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Tuesday, May 12, 2009

a blessed day, breeze after rainning night.

family of neighbor.

the road to zhudajiu, my hometown village.

it has been days since i returned from Tianzhen, the town my elder sisters, including my most cherished family member, my youngest elder sister, live. the decision to return Zhudajiu, my hometown village, was when i caught sight of the burning sunshine outside of elder sister's house's window, which is rightly my long time dream in Qiqiqhar, northeastern China, and the cause of my hometown journy. another reason is the rain here, so plenty each time it pours and times it occurs. this morning and recent days i reviewed the love from a girl student under family name lǘ (in Chinese the syllabus can also mean rain), when she regularly haunted emakingir's house for English tutorial even her English score quite satisfying in ema's school. she loves me and shown it with her best way she can adopt. she even descended to fight with ema around the table in ema's house to exam if she qualified to win me aside her in her life from my old family. i today learned from holy message that her love to me is true and divined. i would grant her to make ways to reach me and live along me in my life.

that love also remind me a early love occurred in my senior middle school, in a prodigious school, Huanggang middle school, Hubei Prov., central China. a girl always with marvelous scholar scores and frequent the top score owner in our grade, in the same family name lǘ, visited my hometown and slept in our old house a night when we took occasionally, at least for me, the same ship returning our hometown in vacation. i never second time receive the same level of brave a girl can shown upon her beloved. at that time we r in our fifteen's and i never dared to attracted her fond, for in most of my senior middle school years i was depressed by insufficience on score in exams. i don't know the night what happened to her, but she didn't contact me anymore after it, in the rest of our senior middle school years. i missed her very much but never had the confidence to invite her interview with me again. the last time i cared her up in my heart is when i saw she sat with a guy from the same county of hers on the grass in the school in sunset and talked. i then sure i was a loser and i put my long time love for her into death pool. the guy later didn't become her husband, but gracefully and enviable for most Chinese young men migrated into US with a scholar career. he is rightly the man help me get my first domain, be21zh.org, from American domain registrargodaddy.com. while the lǘ, palely settled in a secondary city, Yichang, within Hubei Prov., likely continued to research her major in college, virus. i never had an insight of the life or psychic set of a extradinarily able girl or woman, and also never got insight to the brave and sudden visit she brought to me the quite early year in our youth. she was a puzzle in my life, and i awared it before i first time fell into madness, back to 1999 or so.

its a cool day, after 2 days of first wave of heat in the summer here in Hubei Prov., central China. i enjoyed the dry and solid heat in burning sunshine very much, as i long time expected and the meaning of my hometown journey, the great gift from my Japanese girl and fiancee, Masheng. it started to rain in sunset, a real surprise for me, for it don't usually have too many rains on the latitude in summer. most of my beloved, r strong and powerful girls, i know, and i enjoyed my favored fate with so many beautiful creatures of God, they r in fact one of my wife, but very different facets of one diamond of the most beautiful. they live with strenth in my universe in my shine, all the one and Mightiest God's set.

its now just after noon, and breeze let me glad. with the help of Masheng, i now befriend with wind, esp. breeze. quite some other sounds still kinds of alarms for me, let me in fear of God's rage, or enemies' conspire that can hinder the way toward my Royal or kingdom, but i will live with all power from God, and live in joy forever gradually.

ps: when i posting recent 2 blogs, folks' hatreds arriving, a weeping women came to my old house to tell her being beaten by the same villagers. its all the demons against my Royal, here esp. my past dad, the God. they surely only one way to leak their failure and envies, that's death, sooner or later.



life in unstable: hometown journey

i was asked to visit my elder sisters' home before i arrived my hometown. so, after stayed at hometown village, zhudajiu, for more than a week, i visited Tianzhen, the town i haunted when i studied in junior middle school some mile away, and my past eldest sister lived near the town when then worker class in China society in rural area still domineer and enviable. all my sisters married in the town but i most missing my eldest sister, who once the proud of my old family, and commit suicide by jumping into Changjiang river in a dawn after quarreled with her husband when her 2 children still in their childhood. that's the bravest deed i ever known. so many year i still got courage from her, knowing that one thing anyone can pick, death.

in the week in the town, i slept in my youngest elder sister's house, while went to work online in my second elder sister's house, where evils frequently challenged me. the house owner, my elder sister's husband, a family name ruan (the same syllabus in Chinese can mean soft), just like my baby's grandma, is really a demon, the 2 nephews from the start peeking my life and attempted to mimic me. God knows how they frustrated in the process of stealth and envy.

this week, i almost did what i in view that's important. my sleep was not smooth, for weak sound, like crack or steps around, can woke me up. my elder sisters, as well as their husbands, all in rotation of working time table, cater to the full orders in the cement factory they work for. most of time i was alone slept in the whole house, on second floor. in my hometown village, even more sounds in nights, for the mountains and forest so close, and there r cattle. so i usually listening till mid night exhaust took me into sleep. quite some of them really holy message, God sees my life sounder here in coming months.

its the first morning i returned hometown village from Tianzhen town. last night i listen a lot, and dreamed a lot. i dreamed of God and his way of evolution, from one to 2, to 4, etc. i also felt the perished environment, including the ill will from my mother, my sister-in-law or my eldest brother. i dreamed surveillance in college,  and among the students of God message, including that from my blogs. i also know my beloved suffering surveillance exerted by the China authority nowadays.

Sunday, May 03, 2009

the plenty land: my hometown journey

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=192784050569

http://www.facebook.com/v/192784050569

the front yard of my past dad's old house




my dad's old house had been surrounded by evil minded follower villagers. but the most precious asset, the broad front yard paved by mostly large stones, made by my dad when he worked, is almost intact even the front side sliding under evil power. here is the introduction.

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=192759295569

http://www.facebook.com/v/192759295569



my hometown, Central China, is a rain plenty place. it rained just shown welcome in the first day on my arrival. then drizzled in night. i usually blessed by my God if i was in move by love, or the evils trying to dirt my ground. the rain in my hometown usually heavy, can flow on ground like stream. its so nice to see u again when i m in the first year of my 40s.

Saturday, May 02, 2009

a talk between a post-graduate, also a hometown folk, and me via im, about my hometown journey.

日期:2009-5-1
benzrad
16:12:04
我现在朱大九。估计呆4个月。
朱水文
16:12:31
你为撒回去呢? 
朱水文
16:12:35
 
benzrad
16:12:57
想老家啊。该干了早干。
朱水文
16:13:13
不用上班吗? 
benzrad
16:13:27
在老家听说你结完婚了。
朱水文
16:13:48
我不是 今年过年来 跟你提过吗? 
benzrad
16:13:53
班上就那么回事。天意啊。
benzrad
16:14:02
不记得。
朱水文
16:14:07
咋这么说呢? 
朱水文
16:14:14
 
benzrad
16:14:34
你忙,我忙别的。
朱水文
16:14:42
好的 
日期:2009-5-2
朱水文
16:13:13
?? 
benzrad
16:13:14
您好,我现在有事不在,一会再和您联系。
朱水文
16:13:15
在吗? 
benzrad
16:33:59
刚注意。
朱水文
16:34:33
你在家里可好 
benzrad
16:34:58
还行。正在整理照片和博客。
朱水文
16:35:20
哦 
benzrad
16:35:27
照片这两天上传,有近200张,风景和任务。
benzrad
16:35:32
人物。
benzrad
16:35:56
昨天刚上网。憋了十几天。
朱水文
16:35:57
不错 
朱水文
16:36:10
这10几天干吗去了? 
benzrad
16:36:51
关心这个啊?看天看地看风景呗。
朱水文
16:37:27
朱大九的风景不错 
benzrad
16:38:40
是啊,也有败家子
朱水文
16:38:55
谁? 
benzrad
16:40:36
开山的,投水的。
朱水文
16:48:41
我最烦的是 村里垃圾太多,特别是白色污染。
本来乡村应该是 山清水秀,鸡叫狗吠,一派祥和。 但好像现在不是。。。。 
benzrad
16:53:24
白色污染那是全球性的,我没在意。关键是固态的东西,恒久的东西,像后壁山,大坝等。
benzrad
16:55:51
稍远一些的动工的更多,出了水库外边的那些山,不少都派了值得疑虑的用场,像取石,殡葬,石灰等。
朱水文
16:56:55
发展没有规划 
朱水文
16:57:01
乱 
benzrad
16:57:18
还有风水这一层
朱水文
16:57:47
你是说破坏了 我们村的风水? 
benzrad
16:59:04
那个我暂时不懂,但是山气水脉,天灵地育之类我很信。
benzrad
17:01:36
听说你弟弟找着了,真让人唏嘘。
朱水文
17:02:34
是啊,
我前不久去看他了 
朱水文
17:02:51
还行,就是没找到钱 
朱水文
17:03:07
人身体各方面还行 
benzrad
17:03:51
你弟弟那个可能很阳气的。不为人用可能挺佑家人的。
benzrad
17:04:26
梦想多远,就能走多远。
benzrad
17:05:07
过去人的出息是大约可以用里程来计的。
朱水文
17:05:45
"你弟弟那个可能很阳气的。不为人用可能挺佑家人的"

这怎么理解? 
benzrad
17:07:16
有时候出人意外是很有价值的,就像好点子。科学的进步就是假说包容力的扩展。
benzrad
17:07:58
不为人知的空间是极其稀罕的。我这么觉得。
朱水文
17:08:18
感觉你思想很有深度 
朱水文
17:08:25
谢谢你! 
朱水文
17:08:30
对了,
我准备进四川工作了啊。 
benzrad
17:08:40
你的头像很让我反感,蓝色和狗都很倒霉的。
朱水文
17:08:58

那我准备换一个 
朱水文
17:09:12
你给点意见我, 
benzrad
17:09:31
随你。反正你的爱好引起我的警惕。
benzrad
17:09:53
人自有命,没啥可说的。
朱水文
17:11:55
你刷新下,
我头像换了啊 
朱水文
17:12:15
你感觉这个怎么样? 
benzrad
17:12:32
随便的了。人缘不是强求的。
朱水文
17:12:57
你怎么每次说话这样深度呢?
你的建议 我愿意采纳 
朱水文
17:14:01
我很愿跟你做朋友 
benzrad
17:15:37
师傅,不是愿不愿意,是命然。另外,我想把这个谈话发到我的博客,行不?你要求的话我可以去掉你的名字或甚至你的发言。我也觉得我说的有精彩。
朱水文
17:16:08
当然可以 
benzrad
17:16:15
尤其是关于朱大九的,只是我想记录的。
benzrad
17:16:19
谢谢。
朱水文
17:16:42
基督教也老提到'命'这个字眼吗 
benzrad
17:19:41
天使不是吗?上帝之路已经有许多先知和天使在前驱和善后。约翰不是吗?圣经说他是先于基督到达的,把受洗者领到基督前。
朱水文
17:21:27
受教 
benzrad  17:27:56
还有东方三王来拜。流数和摩西就更是啦。我就看过旧约的前面到约翰的几章。希望有机会读完。
benzrad  17:28:55
小布什也不爱看书。神授不用学者和法师或律师。
benzrad  17:29:45
就一个信。