survive the chill before lunar new year.

Dec 20, 2016

dreamt detailedly about Japanese chore machine. there are 4 or 5 cabins, with different functions, like laundry, shower, putting on clothes, sleeping, massage, etc. each item has checkout or deduction, financial log function. shower and put on clothes let me lingered a lot. clothing charges 198 Japanese Yen. I even can't leave but trying more and more till penniless. they are all 360 rotatable, around human body inside. putting on clothes let you extending arms and shift your waist to slide into clothes with string direction. it even can be erotic. I later anxious if showering robot including smart toilet cover function. its a silent Tuesday morning. since Monday morning hoarfrost appeared on trees. salary day coming and I put on so many hopes. next month I will book airline and railway for our hometown tour, among rumors that during lunar spring festival holiday train ticket will be scarce. last Friday night my son, woz, Hope of China, ported a night in my dorm. recent credit debt crisis drove me away from caring his living, so many occasions I asked why he always put on his school uniform which is boring even in weekends, he didn't reply. I thought his mom or the grandma would buy him more or less clothes in my hard time. but they never. in the night when we lately went to bed, I found my son slept with an old style cotton-padded trousers, likely the trousers too tight to take off, my anger roused thick. I know at the moment his sinful mother never bought him new clothes, instead worn and outdated from her acquaintance's dustbin. I tried to pacify myself but can't. so I got up and ordered 2 winter trousers and 2 pants for being stylish my son deserves. I asked my kid brother to pay instead of me, for my only reservoir in ABC bank didn't bundle with mobile number and can't spend online. so next morning I brought my son on way returning his mom's house visit ABC bank and settled it. just when I preparing to pay via alipay, I found my order already paid, likely by my brother. so I additionally bought my son a pair of winter shoes on my own. I asked my son let me known next time when something needed. God, dad, what a misery my son was once! what a affirmative my role as a proud dad meaningful! dad God, never let that happen again, never deprive me from support my son's living! bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain Chinese children, China wet and land! bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, to improve my son's standard. in coming year end fulfill us with due joys and anxious free. grant us a flight tour for better means of travel and timespace.

Dec 12, 2016

dreamt of Jack Ma or alike. dreamt I was in relocation. then enrolled by a company like Alibaba.com. I found my colleagues in confidence to buy its stock shares at high price, near $21. then I felt the company boosting. then Ma came to interview us, while I busy with reading its finance report or company establishment. Ma had no place to sit down, for the only seat among my roommates occupied by me. after found that I calmly shift the stool to Ma. its a facing lake ground house, among other flat houses which now Alibaba's warehouse and delivery center. there were lots of flies with silver coat clouding in air when I reading the document. Ma offers our department deduction rate 12.3.4.12%, which quite generous. he likes leisure and strategy, grow up from wealthy southeastern China. last weekend I brought my son, woz, Hope of China, going cinema. we watched Japanese animation "Your name", which currently records largest box office revenue. its a touching story, reminds me of my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. woz complained too soon after last month's cinema. he upset by his internet unaccessible, for his mom attempting switch another ISP, replacing cable modem with fiber Optic cable while the telcom claimed currently no channel available and had to wait for next upgrade of capacity on its hardware. however, we managed to borrow neighbor's internet to play his favorite game, "garden warfare 2". his cold lasts 2 weeks and no recovery soon. his cough lets me anxious. I tried to hold him longer showered yesterday in hotter water even he complained burning, hoping the heat drives away more or less his cold. God, dad, in your bliss I didn't visit hospital for more than a decade, share my fitness with my dearest son, bring him more exercises and sports trains. spare his sight from intensive android games. grant his proud dad to equip him a pair of new shoes before our hometown journey 3rd, and clothes update via his cousin's online shop. God dad, bare us even in poverty and illness, unshakeable joy of hope and faith. bring me sooner my Royal China to uphold my Empire of China in 1109 years ahead, far more stable and concrete sovereign with neighbor Japan, and America. Grant us financial independence in coming salary. thx Dad.

Dec 8, 2016

recent unsettled matters leads me less blogging. this dawn dreamt my broken bromance with my Tibet artist friend, Bempa Chungdak. I saw in his domineer friend, another artist when we made friend in Tianjin where they studied art and craft design in Tianjin art college. in the bossy friend, Li, or my once department leader in QRRS, Sun, his house with his family, ie. his wife and only child. I waited Bempa spare his time for me, while he silently co-works with his partner, later shift to a workshop and closed the door behind. I saw their sculpture and other works, till they open the door again and returned to the lounge. Bempa still kept me muted, can't left his pal away. so I bitterly left, knowing our bromance fades forever, likes what I have now in reality. these days coming lunar new year festival holiday enthusiasm haunted me a lot, I longing for 3rd flight with my son, woz, to our hometown. my 2 elder sisters both asked me to come in gathering to spend the largest festival among Chinese. and my youngest elder sister's little son will hold wedding ceremony then. my sister promised offering us ￥5000 for flight and travel. my son likes air travel very much. but my credit debt will refrains us from modern and elegant voyage inc airline, according rumor on PRC's finishing civil solicitous credit system, even the cost between airline and railway almost ignorable. my acide kid brother tentatively advised us to pick railway which is dirty, exhausting and slow, according his research there is a straight line between Qiqihar and Wuxue, our hometown. he had tried most means to hurt me, lower promised aid monthly, cheatingly evaded returning my credit cards he took away. there must be hidden iron curtain in his living sphere. even last month salary casually incresed to ￥5000, the department cashier woman attempted to coerce me into obedient and idiotly satisfied. I have more renewal online to pay while my only working credit card diluted its facility to zero. God, dad, improve me higher to see safety of my properties, shift me anxiousless from uncertainty of my unclaimed sovereign. dad God, bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and my Royal China. bring us home and palace for settlement. grant us an enjoyable journey in woz's winter vacation, and workable credit for spanning things network in our living standard.

Nov 26, 2016

first dreamt with my youngest elder sister, I saw my prelife and felt creepy. then my past dad appeared and let me clean my ear. with help of tool, I managed dug out a ball of earwax. then barely with finger I dragged 2 large slices of earwax out, each the size of main palm, like meat slice or vegetable ones. I felt glad and told my son's mom, who also glad and our relation likely resume to its warm intimacy. I loathed to that backward and woke up, still felt left ear clearer and sharper actually. past week a bit messy for my web assets need renewal while sinking PRC desperate blocked it. thx God, my icbc credit debt right cleared and the credit card resumed to normal status, after 2 visits the largest bank in PRC to unlock strange freeze which defies several tries its clerks attempted on routine counter. still the credit quota is zero. I was suggested to deposit before paying with it, like a debit card. most needed USD account took another visit to the HQ to unlock, again with zero quota. I then tried to pay my USD shopping via paypal which can handle currency conversion automatically, but this time paypal strangely defied my logon. changed many times password I still can't logon via vpn. so I buzzed its Beijing office and cordially resolved it. but again strangely paypal declined my payment to amazon, google, godaddy even my PRC account fund enough, and previously never fail. its just freak out. then I gave up and directly switch to alipay, largest e-payment tool in PRC, and succeeded. God, dad, unclear my future web portal will survive, but God, mercy in your fortitude of my publication based on free service like google blogspot, zoho sites, etc which is abundant. grant us 3rd flight tour to my hometown with woz, dearest son. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain the prosperous of Asia under discipline. bring me year end bonus to enrich the celebration of new 2017.