed in his pad games. on Sunday he first time forgot bringing his gears for spa. he likely grows and looking into more wonderful world other than video games. his mom now less intervenes my work in her house for my son's living standard. in our gathering I complained a lot about closer surveillance PRC tyrant exerts upon us. now the last week before we cruise our 2nd flight tour together. that's likely the main concern we seldom touched. 2015, esp lunar 2015, brings so many surprises we hardly counted on. in cheerful 2016 we eager to gain its preview and outline. aboard will do the job and alienate curiosity. God, dad, grant me return some of my credit deficit, ensure my credit's purchase power and readiness. prepare us a happy journey in southern China. bring me my Royal China when I productive.

14/1/2016

dream of military talk. dreamt first play go with an alumnus, with his friend, a PLA commander of PRC as side watcher. I discussed with the battalion about military organization, claimed on battle field a battalion is a standard unit, rather than squad nor company. I also discussed CCP history and its strategy. during the chat, we saw a huge ant lair in building. these days peacefully enjoyed English world online after half settled vpn router app. intensified contacting vpn support team under PRC surveillance led to draw: I can't access vpn from router, but its desktop version grants me youtube and open world as first time I was amazed by. yesterday I trying to deploy the vpn service on my second router, a Chinese gee router, its again blocked at once, even previous HK based vpn servers unable to connect, too. the sinking PRC bitch too weak to afford anything extra, and tries all means to honey pot domestic users with infected hardware and software, just for sinful espionage and breaking apart massive angers before last straw weight it down. this week I also ditched my 3 dynamic sites on google cloud engine, after misconfiguration locks myself outside. I will try to make full usage of google sites, and zoho sites, which both elegant product line. In holy Urgency, I bought myself another gadget, intel compute stick. I'm so complacent after seeing last year's upgrade of intelligent gears brings about productivity. God, dad, grant me remove credit deficit more or less in lunar new year. enable my credit with purchasing power and sustainable capacity. grant us smooth flights between here and our vacation destiny, my kid brother's house in southern China. bring me sooner my Royal China, Asoh Yukiko, my other sweet girls, as well as our best fruits, into my new family. dad God, led me to new level of glory and grace.

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6/1/2016

bell rings for victory. its like an essay. I dreamt I was a little small girl who orally cites in dream world. she works in a chemical factory or company. she said many old chemical materials after years turns like a thin paper, a blow can destroy it. she has me as her husband and another girl colleague. one day she found her or her colleague had great discovery and turns famous. the girl admires the celebrity so much she decided to show her love. her husband agree to her plan. she bought the celebrity gifts, who accepted and drank with them in the party. the little girl drunk and had to release herself. but mistakenly wrapped shits in huge tissues and stuck inside her clothes and slept. her husband found later the huge shits and help her clean it. her mother-in-law also offers a hand. the shits seemingly not so foul, like bull shits. its likely a small town, small changes in life, steady while boring improvement socially. its likely a victory dream, after so many days hard working against PRC heavy espionage and breaking attempts upon my setup new vpn routers. for deploying the vpn router, I almost punched son's mom, a stupid moll, with fist, when she forced my leaving while I just in heat fixing. the small woman buzzed police station demanding cop's visit but delayed or refuted. I waited some time till found hardly able to continue work, then I left. those 2 workdays each almost 18 hours non-break till late night I fought online to get update for the vpn router while sinking PRC surveillance blocked all means. I contact support team of the vpn and got tips quite helpful. last night near 1 am, everything works well, including claimed 2 auxiliary mobile phone numbers from Chinamobile for my son and myself, but this morning turn on one router found it update again ruined. God, when I can get rid off this scam in PRC, my vested kingdom? grant us new open cyberspace with aid of new vpn, dad God, grant me access English world and world view of united God's kingdom on the earth. thx for all breakthroughs and task on going.

27/12/2015

dreamt being in media industry again. dreamt my old career, media. my once colleague, Xu Chuanyou, appeared in office and brag his investment. then I worked as chief editor of media company whose boss is Li Ka-shing. I made lots of efforts on designing skyline scene as new cover image of our new campaign. Li heard my report and arranged support for my promotion. then on roof of the office building, I arranged crew, reporters onto world affair stage. our business booming and I woke up. these days constrained by mis-configuration and can't access my google cloud engine. one of my site, zho.io, went offline for week after succeeded to patch new security, and then went wrong strangely. I searched the web for fix but misled by tutorial with faults, put my all site and security key vulnerable public. likely the automatic protective mechanism prevents me logon since then. lacking of linux administrative skill upset me deeply, even sometimes online community quite helping and growth of learning inspiring. the canteen operator's family gathering again, his old mother, whose manner always repulsive for me, might urge her daughter-in-law, the only woman in the operative team of the canteen I admit, refuse to loan me for return my credit deficit. the operator and his wife both lied when I asked for loan. in holy confidence when I bathed in sunshine after lunch in front of dorm, I decided time to book flight for scheduled son's winter vacation in my kid brother's house in southern China. soon with my credit I got 2 ticket of airline. my kid brother generously sent me ￥5000 to cover the expense. with it, I returned historical loan, ￥1400, to the canteen at once and likely let the operator at loss. with year end closing, my son and myself cheered by coming visit southern.
God, dad, after so many tries I more and more got familiar with securer Internet access. now I enjoy borderless cyberspace so much. I try my best to cover my son with best education and entertainment online, esp from US. thx for the solid improvement, thx for peaceful workspace here around us. bring me sooner my Royal China to educate more freedom lives on the scary land in sinking PRC. bring me my girls and our offspring for joy of heavenly. thx financial support, esp my respectable credit cards, changes my life so much.

22/12/2015

dreamt of alumni.dreamt just after entrance exam. I frustrated upon my test score and didn't want to check how it is. then Wu Jiang, my Nankai Univ classmate and long time class leader, berthed upper me, now a professor in US, murmured my enrollment admirable. 3 university enlisted me, including Nanjin Film Academy, which he claimed the only domestic acting school allows students not have to stand to learn every lesson. likely a famous accounting university also enrolled me. Yang Jin, also Nankai Univ alumnus now Canada citizen, also show his envy. then I boost his dignity in his choice university, likely accounting specific, too. I claimed nowadays most important companies employ accounting company for their financial report to stock market, so the accounting market open,consolidate and capable. Yang glad to hear my affirmative. I then enjoyed my success I almost mistakenly overlooked. then Wang Yunqing, a Nankai annumus from northeastern China and now a manager in state mine company in his hometown, whose major is accounting and enterprise management, asked me something and I inspected for him. last Sunday I told my son, woz, Hope of China, God of Universe, my decision to move farer from him, against his mom's manipulation of his timetable for her profit. I will only visit him on Sunday and just spend time with him for shower and lunch weekly. my son didn't comment upon the change which will leaves more time alone on him, at least from his dad. we ate toast buffet I enjoyed more and more grilling on my own, but he only ate first several slices and full. in bathroom I bathed him mostly, left him clean shampoo himself. when I alone showering, I felt dizzy and worn arm almost unbearable. escaped from the spa, his mom waited us at home. the woman in unusual weak voice ask my son's companion after we tried awhile pc games. I left previous before they preparing to leave. in Monday I tried again to add google ads onto my site, agarten.in. failed but knowledge increased on the web app. China surveillance recently frequently hard reset and cut down my physical network about half hour each time, and so on when they can't afford. the miserable bitch relentless insults frustrations. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to family my children. bring my girls when I empowered for tender and beautiful. grant me pay back more debt to bank, foresee my journey with my son to southern China with my kid brother's family in lunar new year. thx for the snowing, dad God.

19/12/2015

dreamt getting trouble in hometown of been loved as same gender. dreamt I enjoyed school term vacation at hometown, Zhudajiu. my passed mother appeared in dream. the one of my cousin, quite older than me, punished their daughter who acclaimed in love with me as gay. I was at home and absent from the troubled scene where the rebellion daughter shamed and admitted guilty, but at a distance where I can hear and discuss my confession with crowd around myself. in the mid, the gay I engaged turns to be a handsome elemental school teacher in family name Liu lives neighbor village and whose sister married a villager just near my old house. I defended my emotional innocent. that was dream when I napped after sent my son, woz, to his custody, his mom after a night ported in my dorm monthly. this past week I busy with restore layout and adsense element on agarten.in, one of my dynamic sites hosted on google cloud engine. I made hard and slow progress in situation where frequently programming skill needed while I seldom gained in past career. but it almost done before I fetched my son after his swim exercise near 7:30pm in downtown Qiqihar. waiting since the afternoon put me relentless. I also tried new steam games before my son can join in his descending my dorm. in the chill on bus stop I witnessed so many young persons in their prime time while I prayed for a young wife so many years. with my son we did quick shopping in Walmart, in which slump economy put less customers at scene and we first time didn't queue to check out. we still spent near ￥300 there, including foods, pillars, and hardware tool I admired long ago. in nearby KFC, we ate deliciously and left prompt. settled in dorm, my son tried games I prepared for him and myself. he forgot bringing glasses with him, so I took him away from screen soon and urged him played his pad games for the sake of his sight. he has huge update list and till 1 am I got up powered down the dorm room. I also found his quilt needs rearrangement lest uncover his back and body. its my fault to urge him put more of rest quilt between us on same bed rather than allowing it slides onto ground which usually dirty and spilt with water for we clean our feet with hot water before bed. next morning I sleepy while my son got up early around 7am after a late night before 11pm. he urged to leave first for he dislike the tentatively separating us tiny woman, his mom, would arrange electronic music lesson again upon his late return. I took taxi after KFC breakfast and at his mom's house, he soon took away to swim exercise by visiting grandma's companion. returned to dorm again I tasteless and gave up fixing site's adsense problem and napped, after cleaned my room, ventilated indoor. dad, God, my life here lends where for glory? I don't know. I cherish moments so much with my son, and prepared them heartedly, but more and more an even brighter shift ahead turns clear. dad, God, let me fulfilled with joys there when the Son's glory deserves. bring me sooner my girls when I mates, bring me my Royal China when that matters the earth event. thx for the cover of dream, dad, God, for message in this sunny afternoon.