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Wednesday, June 11, 2014

shrink into dream of hometown 2.

11/6/2014

2nd hometown flight tour planning.^ yesterday I was sorry for distant from my hometown sunshine while Qiqihar, northeastern China, frequently cloudy in May, 2014 even in Jun. then 2nd hometown tour came into me, with my son via flight.then I launched to raise fund from my hometown & alumnus in Nankai Univ. I also told my elder sister who will cooked for us, and my son under his mom's custody to prepare. this dawn dreamt all my alumni leaving for party or treat,except me lost something &desperate trying to retrieve. my passed mother cooking banquet for us. she kindly urged me among her guests no harsh. after peed I dreamt I tried all means to evade but still proved solid choice in the 2nd hometown tour. last week google service fatally blocked by China surveillance, which brought many inconveniences for freedom seeker in the doomed country. my son made proud progress in his video game,Shin Sangokumusou 7 with Moushouden, and we talked a lot about the famous Chinese history and heroes in the period. I'm surer my world view shared with my son, glories under Holy. soon after our first flight hometown journey, I told him we unable to afford the travel,which cost about 10,000 CNY, in several years. he admitted. now I informed him my new plan, even among harder PRC's economy, I hope we share faith in God's, in his plenty, his save. we will go off on Jul 21 and return on Aug 23. we like travel so much! not several occasions when we met coach bus ported near his mom's community, I remarked, how wonderful if we just step in and leave for weeks. We need to know our free space and what its capacity. we enjoy absence awhile on our hard-brew duty, for worship, for elation of sure things and for proud. God, dad, I have insight on funding not easy, grant me a happy journey which means freedom, heats, delicacy, funs of play. dad, afford our journey wonderful as its last one, and brings more fresh in this longer tour. God, let me handle all the travel stuff to ensure our indeed travel. bring me sooner my Royal China, my Queens into new family fruitful. thx dad, in this sunny morning.

5/6/2014

dreamed of consulting smart guy about my dignity. ^dreamed anxious about my sexual arouse not strong enough. then visit one junior middle school classmate, Chen Yangsheng, a slim, tall and sensitive prodigy with enviable silver complexion and one of smartest pals in my memory. he led me to ramble and made checklist to test my tendency. after some close questions he raised to inspect, I entrusted him and told him how I felt gifted or chosen since I was young. a kid boy or girl squat near us and watched us, before we end talk and I woke up. yes, I really sensed how I assured about my destiny of chosen when I was a kid. I was trusted by so many noble people, including my parents and siblings. I was so sure that most things in the world won't hurt nor break me, eventually. I felt the pain and proud to claim the fact, before a scientist like Chen. its a mild sunny morning after sultry yesterday, and dwelling rains in May, 2014. passed lunar dragon boat day costs more than expected but joys be worth it. we rushed to pick a 3D animation in cinema but regret after found its a Chinese product. we also rushed to pick a steak buffet after movie, but son didn't eat much among the rich choices. next day I treated him fish hotpot, for I missing fish with hot peppers cooked in my hometown, but we again didn't find proper compensation, at least not in the meal. day by day I saw my son's growth of independence, it sometimes hurt by my presence. but at least this holiday, I saw my son delighted together. we made progress in video games as usual. God, I beg ur assurance of mighty of love, overcome of rebellious teenage and adulthood. I beg u of innocence of company in his holy glory. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China, my girls into new family fruitful. dad, God, allow my son space in such a condensed cell of surveillance. cover us with enough sleep in front of dark eyes and evil speculations. thx, dad.

29/5/2014

dreamt of Tibet alumnus, Benba Chungdak. ^dreamt first we making a living as street vendor. then Benba Chungdak quit. soon we found we have to make a living from scratch again, for our family, or our parents unable to support us. we first each vend on street. Benba Chungdak with his art college classmates, Li Moufeng, etc, grouped to sing opera in non-traditional way. in such a hard life in dream, I counted on Benba so much and prayed for better life for us. one of our relatives visited us but didn't help. finally Benba Chungdak and his alumni invented singing and lives a life by performance. When I wake up I tried to blog it. then I reviewed how I dependent in dream on him, esp in hard living. its almost 20 years passed since I last contacted him who waiting graduate in Tianjin art college while I just worked in QRRS, a SOE. May's deficit passed tearfully after my eldest brother's only daughter loaned us ¥1000. yesterday QRRS dispatched a bonus, including ¥300 to me. God, since the rain season I relaxed in ur bliss. these nights I watched English drama, "The white Queen", which brings so many meanings and visions, let me see how sin equals to death, and its trap the lifeless struggle. merit lives upright and timeless, while abnormal emotion/mind lapses like shadow. I see history self-reveals and doesn't explain. I saw glory and grace untouchable. I saw throne in my title as prescribed. God, long wave of historical acting roles' influence is so clear and delusive for a usual human lifespan, I beg ur mercy and fortress. God, dad, lead my Royal China through 1109 years' China Empire coming wholly and pure. bring my girls and children beautiful and mighty. thx, dad, God.

21/5/2014

Dreamt eating fish with childhood pals in hometown village. ^likely I missing some childhood friends, like Zhu Yangchun who graduate and open his dental clinic in a small town then shift to HuangShi, 2nd level metropolis in Hubei Prov., Zhu Hongnong, one of my best friend in Zhudajiu, whose father is a worker and fed his family well,etc. this dawn dreamt we gathered in hometown village, Zhudajiu. I bought a squid. we started to eat its small parts. then I asked a pal's mother, a kind woman and died in her prime time, took its remain from her lintel or balcony. I shift it to where we gathered. its alive and cling onto my skin with its suckers. I feared somehow and read instruction how to kill it quick. arrived the place I asked pals kill it smart with scissor, knife. we then enjoyed the delicacy I recently frequently missing. last night it likely shallowly rained. I saw wet ground from window in dawn. my niece loaned me last night, remitted me around 11am. God, the dream shown me how many kind and fantastic people stayed joyfully in my life, enrich my past so much. no matter how frustrated sometimes by my tribe, I was enchanted by them. God, dad, reinforce me with faith in world justice. God, grant us a fish banquet this month or later. bring me sooner my Royal China to revitalize me. thx, dad God.
From 2014 admires
From 2014 admires
From 2014 admires

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

a year's plan in the summer time.

20/5/2014

an in time rain again. ^ last dusk I was chased by dogs. dirty old woman tried to defame me. in the night I should enjoy American TV dramas, but recent PRC banned lots of culture products overseas, claiming they against PRC's moral system. but I still find fun alone and idle. the rain didn't start when I went to bed, but in dawn its rhythm brought me dreams and peace. I dreamt as an intern in CCTV, PRC's assigned authoritative and dominative media. I interviewed by high rank cadre of the media tyrant & fear of clumsy. I indeed in dream of poor qualified, in fact felt miserably uncompetitive.then I did field survey of society, in minority area.a kid &his elder sister talk with us in their mountain village. they are funcy and cute. dad, God, so many burdens and hostility around my Royal China, so many protection U put us and stand us upright, God, I don't deserve a complaint for bareness nor dependence. the battle last long while I prone to homesick. God, dad, coming years more depressing in the economy as well as social and politics. God, guide me and my beloved through the warren and safe onto my promised land. God, dad, in this raining morning, with my girl Lyu's attending, I felt steady and inspired.

12/5/2014

a blessing rain from my girl Lyu.^ this week felt extreme lucky. I got my own 5 letters domain, zhone.mobi, for my long time used namespace for my family, an alias of oneizh for whose logo I designed years ago. during hard time of PRC's sliding low economy, I cling to concrete asset like the domain, with which I gathered courage to buy 5 years at once. my debt this month amounts to near ¥2000, but I felt easier since last sunny day and moisture days follow. this week also especially long for PRC public calendar shift labor day vacation and made the workweek 6 days. My son hesitated to me when we reunited. later he explained last week I blamed he didn't try new video games hurt him. we soon enjoyed together again, with lots of game playing. I treated him Dico's lunch after more than a month's break for hard economy. the weekend can't be more splendid. this dawn I dreamt first helping my 2nd elder bro rip ghost from his son or grand son.then dream on a train, usually most jamming and noise and dirty travel method, we occupied a small space,say kitchen, and cozy.after a meeting, one Guy, Xiu haitao, a big build Guy among my Qrrs colleagues once loaned me to pursue master degree in Nankai Univ back to 1999, gave up and left the kitchen with his baggage. when I got up to pee, I felt afraid of ghosts. I soon boot up for breakfast in canteen. the rain too beautiful to miss. God, bring me sooner my Royal China. help me stroll over the hard time in sinking PRC and its tyrant party. fetch back our leisure life style with dicos meal, and online shopping once a week or monthly. thx dad, God. secure my cyberspace assets and ease my concern of their security.

3/5/2014

dreamt exile. ^ First dreamt escape with General Chiang Kai-shek's army. Then dreamed with a German family. They live in the only tiny forest in Germany. their son tried to make friends during exile, make use of drug to feel better. his aunt, a girl, brings his parents to rescue him, forced his physical exercise in their yard. I liked the aunt in dream. after I scrabbled some of the dream and continued to sleep, I probed advantage of German. I played with the family, esp the father. Its a funny international labor day. my son expected it heartedly, for it includes movie "Captain America 2" in 3D cinema, steak lunch, visiting my dorm, and luxurious breakfast next morning in U.B.C coffee. it turned out really memorable. during the vacation I also claimed family 13th domain, riveryog.biz. its the only 8 letters domain we have. the .biz also enchants me so long. its all nice except hard finance weighted me lots. my eldest brother promised loan me ¥1000 while several days passed the tranaction didn't happen. I actually worried about draining out situation in my business. I hope I can break down barrier of debt, but it more and more shakes my confidence. God, I saw ur affirmative and uphold to it. God, dad, just let my work and life rolling like usual, smooth like deep river. God, I have lots to hope, but most in hurry is my Royal China. bring me sooner my girls, my Queens into my new family, and our children beautiful and gifted under new realm of my Empire of China, spans 1109 years follows.

24/4/2014

dreamed of being a graduate and in love with a girl Lyu. ^ in dawn dream I just after national graduate exam, and enrolled by Jilin University, an ivy league campus. my crushed girl Lyu also will study there the same year and only us 2 enrolled by the Univ. the term. my major is Cg, computer graphics and post effect, with parents, which odd in both eyes of girl Lyu and mine. my 2nd elder bro accompanied me to report in open season. he hurried me to sleep same bed in dorm with him but I felt queer & rejected. a little girl slept on a bed near me talking me while her grandma ordered her leaving. they beat each other. I tried to save the crying girl,then wake up. Girl Lyu loves me too.her major now forgot. when I met her among our classmates, I felt so sweet and so is she. in the end of dream, we got to know the campus is not in down town but quite rural. God, this month salary arrived lately, 200 more than March's. thx for the gift. we still in debt of ¥1000 and more. I hope I can fix it with my salary in coming seasons as summer can be busier season and brings more products ordered for the SOE, QRRS, my once and long time employer. celebrating the salary quite impressive. I bought my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, toast duck as planned, we enjoyed it so much. next day I bought him persimmons after knew he missing it. handing in subscription for boarding and fruits went also quite smooth. sometimes only experienced hard time before you know normal life and its costs so important to be sustained. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China, my Queens, Asoh Yukiko, girl Lyu, girl Zhou, girl TW. thx for this blessing morning enacted me before 6am. thx for life comes so peaceful.
From 2014 admires
From 2014 admires
From 2014 admires
From 2014 admires

Thursday, April 17, 2014

handsome spring before turning old.

17/4/2014

pray for save.^ this month should be tough finance for we hardly restrained our living expense. what's worse, son warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, made purchase in his pad games, totally ¥270. we ate Chinese lunch on each Sunday instead of Dico's we likes so much, save half of the meal, near ¥30. deficit sometimes let me down and slept a lot to avoid anxiousness. last Wednesday is a brilliant sunny day, I bought dry beef for son again to celebrate it. in the night when I reviewed holy revelation in my life, I'm affirmed so much. life of mine, not a burden but vision of indulge, treasure to glows. this dawn Dream again worms eat my flesh under skin, this time on my heel. it itches, when I inspected then found a cone hallow under my heel created by the parasites. then dream with my son, and my kid brother on a schedule for travel of train. I hold my son on the move in meetings in town while brother in hotel waiting for tickets to launch together. its urgent to be on time on every stage, while all means we have in uncertain. its like a nightmare of distraction during hurry up otherwise out of we afford. in late dream I tried to blog the dream till bright late spring morning. breakfast is enjoyable and breeze accords my query of witness. God, grant me independence of living with life style we enjoy so far. rid me want and debt, and vulnerable under superficial life, to pursue truth and beauty of spirit. God, dad, coming month will commence summer, funnest season for my son and myself in every year. cover our joy time expense and focus on moments we reunite.bring me sooner my Royal China to forward history in Asia. bring me my girls, my Queens in my family, like running river of forever life.

7/4/2014

dreamed of Thailand. ^ I fixed wandering idea of helping our tribe in family name Zhu getting a cyberspace by building them a website. last Friday I booted up courages among harder economy within PRC and claimed zhus.asia domain from godaddy.com. its my family's 12th domain. God sees how I am contented and how heavy a burden for me without a supporting backbone business while extending realm restlessly. PRC went its traditional holiday, mourning day for 3 day vacation, I hate it for I again had to hunt for meals with extra budget. however we had a groupon of pizza buddy meals previously subscribed, so we spend our lunch out there, after 3D cinema. my son enjoyed steak there very much. I ate fully till no feeling for food. we also shopping in nearby Walmart, where I finally got my socks on stock. son got his beef jerky I long time planned him. on taxi returning, warrenzh my son, Hope of China, God of Universe, leaned on back seat and quietly browsing street scene through car window alone. my financial status causes him unease, I guess. this dawn I dreamed in Thailand, I tried to use dictionary to translate. God, I will never cash out ur legacy I inherited. dad, God, bring me sooner my Royal China and lives us a living and resilient sound business. thx, dad, here in the bright morning.

1/4/2014

dreamt of Lyu Songya,my incomplete love. ^ in dawn dream, I met Lyu Songya, my Huanggang senior middle school alumnus, now a professor in Wuhan Univ. so many years I yet know why she decided to visit my passed dad's old house when we went to hometown after aboard a same ship during summer vacation in HG middle school, where I missed her but unable to claim my love to her for academic pressure so high for me while so light for her, and when I didn't sense she ever cared me in the school we boarding and lodging. In dream I sometimes tangled Lyu with one of my QRRS colleague, Zhang Xianbin, a Hunan migrator and now a sales director of the SOE. we interacted a while when we both lingered in QRRS dorms and she a year earlier join the company than me. finally Lyu show deep concern on me in the dream. I tried to blog in dream, but when I got up, I almost lost them all. God, I feel blessed in ur love, among beautiful girls' love with me. show me the way to reach out for solid homeland, to girls I love and be family. God, my son recently got cold and ankle wrench, help him recover soon. next month will be important, for we missing old life standard supported by my salary of ¥2100. let's resume our pastime with adequate spend power. thx Dad God.

24/3/2014

Dreamt with my Nankai alumni. ^last night my 2nd brother buzzed in again to assure his support, ¥1000 to help me fix my family living deficit. Sohu.com, a pioneer importer of American TV soap drama in PRC, narrowly restricted its service to force its users install its own browser, likely favorites its surveillance, cooperates with the tyrant state communist party. this dawn I again got up in time, to find its around 5:30am, from deep dreams. the dorm's Internet is down as usual said for maintenance. I soon napped in my chair. in dorm of Nankai University, I talked with monitor or someone, for higher living standard forced me sell some property I inherit for cash. then in campus canteen, Wang Hui, one girl Nankai alumni, do her job as saleswoman there, received me, counted my broken bills and destroyed them after counted & exchanged for meals. she is kind and emphasized me not again to sell my inherited. I yelled, never even die, but before I shout out the phrase, I woke up. its a sunny morning. God, dad, help me sustain my life so far, let me enjoy wonderful moments in my life here with my son and children arriving, in my Royal China with my 4 wives.
From 2014 admires
From 2014 admires

Saturday, March 22, 2014

everlasting joy bewitches Royal China, among pitiful hard time now.

22/3/2014

happy reunion among harder economy.^ long expected March salary among gloomy PRC's economy arrived in pitch, dropped to 1400 CNY, in a sunny day. that put my routine life in blizzard, including weekends dine out, recent shopping online for replace son's shoes and our woolen pants, even my boarding subscription would go debt. after reviewed my situation, I buzzed my 2nd brother who recently rarely buzzed in after he saw my mobile in his contacts when trying an messenger app, yixin. he usually means for his life not always in his expectation, but I hope he saves this April of my family. in a vision, I felt enemies of my Royal China put my own in a test upon what I claimed, faith in God, in bright future of China as well as the world pilots my anchor next millennium. In last night dream when my son ported in my QRRS Dorms, my passed parents gathered with us unusually,talked about their times' tale, their nightmare when they young and green hand. that's something weird. then my son called me, in his dream or wake up. I answered him immediately. but he didn't responded. soon neighbor beasts punched the paper wall heavily, like it insanely did all time, trying ignite my wrath of revenge. I calmed after efforts, let go old foe. then in dream when I visiting hometown village, Zhudajiu, national war called upon, duty of serving the army for every young men seeks even remote like the village. I was in the enlist.my sinful cousin with his sons visited me, discuss how to evade the crushing way ahead of a soldier. I felt in danger& panic, even know the cousin never kind, but I listened their sell. My son recently more turns quiet and resting. God, dad, relieve his burden upon debts I brought in the prospect of my Royal China of next 1109 years in eastern Asia. God, dad, bring hearted joy and laughter in his budding youth. thx, dad, here is my prayer ever answered today, in these blessing sunshines.

19/3/2014

a late heavy snow in spring 2014. ^ these days I seemingly lack of sleep. every morning I Wake up in time but each time lingering deep in dreams and merely sober mind when sit aside bed. I enjoy breakfast as usual, engaged with online free stuff like working bee. but every short moment when I leaned on bed I fall into nap soon. every nap likes a long journey before I return to earth steadily. this, esp this dust's nap lets me wonder how wonderful or awful my life is now. do I enjoy every reunion with my son, my most concerned, as usual? do I prepare for my absence on the earth for meeting my dad, God in Heaven now, in paradise soon or late? most workdays I was busy, prepared commencement of my Empire online and offline, stuff to make fun now and future. do I exhaust more or less? yesterday Its a sandy day, snow follows this noon and turns turbulent a beautiful scene. its also helpful for plants in spring, on the drying planet. I prepared more paypal accounts for my business, for purchases future overseas, esp in US. I was blocked from American goods so long, I despair want to be with them, including my recently bought chromebook via a taobao.com shop specifying shopping overseas. sooner US will dispatch my packages I orders online. that means freedom extends me more, comparing several years ago I had to ask Taiwan friend in cyberspace to buy me godaddy domains. I then even poorer than deserving a credit card. now I have my 1st credit card from CCB and transacted via it in past months for more than 5000 CNY. we harvested so many wonderful goods from online orders.
God, dad, this moment the dorm's power down abrupt. I was allowed to review my recent status, which so meaningful that I barely blogged. coming month still challenging, for I deficit 300 CNY now. dad, God, I live on u so many years with bare hands. looking forward, I see humors of life and wits in my soul uprising. thx, dad, God, allow me praying in this temporarily black out night.

14/3/2014

dreamed of Masayoshi Son. ^ these days saw and heard lots of QRRS young workers idled in dorm. some factories of QRRS shut down for no orders. gloomy economy also depressed me, while spending method opener and handier day by day. say, 2 Chinese logistic enterprises, stoexpress.us and sfbuy.com, open service for overseas shopping. 2 biggest e-commercial portal, alibaba and tencent, next week will offer e-credit card to boost Chinese expending online. the only prime is your wallet is filled solidly. last night when I told my son online the progress undergoes in nowadays PRC, he quit after sensed my anxious upon expanding unemployment and underpaid. this dawn I dreamt CEO of softbank, the Korean entrepreneur built his industry empire in Japan. I see how Japanese open over world culture and spices, tolerant to versatile products and alien races, inc popular social app, line again by Korean. I saw the greatest responsibility on Japan to guard democratic inherit since pilot of USA. Its a shinny morning, God, bring me sooner my Royal China to home my children, future of China on eastern Asia. God dad, show me way to meaningful and plenty. I saw the promise, God, thx.

10/3/2014

Dreamed again I'm in my wedding.^ recently life too beautiful to blog. everyday we made progress. in our shared moment, my son, warrenzh and me advanced among video games. we also chatted via sms a lot and that makes us understanding more each other. yesterday during shower in public spa, he first time fainted. with his pad he soon recovered and we ate bananas after returned to his mom's house. my son put so many affections on me that sometimes I felt terrified for the responsibility. but God, I have no choice, no dodging way to evade. I had to put all my life under God's shine, which so affirmative even among daily chores. God, bliss open my eyes wide for the mighty. don't let me down upon heroic inside me, in my Royal family.
this dawn I 2nd time dreamt in my wedding ceremony. my bride seemingly not the one I familiar, but proud as she is, and I was contented heartedly. her parents have firm hands over wedding affairs. I tried my best to make the ceremony gorgeous. in this dawn dream my childhood friend, Zhu Caigui, also from my hometown village Zhudajiu, in his wedding, too. I wake up around 6:30am and ate breakfast leisurely. God, bring me sooner my Royal China. Asoh Yukiko, attending our son and other children arriving closely. show warrenzh how to live in Japanese style. thx, God dad.
From 2014 admires
From 2014 admires
From 2014 admires